Going Back To Old Therapist Whom I Have Feelings For.

[Angel_090]

For any of you who might have been in this position: I was seeing a therapist who I developed some feelings for. The sessions ended and the feelings didn't go away. It's been 5 months. I've considered going back to see him. I don't plan to tell him about my feelings. I just don't want to start over with someone new since he already knows some about me. I normally don't speak about anything personal, much less feelings which was our biggest barrier last time. I don't know to what extent these feelings interfered with the therapy process. I don't want to waste his time because there are some many people who need his help and because of how I feel. I think I remember him saying I could come back anytime I needed help with anything. I've bee having a really hard time lately with some dark thoughts. Since I have a problem voicing my emotions, I also have a hard time understanding them. I don't know if going back to him is a good idea. Any advise?

 

[Intrepid]

I had to tell my therapists of my feelings. My feelings toward authority figures or helpers are not always in line with the reality of my situation. I look at feelings like that toward my therapist as a barrier that needs to be addressed. I actually told my therapist that while I have certain feelings I do not want to act on them. Such actions would be re-traumatizing for me. My therapist agrees and models the kind of appropriate behavior that helps me heal from past abuse.

I think your therapist would probably show you the respect as a client that you deserve. If your therapist doesn't, get out as fast as you can.