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Notes from Therapy: Barriers to pursuing healthy relationship and what are healthy relationships? 1.) i abandoned the relationship before allowing other to abandoned me, so i can have agency 2. ) i expect my partner to assume the role of caretaker and myself of a child 3.) romaticism 4.) fear...

I don't know, I feel awful because I am a man with CPTSD. And while I have never been in a relationship, women I have gotten close to emotionally have shared feedback that I become very needy and pressurising. I feel so aghast, I never thought while being in so much pain myself, I was causing...

So since the past one week, I have been feeling very sleepy and drowsy. It could be because of my Ayurvedic meds or I don't know, there is a sudden lack of interest I feel in everything and just I want to keep sleeping. I did have a goal for myself for this month, to lost at least 5kg weight but...

8:14 AM Notes from Therapy: What helps me when I feel overwhelmed/ in a state of panic/ abandoned? How does idealism affect my behaviour and emotional life? ______ After having panic attacks a couple of times every year, I have figured some of the triggers: it usually involves me...

By "ever" I only meant if someone will be in a relationship with me - because it always end before that. I am only good enough as a best friend. Nothing more than that. Saving this. So I don't keep staying in my past.

Notes from therapy: By looking for a caretaker in a partner, you are trying to find ways to fix your past, your childhood. You cannot fix your past, the key is to be in the present moment. My fears are holding me back, they keep my needs to feel belonged and aspiration on hold. My...

So recently I told this girl that I had been seeing that I should stop talking to her because there is a huge mismatch with respect to how we feel towards each other. She was happy to have me around as a friend, I seek for more and I did not want her to start feeling pressurised because of that...

I don't have a lot of strength - to put alphabets together into words, words into sentences. It feels awfully tiring. I was doing well today morning, got up, made my breakfast, masturbated - completed morning work related tasks. And then suddenly because anxiety had taken a back seat, I...

Inensity mismatch - umm she struggled to talk about emotions I was feeling when we decided to part ways, about how I wanted to be with her so much (I guess she did too and she tried to hide it) and then she got scared because I got so upset. I get upset when someone I start falling in love...

I understand... Thank you for sharing 🥺 I doubt if she will talk to me again - I have decided to pause for now because I continue to feel overwhelmed and that is a lot for her so... I don't know why she could not. It should be my homework to do. You are right. My brain just keep trying to...

Do you all believe in "the one" - the gut feeling of knowing that this person is the right partner for you? The person I have been romantically involved with since September 2023 feels just right, they tick all the checkboxes and it was so emotionally healthy. And a part of me continues to feel...

Yes 🥰

Sending 1000000 hugs xxxx

i completely hear you. i too struggle with connecting with my body intimately.

Thank you for sharing! <3 No, it's not affecting my daily life per say but it has become more of a stress relief tool and I feel guilty for using it. Unfortunately, I have made this mental hierarchy that partner sex is better than masturbation and I will never get it. It makes me feel awful.

No..it never happened. I am just talking in general. The general need for intimacy. Thank you for replying @Defaultxlove <3

I feel like masturbating often, it feels relieving but it's tiring also now. Sort of like reminds me of my own loneliness. I have never had sex and I crave for intimacy deeply. Porn seems just bleh now. I have tried watching more of ethical porn and it is honestly the same. Nothing compares...

Understood :)

You can find them here at Banyan Botanicals I think they are good!

Cold wind

Has anyone tried Ayurvedic herbs like Ashwagandha for sleep?

It must feel very heavy to feel the way you do right now. I have felt similarly at times. I attended a Vipassana course once and there they taught Anichya, a buddhist concept which means everything is constantly changing and I could see it happening when I focussed on my breath. Everything is...

Hi @joeylittle , yes. I am new to the forum and dint know how to go about sharing. Sorry if I violated any rules. 🥺

Thank you @Sideways for these comforting words. I am trying to be more gentle with myself. It is difficult, to be gentle. Whatever happened triggers a lot of childhood trauma, feelings of abandonment and rejection. I understand I deserve better but there has been no living proof of this...

I am feeling scared and lonely