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    Keep Hitting Walls

    I've just taken a look at RAINN and my PTSD wasn't brought on by that. It was brought on by witnessing a terrorist attack. I got in touch with a couple of charities though and I'm hopefully seeing somebody on Monday to see what kind of support they can offer.
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    My Terror Attack

    Thanks @Freida - I'm glad I told my mum as well. I've been getting snappy at her and my dad recently and it's good that she now knows why.
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    Keep Hitting Walls

    There isn't anywhere I can go on breaks. I work in a large office where all the meeting rooms are free and the break room is always busy. Even outside areas usually have people walking through. From the ones I've looked into so far, their office hours tend to be 9-5, and annoyingly ours are...
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    Keep Hitting Walls

    Every time I reach out for help, I seem to be hitting a dead end. I’m on an 18 week waiting list for EMDR. The psychologist I spoke to asked how I would cope between now and then – I was too afraid to say that I was scared I wouldn’t cope, and I was scared I would reach a point where I would...
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    My Terror Attack

    My mum was incredibly supportive. I feel so much better having told her. She said she knew something has been wrong for weeks, but didn't want to push the subject. On Friday I got in touch with a charity that helps victims of crime. I didn't want to approach them before as I saw myself as a...
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    My Terror Attack

    I finally told my mum about the PTSD last night. I'd been putting it off because there are a few issues going on with my dad at the moment. But last night I spoke to a friend because I just felt like everything was getting worse and worse, and she advised me to tell my mum. So I called her at 10...
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    My Terror Attack

    Just found out a group of my friends went to the theatre without me. One of my friends mentioned that she went, "With the gang" I always thought I was part of the "gang" but I never get invited to these things. It's not great for the old self esteem, when I already hate myself and feel like...
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    My Terror Attack

    I've been put on an 18 week waiting list for EMDR therapy. Not ideal. But at least they're offering it now, rather than fobbing me off, or offering yet another round of CBT. Today there was someone at work (the usual nosy, gossipy woman) who was talking about suicide. It started off with a...
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    My Terror Attack

    I have another therapy appointment today. I'm worried the NHS are going to fob me off with more CBT. It hasn't worked for me so far. I'm so nervous about having to talk through it all again. The attack in Streatham this weekend has triggered me massively. And then people talking about it has...
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    How do you deal with triggers?

    Yes, I do find when there are lots of social media posts after an event, it makes everything a lot harder. I have moved out of London now too - not far out (Watford), but it does make a difference to feel a little more distanced from it. I find people talking about attacks is a major trigger...
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    How do you deal with triggers?

    I know how you feel. I simultaneously want to avoid the headlines, but then end up obsessively reading up on news stories when these things happen. I hope you're doing ok after the Streatham attack at the weekend btw. I found it fairly triggering, but I've managed to mostly avoid the headlines.
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    How do you deal with triggers?

    Hi Eliza! It’s nice to meet someone who has shared a similar experience. I used to live in Southfields, so got the District Line every day. And part of what made my PTSD a bit more complicated is that I fairly narrowly avoided that attack too (I was hungover so running late!). So when people...
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    How do you deal with triggers?

    My main issue is I don't really have little triggers. And they're mostly people-based. Ie. if another attack happens, that's a BIG trigger. And then when people talk about attacks, that also becomes a big trigger. Or fireworks are a big trigger. I suppose something that makes a smaller bang...
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    Do I Use My Own Experience? Work colleague struggling.

    Thanks all. You are definitely right. I think I was too keen to try and help. But I knew on some level it wasn’t the right thing to do, or I wouldn’t have posted here asking for advice.
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    Do I Use My Own Experience? Work colleague struggling.

    It’s not been that long. I was going to advise her to get some help before it gets to that point, as I wish I’d known at the time, rather than waiting until the symptoms became debilitating. But I think it would be too likely to change our working relationship because there’s too high a chance...
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    Do I Use My Own Experience? Work colleague struggling.

    I do know her, but not well. This is where my quandary is. If I didn’t know her, I’d just not mention it. But I’m one of her assistants. So while we know each other. It’s not as equals. I am trying to think whether I would offer the same advice to a male manager in a similar position, but you...
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    Hypervigilance all the time

    Hi AnnieMae, First off - sending hugs - it sounds like you're going through a horrible time. Secondly - you're not crazy. You have been through a terrible trauma and this is just a reaction to it. Have you sought professional help? A trained therapist might be able to work through your...
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    Do I Use My Own Experience? Work colleague struggling.

    Thanks for your responses. I definitely wasn't going to go charging in, saying that I'd heard she was having flashbacks. It was more going to be a general nudge to look after her mental health, as women in high flying jobs tend to have a habit of powering through and trying not to show...
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    Do I Use My Own Experience? Work colleague struggling.

    This is a bit of an unusual one I think. One of the very high up people in our company has recently been in a severe car accident. I heard from elsewhere that she's been having flashbacks, so I want to tell her to look after her mental health as well as her physical health, and basically offer...
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    My Terror Attack

    A member of our team has been in a serious car crash recently, which brought back a lot of memories from my own crash a few years ago, and several people have mentioned mine - asking about the aftermath and whether I still suffer from my injuries (I do). The colleague who keeps asking about...
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    Ever felt like you might lose control at any moment?

    I feel the same a lot of the time. I see it as a sort of iteration of a panic attack - kind of part of the fight or flight. It feels like my body is getting ready for the flight part, and I like to think that's what makes me feel so weird and on edge. I could be completely wrong and it could...
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    My Terror Attack

    I've also realised a lot of people in my friendship group don't actually ask how I am. Or at least they don't ask it in the context of them actually caring. It's very much, "Alright?" rather than, "How are you doing?" I've had a really rough morning, and nobody actually asked how I was, even...
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    My Terror Attack

    I am so exhausted. I don't feel like I belong anywhere. We had a work party at the weekend, and I felt on edge the entire time. I am just so fed up of feeling like something terrible is going to happen constantly.
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    How do you deal with triggers?

    I usually use a fidget cube, but sometimes when the panic is really intense, I forget to grab it. I have a big work Christmas party tonight (Big tourist attraction, so we don't get a party in December!). I'm so scared of having a panic attack and embarrassing myself. Or drinking too much and...
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    My Terror Attack

    We had a fire alarm go off at work yesterday, and because I work at a big tourist attraction my immediate thoughts were, "A bomb has gone off" or "There's a massive fire and we're all going to die." I'm feeling at a loss at work at the moment. I want to move up into management, but any kind of...
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