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So many things happened to me, that I honestly can't believe that it did or wrap my head around it. It all came back from my childhood and how father SA me and I witnessed my father hitting my mother. So it sort of makes sense why I'd end up with an abusive man so to speak because it's what I...

Haha! Yeah my mother is happy to see me smiling for once and earlier she said to me, "So when you seeing Jonas again?" lol!!

I'm nice and my boyfriend took that to his advantage and abused me because he thought I would never stand up for myself. Now I sort of hold myself back when it comes to trusting people because I trusted my boyfriend and put my guard down. I had no idea that the abuse was going to happen or...

I watched the TV series Dark on netflix and now I'm crushing on Jonas, lol. I think crushing on an actor right now is safer than dating someone in real life for me at this moment. :) So it kinda made me feel a little better as I watching it. Distractions are great. :)

My anxiety is bad since I got out of an abusive relationship and I noticed that my body is shaking like crazy and I usually have to listen to meditation music to help me relax. Since I'm sensitive to caffeine which causes my anxiety to get worse I stay away from it because I'll just end up worse...

I have a hard time sleeping since my mind seems to race a lot. I have bipolar disorder outside of having PTSD and since I left my abuser I've even having a harder time sleeping for that matter. Once an unseen force was slamming me against the wall over and over again. This happened inside of my...

Please be supportive as possible. This is very hard for me to come forward about this and sometimes I still can't believe that it happened. I've blamed myself for a very long time for this and often as of right now I'm working on my self esteem. I met him at Walmart and we connected. First we...

Many people have told me that this is a issue but I've never felt comfortable in one night stands and I'm not fond of flings either. The only time I feel comfortable is when I'm in a relationship with someone. In the past I tried something with a friend once and I ended up stopping it because I...

I drank with my boyfriend one night and in the middle of me sleeping, I felt him on top of me. As I opened up my eyes, he was having sex with me. I was so drunk and out of my mind that I couldn't fight him off. The whole night was hazy and at one point, I remember telling him that it hurt really...

Before I used to let people walk all over me and I never once stood up for myself because I thought I was mean, aggressive and I'd let people get away with things because I thought inside my head if I ever stood up for myself once that they wouldn't be my friend anymore or talk to me so I...

I hate this sinking feeling in my stomach. I've been going on with my life and doing everything possible to make myself happy. Every so often a memory will come and I'll cry. I ruined so many relationships based on PTSD. I've never pushed anyone away or told anyone to go away, they ended up...

I'm looking for support mostly. Thank you.

I trust my boyfriend and I know he wouldn't hurt me. He loves me and he continues to see me. Sometimes I fear that I'll end up getting hurt again. This happened to me after I got out of an relationship with my abusive ex who gaslighted and manipulated me. My boyfriend is not my ex and I...

I'll look around and I feel very confused sometimes. I know that I'm on the computer as of right now. Sometimes I feel as if I'm floating and I'm someplace else. It takes a long time for me to react to situations or to move for that matter. I'm constantly lost and sometimes I feel as if I'm not...

I deal with PTSD and my boyfriend does as well. There's times where he gets distant and other times he will talk to me and we have great chemistry together. However when he's stressed out or upset, he's not thinking clearly and ends up not speaking to me during these times. I'm supporting him...

I blew up today and cussed at my mother, lately I've been stressed out and feeling anxious. In the relationship department, it's going so well. He's distant and hardly talks with me, very hot and cold. So I think I may stop speaking to him all together cause it's very similar to what my abusive...

I've been talking to this person for a while. They're logical and I don't mind this because I am to a point, though I am still emotional and cry over with what I've been through. Also suffer with depression on top of it too. They said something that kinda hit a nerve and I was wondering if I'm...

Right now I feel so isolated and alone right now. I even regret opening up to my friends about my abuse because it makes me look weak. Don't want people to feel sorry for me. Now that I'm alone I'm extremely jealous. Most of all my friends are happy, in relationships, married, have kids and I'm...

I don't hate any of my friends at all. In fact I love them so much and I'll do anything for them. Love helping them out anytime they need it because I'm a compassionate person at heart and I hate the suffering of others because I was a victim of abuse more than once. Sometimes though I feel like...

Yes this makes sense to me. The person who means a lot to me and who knows me he even picked up on it. I told my Therapist about my mother and she said that my mother is extremely Toxic and other people told me that she's Narcissistic and she takes it out on me because I'm sensitive, caring...

My own mother calls me crazy and bipolar a lot of the time. Especially when I cry, she's very loud and tends to freak out over the smallest things. My household isn't good for me and I want to get out. I'll post more about this in another thread. I worry that someone close to me doesn't like...

Right now I can't sleep and I cried a few minutes ago thinking I'm horrible person. Before I lost someone due to my PTSD and I ended up breaking up with him because I was freaked out so much and I actually cheated on him with guys....... online. Before him my abuser cheated on me three different...

I'm grateful for the wonderful boyfriend that I have in my life. He's so understand and supports me through all the hard times that I get. Anytime something is bother me, he tells me not to bottle it up to get it off my chest and it's okay to cry if I ever feel sad. He loves me for who I am and...

When you wake up in the middle of the night from horrible nightmares.

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