Having trouble sleeping

[BlueWeepingRose]

I have a hard time sleeping since my mind seems to race a lot. I have bipolar disorder outside of having PTSD and since I left my abuser I've even having a harder time sleeping for that matter. Once an unseen force was slamming me against the wall over and over again. This happened inside of my dream which freaked me out. I couldn't see who they were, it was invisible.

Another time I was at a beach party which confused me since I don't like parties since I'm always paranoid someone will put something in my drink. As I was leaving this guy in a dark hoodie asked me where I was going. As I responding telling this person that I needed to go, I could see that he had no face. However I could see that he had red glowing eyes and he was laughing. So I began to run and he was chasing after me, speeding up on me and I began screaming. My niece was sleeping beside me that night and she told me she could hear me whimpering and crying.

My last dream I think scares me the most out of all my dreams because again... an unseen force was on top of me as I was laying on my stomach and I couldn't move. Inside my dream, I kept trying to move and speak out, I was unable too. Finally I woke up and said out loud, "Leave me alone!! Go away!!" Nobody heard me inside my house. I'm still sort of upset up by this because I keep having these haunting dreams and I have no idea what's going on.

I'm planning on talking to my therapist about this when I see her next. For now I think it would be a good idea if I drank some relaxing tea and read a book for a little bit. I just hope someone out there can relate with me. These nightmares are freaky and I always have a hard time waking up from them.

 

[joeylittle]

My last dream I think scares me the most out of all my dreams because again... an unseen force was on top of me as I was laying on my stomach and I couldn't move. Inside my dream, I kept trying to move and speak out, I was unable too

This sounds like it could also be sleep paralysis combined with sleep hallucination...this is a nice article on those phenomena: https://www.sleepassociation.org/patients-general-public/hallucinations-during-sleep/

I have a hard time sleeping since my mind seems to race a lot. I have bipolar disorder outside of having PTSD

Is your bipolar being sufficiently managed, do you think? If racing thoughts are interfering with your basic health needs (such as sleep), it may be worth looking into augmenting what you are doing for the bipolar.

 

[h2o]

Hi Blue,
I'm sorry to hear about your nightmares and I can totally relate. I had a good 5 year run of feeling ok but my ex just relocated to near where I live and my PTSD has very recently resurfaced, along with the nightmares - ughh. I have a very similar recurring dream involving an unseen force which is a poltergeist. When I looked up the meaning it said it signifies a lack of control in your life. I also have dreams with demons and other types of paranormal things. I think it all stems from the fear part of PTSD.

Maybe the part about not being able to speak out also relates to the feelings of lack of control. Just two nights ago, I had a dream my ex was molesting me in a public place within a hotel where other people were present. I was screaming but nobody could hear me in my dream, and he just kept on doing it. The feeling of being violated I think maybe stems from feelings of powerlessness. I hate the insomnia, and the nightmares when I do manage to sleep. You are not alone with the crazy dreams. You might want to try some self-hypnosis. I tried it years ago and it worked well for me. Hugs :)