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Yes. Set the terms. If he agrees to anything, it probably won't happen, but at least you did your part. If he does his part, that's wonderful. If not, that can be expected, given his history. (He sounds like my ex wife. Her combat was 3 years in the foster care system). The very, very sad...

I had to tell my therapists of my feelings. My feelings toward authority figures or helpers are not always in line with the reality of my situation. I look at feelings like that toward my therapist as a barrier that needs to be addressed. I actually told my therapist that while I have certain...

I would feel the same as you if my therapist asked me if I needed to take a break in therapy. I'm often afraid that telling the truth won't only ruin me, but will ruin my therapist. It's overwhelming. My current therapist has been able to handle it so far. I think some therapists have...

You are not the only one with PTSD. Co-workers have varying degrees of issues. Making accommodations for you means they have to admit there's a problem. They may not have PTSD, but they may have had to deal with someone other than you that has. You'd think after all the attention to PTSD...

It's getting better. I'm glad to hear. I ate almonds in my therapists office, which helped.

A lot has changed in 35 years. I've been working on PTSD related issues for 28 years. Therapy has improved a lot over that time. Welcome to the forum.

I've often wanted to increase my endurance. But that only goes so far. Instead I have to bit by bit chip away at what I need to endure, make it smaller. Some times I just need to rest. And grounding helps too.

I’ve begun to look at the physical abuse I endured as a child as domestic violence, the same kind of domestic violence that happens between adult couples. Why should I see it any different? My therapist said it’s different because I was dependent. She said that if I were old enough to leave...

There is so much ignorance and stupidity in this world around abuse. It sucks he's still out there. It sucks they let a defense attorney hurt you. Thank you for posting this, and thank you for doing what you did. I never got the chance. By the time I had my wits back enough to do anything...

I get into this feedback loop where I feel bad, or dissociated, or feel overwhelmed by a flashback, then get really mad at myself. When I get mad I say some really mean things, and my head, or subconscious, or dissociated parts says mean things right back. Then I feel bad, or dissociated, or...

I've had to go through the back door to get to my traumatic memories. I had to ask questions like -Why am I so angry at my therapist? at myself? at the world? -How do I feel right now? -What happened that I made the same dumb mistake again? -Who, really, was there, and what were they to me...

A nice, new front porch. Wood like gold.

I start something, then hit a wall and can't go any farther. I'm pretty used to it. I like the idea of it being a faulty circuit. That way I don't beat up on my self. Changing these faulty circuits is possible, but difficult. Really difficult.

Relationships are hard. I'm having to confront my therapist on Tuesday about something she said our last session. I have little doubt she will respond appropriately. However, I am still wishing she never made me uncomfortable.

I've had similar intrusive experiences. My flashbacks haven't always been simple. They haven't always been in the form of clear representations of the past. Sometimes the trauma caused things to get sliced and diced, so that what comes to me in the present is a small part of the original...

Therapy can only do so much. I've had good hearted therapists who missed the point. I've had at least one good therapist who I fired because I didn't like him telling me I'm wrong. (I was wrong). My current therapist is telling me things that I believe will help, but she doesn't always...

Having an outward normal appearance doesn't mean what's inside is working well. I can walk around, go to work, hang out with my daughter, and look really normal. But inside I live a waking nightmare. No one knows. But I've had a few good therapists, and that's really helped. You sound...

Welcome. Glad you made it. I like your attitude.

Once someone here said I sounded like I had a psychotic episode. I was mad until he said that there's a lot of co-morbidity with PTSD. The symptoms sometimes include psychosis. Made me feel a lot better. I don't like stigma either. Sometimes I think that diagnosis is more an art than a...

Me too. Reading your post was difficult. It reminds me that some things don't go away easy.

Self inflicted trauma has got to be tough. Hope with time you can open up about it. Take your time. Welcome to the forum.

Freeze response? Like when you are running through the woods and come face to face with a bear. You could run, but he'd catch you. You could fight, but he'd clobber you. So...you freeze. You found a bear.

Welcome to the forum! I like your title.

Some of my flashbacks are like templates overlaying my current life. It's like I'm living in 2 places at the same time, then and now. From your description it sounds like the images of the "event" were intrusive and didn't fit in well to the moment. They weren't just bad memories. They were...

I'm not so successful anymore because I just avoid it. The question you put forth is a good one, but may not reach the real problem. Why? Why do I fear, loath, and physically recoil from success? My shallow answer is that success is triggering. It brings connections with others that seem...