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We must continue to build each other up when others are determined to knock us down - strength in numbers 😊

December 1, 2020 It is so lonely sitting next to him. I feel the moment I talk about something I’m interested in, he’s more interested in sleeping. It’s so cold in this place. When I breathe, I imagine black mist rising instead of the usual white fog. There’s a thick, negative monster in...

My heart breaks as I troll through the posts and bold, courageous retellings of trauma that should’ve never been. this is my GIANT HUG to those of you that have suffered and are recovering - remain true to yourselves and we’ll get through this 🤗

December 1, 2020 I shared with him, my husband, different things that I recently learned have added to my decline in mental well-being. I paid close attention to see if he’d take any kind of responsibility for his constant reminders that, “I cant do this alone.” Never mind the anxiety and guilt...

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Thank you for sharing this. There is a therapist near me who specializes in EMDR. They have indicated they take my insurance, so I’ll give them a call tomorrow for an appointment. I’m so glad to hear a personal account that it helps.

In my experience, I had to “jump through hoops” dictated by health insurance before any real treatment happened. I went through 8 weeks of physical therapy and 3 rounds of epidural shots before surgery was a possibility. Not defending your med teams’ oversight, but I’m sure it played a big...

@Friday OMG! Thank you for that! Not exactly sure why I didn’t see it, but it makes total sense and now I don’t feel so “off” about it!

@RussellSue, I had back surgery on Valentines Day this year because an MRI showed Spinal Stenosis and 2 herniated discs in my lower back. My spinal nerve canal had shrunk to the point my nerves popped out, and one of the herniated discs was literally crushing the nerves. They removed one of...

Look up Hidradenitis or HS. I have that and take HUMIRA injections. When I’m really stressed, I get flare-ups. All of my abscesses are in the groin, outer and inner thighs, under and between my breasts, under my arms - I’ve had several surgeries and tons of scarring. Hope this helps.

November 30, 2020 I often find myself crying at songs that are happy, but I’m having a hard time figuring out why. For example, “Sing” by The Carpenters (definitely shows my age 😂), is supposed to be a fun, feel-good kind of song; however, I have to listen to it a couple of times because I cry...

November 30, 2020 APPLE PIE Fresh linen Scented skin Who knows where We've gone and been Fresh linen Scented skin Peace until We meet again

November 30, 2020 MI LLANTO (My Tears) Water dry Leaves withered Over is my part Decades lost Heart shattered Bleeding in the dark Seeking love Mercy hurts Meaning so unknown Cries loud Tears drown Dusting, crumbling stone

November 30, 2020 NIB It took you less Than twenty grand To get me to accept Your hand You put me in a Tiny box hid the key And picked the locks You showed me off To all your friends And put me On the shelf again Now here I sit Collecting dust My spirit rotting Gears of rust

November 30, 2020 MIRACLES Body wretched, restless and weak peering through hell by dangling feet. Cursed for a lifetime, no fault to be known. Sentencing caste by genetics alone. Deeds done no matter, angelic or snake. Love claimed to be, always a fake. Childhood stolen, thoughts in poor...

November 30, 2020 Betrayed The child within Lasting scars and burning skin “I hate you!” She screams inside her head If uttered aloud She’ll pray for her death

Don’t apologize. I appreciate your insight and taking the time to share with me your struggles. I also appreciate the quote 😊 I’m glad you’ve been able to evolve; however, I’ve held on to this pain for so long I’m terrified that when I do start working with a therapist (which I fully intend to)...

I severed ties with my dad and my aunt. I feel bad because I used to be close with my cousins, and I sometimes chat with them on FB but things won’t ever be the same. Both my dad and my aunt have accused me of being a thief, but the only thing I ever took from them was the self-loathing they...

Thank you for the compliment, advice and support. I’ve always been impatient, so you’ve got me pegged on wanting to tackle it all - now, now, now! I’m sure my phone ordeal hasn’t done any damage 😊 Plus, I was already upset before I got home from work because I found out I’d be alone when I...

I feel extremely anxious right now; sometimes it’s the dumbest things that freak me out. I stupidly tried to tap out of something on my phone with my nose, and now I feel all weird. Can I electrocute myself that way or is it because I’m hungry?

November 27, 2020 As I was writing about my second miscarriage, I found myself dissociating (and still am today off and on). I downloaded an EMDR app, I hope it helps.

Khalid - “Perfect”

“Sara” by Fleetwood Mac

Thank you. I’m sorry for your losses 😢 It’s a pain I wouldn’t wish on the most evil souls.

Up until I suffered a second miscarriage, I was able to continue working at the job I loved and still had a good relationship with my husband; however, the circumstances after that event really messed me up. When I found out I was pregnant a second time, I was elated hoping things would be okay...