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    How Do You Like To Dress?

    I have a few layers of camouflage. I am covered with scars from flea bites from my childhood. Other people didn't know what they were, but I did, so I became heavily tattooed to cover that. A long time ago, that would keep people away from you, but these days it seems to be an invitation for...
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    "good" Memories Vs "bad" Memories

    As we go about our lives, we all have to put on performances. To take PTSD out of the equation, think about how a medical doctor has to act like a doctor when they do an exam. The doctor can't act like a...WWII historian...or a mom. Maybe the doctor IS a WWII expert AND a mom. But that is not...
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    Abuser Targeting Niece

    You know what? You're right. I'm going to get her a card and tell her just that. Sometimes it means more to have it in writing instead of a text. Thank you.
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    Wish I Could Get An Emotional Support Dog.

    I just wanted to second pit bulls as unofficial therapy dogs. I got mine as a rescue years ago and he saved my life. He still will not leave my side- he sleeps with me, walks right behind me as I get up and walk around the house, wants to go everywhere with me if I'll let him. He will even...
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    Abuser Targeting Niece

    A perpetrator of lust? I don't speak German very well and had to look this up. But yes. A person who has a drive to always mess around with people and push as far as they can to use them up.
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    Abuser Targeting Niece

    Yes. It was the most descriptive I ever got with anyone. She had driven halfway across the country to visit me out of the blue, I believe to talk to me about a sexually exploitative relationship she had gotten into with an adult. Since emotions were high, I'm not sure how much she absorbed. I...
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    Toddler Bullied, Don't Know How To Deal With It

    Funny you mention autism. My son and I are pretty much the opposite of autistic (we're more like car salesmen) but my husband is autistic and my son seems most comfortable around autistic teachers and kids. I wish there was a PC way I could request that he have an autistic teacher. Sometimes I...
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    Toddler Bullied, Don't Know How To Deal With It

    Okay, YES, this is exactly what I thought at first, and is why I let it go for a couple months before doing anything. My husband and I have had to go to our doctors several times for injuries related to picking him up. The teacher at his preschool had a bad back and was overweight. He does...
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    Abuser Targeting Niece

    I've been writing and rewriting this post, unsure how to talk about it. My two oldest brothers sexually abused me over the age of 18, but with grooming starting when I was a teenager, mostly online. This was back when the Internet was new for most people. I just found out today that one of the...
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    Toddler Bullied, Don't Know How To Deal With It

    Thanks for your story. I had a memory myself of something like that happening in preschool, but I was so little that I didn't completely trust it. Hearing this from you makes me think that it happens more than we'd like to think.
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    Has Anyone Publicly Spoken About Their Trauma(s)?

    It's great that you're doing this. I've only spoken about what happened to me a couple times. The first time was when I found out that my younger cousin was abused by one of my abusers. My cousin was not around, but I discovered that her dad (my uncle) and her sisters weren't believing her. So...
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    Toddler Bullied, Don't Know How To Deal With It

    Really? I didn't know that. We do have a montessori school near us. I will look into that. Thank you! I really like this idea. I kind of feel like no one would listen to me, but I guess those are just my feelings. Sorry, I wasn't clear here. I asked him who did this, while being careful not...
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    Toddler Bullied, Don't Know How To Deal With It

    I'm not including a lot of detail here just for length. I have one three year old, who was in preschool all last year. He is unusually heavy and strong, I believe gifted, and charismatic. My husband and I had to take him out of preschool when he was 2 1/2 because he got a new teacher and...
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    Poll Did You Believe Your Abuse Was Normal?

    My mom is mentally ill. As we got older her mom looked after her less and her mental illness got worse. So my initial memories of her are mostly fond, with a few mixed in of her doing f'ed up things, but then it slowly grew to be a nightmare. I'm not sure when exactly I started to realize that...
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    Poll Who Primarily Traumatized You Part II

    Mine was my mother, both in frequency and chronologically. Seeing the results and thinking about frequency versus chronological importance got me to thinking about my nephew by marriage. He was severely abused by his mom when he was less than a year old, maybe less than six months old. His dad...
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    Having Trouble Going To The Store

    I had a period of agoraphobia for awhile a few years ago. I still struggle with it sometimes. To get out of it, I would often only go places where I could take my dog, and/or places where there would be no people. Then I'd chose places where I could just drive through or go in and out quickly...
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    Does Anyone Really Relax?

    A combination of always being on edge from PTSD and having a neurological condition where I'm constantly trying not to fall over keeps me constantly very tightly wound. I hate it when I'm at a doctor's office and they tell me to relax something. I'm like, "I am." They say I'm not and will flop...
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    You Want Me To Remember....what?!

    The lady I'm seeing now doesn't ask me to go over specifically horrifying things, which I really appreciate. Once she accidentally triggered something pretty terrible but then she apologized afterward for "pushing." I appreciated the apology. I really like her method. At least it has been the...
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    Doors Slammed Shut

    I think I'll be able to deliver the materials with a Wordpress. I'm monkeying around with it now seeing if that will work. If it doesn't I may indeed ask you for suggestions. Thanks!
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    Doors Slammed Shut

    Well, you know, that's an excellent idea. Since I'm unfunded and considering all materials open source, there's no reason not to put it all online. Then I wouldn't need any kind of central location. If I needed to physically display something I could just film myself and upload it. THANK YOU...
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    Called Adult Protective Services

    Uh...I guess this goes here? Could someone move it if it's in the wrong place? I reported my mom to adult protective services last week. That was a big, big step. My therapist pretty much pushed me into it by making me realize that it was the right thing to do. My mom has been diagnosed as...
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    What It Looks Like From The Outside

    Sometimes when I see people like that on TV, looking haunted or twitchy, I'll ask my husband if I look or act like that and he says yes. It always reminds me that I'm not doing as good a job of hiding it as I think I am.
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    Doors Slammed Shut

    Okay so I'm on both SSD and long term disability and don't have to work. But I'm always bored and feel better when I'm helping people so I'm finishing a MS in the next few weeks and starting a PhD. I'm an unfunded adult autism researcher. I volunteer taught refugees years ago before I was a mom...
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    Woohoo My Student Loans Were Officially Discharged!

    Congratulations! I'm starting this process in a few months. Not so much for PTSD but for a degenerative neurological condition. I can't wait for them to stop calling and emailing me.
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    I Think I'm Not Fit For...

    I used to work in software development. Not in project management, but I worked closely with that department. I was the manager of the technical writing department and we did matrix management, so we were working with the business systems people all the time. I ultimately found this line of...
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