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  1. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I am not who I thought I was. My sister is strong. I am getting into another relationship like the one with my ex, except this time, I have no family to help me. I am so screwed. I will never be treated the way I want because of my past. I am not who I say I am. I am nice, but I am a pushover. I...
  2. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is going down the goddamn drain. I am stuck, can’t move on, never will. I will never be happy again. I will never be myself. Everything is for sh*t. I cannot make friends or have a relationship. Nothing is “better” like the goddamn psychic said would be. My life is falling apart. I can’t...
  3. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I am finally seeing myself for who I really am...a weak sh*t talking piece of crap that can’t change. I can’t change. I do bad things and can’t stop them- like spending my life away and smoking. I can’t stop them. Not even for someone else. I can’t move out of my parents because I’m scared.
  4. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I care about my life, it’s just that no one else does. I am not a sting person like I thought. This trauma doesn’t count. It doesn’t matter that he hurt me and lied about it. He didn’t care, the court didn’t care, God doesn’t care. Only weak people care. Caring is a sign of weakness. I loved and...
  5. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    No one can truly help me with life. All I know is I am paying for therapy and it isn’t even helping me figure things out. All I can do is lie and say I am fine. Everyone else has boundaries that work for them, but I don’t. I meet people that use me for things and it’s awful. It’s always like...
  6. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I am not who I thought I was. My sister is strong. I am getting into another relationship like the one with my ex, except this time, I have no family to help me. I am so screwed. I will never be treated the way I want because of my past. I am not who I say I am. I am nice, but I am a pushover. I...
  7. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    It’s all lies and all I can do is keep living them because I can’t escape the lies he created. He told me he was being vindictive and now I am so confused that I can’t fix things. Everyday is a day in anxiety with me trying to change my perspective. Well, what happens when you can’t stop it from...
  8. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is so fake! I won’t think this way next year. I can’t leave my damn family and it is killing me. I am so unhappy with my life but everything I do is a effing joke. I don’t enjoy it. I am tired. I can’t break my bad habits of smoking and shopping like a maniac. I am tired. So tired and...
  9. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I have turned into the biggest baby ever. If I don’t leave, I will never leave. But I’m afraid to leave because nothing feels right anymore. It all feels wrong
  10. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is falling apart! I am always making the wrong choices! I made the worst choice ever and I can’t fix it! I am doomed to be alone forever and no one cares! No one can help me! My life is in shambles and I hate it! I can’t stop the paranoia, the bitciness or anything! I will always be a...
  11. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I will never feel normal again. It’s been so much stuff in my head that I’m all effed up. I’m all weird and secretive and stupid and crap. I hate it. My life is going down the drain. I hate my life! Everything is so extreme! So big! I can’t handle it! I can’t handle it! Nothing is lining up...
  12. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I hate my life! I can’t even listen to my therapist! All I know is I am a damn fake! And I hate my life! Nothing is lining up! Nothing is going good! It’s all for crap! And no one cares! All this crap messed me up so bad! I was a good person! I went through so much crap and I still struggle with...
  13. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is so f*cked! I can’t keep my goddamn mouth shut and everything is so f*cked! I just want a goddamn normal life! I want a house and a husband but that will never happen! Eff therapy and finding someone better! It’s hasn’t happened yet and it won’t! No one can truly help me! My life is...
  14. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I have to pick a path that I don’t want. I have no choices in life. It’s always just too much. I can’t stop the anxiety because of the charge. My whole life is backfiring in my goddamn face! Too many problems to fix! There is no authenticity to anything anymore. I’m tired, but full of energy. I...
  15. AnnieMae

    What is an exit fantasy?

    My escape plan is to create a new life. I can’t change though. I am trapped between 2 different lives which is weird. It makes it difficult to know which way to go when you don’t have any direction.
  16. AnnieMae

    Write what you want your life to look like

    I want to pay off all of my debt, save money and move out of my parents. I would love to go back to school, get a better job, leave my life behind. I would love to make amends with my family and get along with them again. I want to meet someone someday that I could tell the truth to and not be...
  17. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I completely ruined my life! I resumed my life! I ruined my life! I can’t calm down! My life is ruined! It’s either all stress or all hyper! I can’t calm down! No one cares about me! Now I have too many things going on at once! It’s too much! I can’t handle it! On top of the emotional stuff...
  18. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Please, someone just help me. I already lost in life, now I can’t do anything anymore. I need someone to help me. Help me help me. I can’t calm my body down. I can’t do anything anymore. It sucks.
  19. AnnieMae

    This isn’t a fight I’m ever going to win..

    I totally agree with this. I’ve lost every one and everything because of it and all anyone can say is oh well, move on. Everything I try doesn’t work out either.
  20. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Life is all crap! It’s all crap! My life is crap! I can’t change I can’t win! I was used! Everything was fake! I see the world and everyone in it for who they truly are and it sucks! I hate my life! I hate my life and no one cares! The court doesn’t care what he did to me! They don’t give a rats...
  21. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Random thought-Nothing ever works out for me. I am tired. I keep going back and fort. It’s only that or be alone. I used to have the best life and now it’s for crap. No one gives a f*ck about me! I can’t get my life to be normal like other people’s. It never will be and I hate it. I have become...
  22. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I will never be able to fix my situation. I go for guys that are pieces of crap and treat women like shit and only want money. I can’t stop the weirdness and when I do I will be back to being the same old me. I want love and excitement in my life and nothing is working out. It’s all lies. Lies I...
  23. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    It sucks to have to just be in the flow of things. I just effed up again with what I said. My whole life is seriously going down the drain and I can’t take it anymore. The pressure of everything. I can’t be happy. My sister left, my friends aren’t there, I will never have children. I am just so...
  24. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I just want so badly to be loved. All those people that I wanted to be in my life have left, and i can’t make any damn changes to improve my life.
  25. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    He played me and I will never ever ever get my life back. I deserved to be treated so much better, but things just aren’t getting better. Situations or mental processes. I can’t change the course of my life now. And it is so so so so overwhelming. I have picked up so many bad habits, been around...
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