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I just realized last night that this is a bad time of year. It was today six years ago my boyfriend died on the way to my house at the age 28. They got in a bad car accident and I got woken up at 3:30 a.m. to a short phone call saying he has been killed, and that was it. It was the final blow...

Sorry.

I'm in low class. I have been berated by people calling me lazy and other things for being poor and not as good as them. I went to college and worked for companies off and on with my illness, but I am not okay in western society. I guess Donald Trump types are the symbol of good enough and...

So sorry. I know what you are talking about with perpetrators becoming successful without remorse. The people that abused me went on to live good lives were wealthy and had children. I don't have any and am poor and struggling due to my infliction. I'm sad too. I hear you. Sometimes I feel like...

I have to have round two of the boxing match with the support clerk next week. The abusive nurse was December 14th and that is over. I can't sleep I am so frustrated with their stupidity. I am okay with having gotten rid of the abusive nurse, but the female support clerk is his ally and runs to...

I'm frustrated to the point of where it is affecting my sleep. I have dealt with a few bad people that were trying to "help" me last year that made things worse by their arrogance and attitudes. They were not even trained properly but lied about the fact they can help. I think it's hard to find...

Sorry to read how you are feeling and all that you have been through. I can empathize with you as I have been abused too threatened at a young age and almost murdered by a caregiver. I later went on to have abusive relationships as part of the situation, and have been misjudged by people. I...

I would be upset too. Sorry to hear. Wishing you lots of support to get through this difficult situation.

Yes alcohol makes me worse. :( I had alcohol because of Christmas. I had a dinner and party at my apartment. I was stressed so I drank about four drinks that were left. It's all gone now. I won't do it anymore. It was a mistake. I will use the Trauma Release Exercises instead for stress relief...

Thank you. :hug:

I was really upset last night. I totally shouldn't have posted that. It could be triggering or upsetting to others. I was alone drinking and consumed with thoughts of my past and the violence. I hit a breaking point. I don't use hospitals anymore I found them re traumatizing and cold. I will try...

I can't do it anymore. I can't fight anymore alone. I don't belong here and others deserve their world. I'm sick, and less than others. This world is for the perfect boastful proud and important. I am nothing and silent. I can't fight them anymore alone and they have always wanted me dead. If I...

Thanks. I guess it is good I realize there is something wrong. I talked to an old friend about being sick and in the anxiety depression cycle. She understood and is going to come over on Christmas so I can go to her house. I will get to see her dog too and I love the dog. I will try thought...

I am out of therapy, but will be back into CBT soon. I have been having bad thoughts with paranoid feelings about people lately. I am beginning to realize the thoughts are unreasonable and I am unwell. I am starting to look at everyone as a possible perpetrator and violent. I am afraid of going...

I hate stores and crowds. Sounds like an upsetting and triggering experience. Especially getting triggered again from the same store. :( I don't like security alarms going off either. It happened to me a month ago. I hope you can feel better soon. I understand the feelings of your reaction...

Thank you all for listening. It was a very anxiety ridden week! I will not give up. I have the power to help myself now calm my limbic system, and find someone appropriate to share my struggles with at the clinic. The psychiatrist said what I did was exposure therapy. She said I can talk to her...

I went to the meeting to discuss my concerns about the improper treatment. At the meeting sitting in was the psychiatrist, the abusive nurse, the new replacement nurse the psych was introducing me to, and the support clerk. I had a strong panic attack including shaking and told them all I have...

I feel bad about the entire thing at this point. I think it's my symptoms coming up with feeling like a burden with guilt. With having no treatment I feel distressed and have been sinking in and out of the depression phase. I have been doing yoga nature walking, and trauma release exercises to...

I'm sorry. I'll try not to think about him. I just pray something happens to make the situation better. :(

I'm glad you are here too. :) Thanks for sharing. There are a lot of supportive people here and I have found this forum really helpful.

Sounds like an awful ordeal. I'm so sorry to hear all of this. I hope you get better. Treat yourself kindly with compassion.

I have been out of my psychiatrists office for months. I have to see her next week. A nurse that was supposed to be helping me ended up going off on me in my apartment telling me I am weak after I trusted him enough to tell him of my rape and violence incidents. He laughed at me and then told me...

You could be right, it's just that different situations are more complex than others in life. It's easy to tell someone how to fix everything from your own standpoint, but it's differen't than walking in their shoes.

I feel the same way. I put tons of pressure on myself. My last therapist told me I can't handle working an 8 hour shift, and I started crying and said "so I'm just going to be a big loser because all of this bad stuff happened, and that's it?" The therapist wasn't a good one, because she talked...

Thanks for the nice messages. :)