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I completely relate. My therapist has pushed me to discuss my family and not in a excessive way, just a little shove. She is a good person. I just have severe fear of saying bad things about my family and that it will come back to haunt me. What if I say the wrong things or I remembered them the...

My therapist is someone that I fear discussing my self harm with. I like her in most other ares of her care, but I am scared to go over those drinking and self injury issues. I know the basics on what I need to day anyway. I have studied up significantly on all the alternatives. I rationally...

Just wondering if its my OCD or if other people feel guilty after saying things about their past in therapy? I saw my therapist today and told her things I never said before. I never talk about anything because of the fear of being wrong. Mostly this is something I have had from childhood. I...

I actually had promised myself I would never drink, but about a month ago is when I started drinking to get me through the nights. I didn't want to keep hurting myself and thought drinking was safer. I usually hurt myself by smashing my limbs with a hammer or wrench, or some type of object that...

Thanks everyone! I know I relate to you all. I have a severe problem with self injury which is why my drinking got as bad as it it did. I have been in a downward spiral as well so that doesn't help either, right? When I want to hurt myself I do it right, you know what I mean? I hurt myself...

I couldn't find another thread in here with both so I figured I'd start another one. I was using one in place of another. I would self harm so I wouldn't drink. Then I would drink so I wouldn't self harm. Now I have moved to the point that I am doing both. It sucks because my threshold is high...

I agree with going off but at a tapered amount. I have tried going cold turkey myself and it was a mess. I have seen a very unsuccessful decrease in medication where my cousin died from taking himself off medication too quickly. I believe it can be done, but it should be regulated and done...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I have a cat and a 15 year old dog that isn't doing great right now. I am always checking my dog and seeing if she is still breathing and ok. I can't imagine the pain, but I feel for you. I know its what life brings to all of us, but it is so hard. Please let us just...

I don't know if this is the same, but I don't think a 12 year old child would think of suicide if they weren't traumatized. I would have to say I was beyond depressed at that stage of my life. I had planned that I would kill myself as a 12 year old girl after all the turmoil I had endured. The...

That's actually a great idea! I think maybe if I put it in writing and tell them I'm afraid of AB and C then I can talk about it easier out loud. I have tried writing things down before but not in a logical manner, just as the thoughts come and haphazard. I think if I am more organized and can...

Can you explain this? I don't understand what you mean.

I just wanted to know since this thread was discussing it, why is it important to talk about the trauma? I figured since it was being brought up I should ask the question. I am stuck in therapy and this entire thread is confusing me. My therapists are always complaining I don't talk, but I...

Very good topic...makes me think, because I know I hate the world we live in, but I hate myself too. Is that possible? I feel uncomfortable saying that about the outside world only because I have extreme religious scrupulosity issues and I feel guilty about it, but in all reality I have always...

This rings so true for me. My whole life has been about safety and protecting myself from others...not just men. Men have been the predominant sex that have caused the most harm, but anyone I am near causes me fear at some level. That's why I am alone in the world. That's why I am having no...

Its good to hear people helping each other out no matter what the motive. It doesn't matter as long as people benefit from others kindness.

Yes it definitely bothers me too! Shrieking kids is tough. Any type of unknowing noise is hard to deal with. It definitely helps when you are told about something ahead of time. I really have a hard time with screeching children. I think because it just seems like they might be in danger. Of...

I guess I don't understand if you were abused by males that you would be treated by men. I'm not saying you are wrong. Far be it to me to say I know anything about this stuff...but I'm just saying what I feel. I am new to all this crap. I don't feel comfortable around men despite the fact I have...

I have 2 therapists I see. One is with the Veterans Administration, who I don't really trust a whole lot just because I have had issues with them in the past, and the other is with a private hospital. I try to be open with them, yet I am not as open as they want me to be. Their biggest...

Its so ironic what you say. You yearn for the approval of the world around you and all I want is children or family that will love me. I find that so profound. I have always wanted to find love somewhere. I have NEVER felt safe with anyone except my Mom. I have dreamt about having children or...

I've always wanted to feel safe. I thought that if I had a family I would feel safe. I would grow old and my kids would protect me, my husband would protect me. I would have other people watching out for me and caring for me besides just myself. The thing about it is, that's the very large...

I am 41. SO I am definitely beyond what I would want to start a family. The thing is I don't want to be pregnant or have kids. I want to be close to someone in general. I am always alone. I have never had a relationship. I see parents with children as a way for people to be close. I see families...

I wonder if others have a hard time dealing with the fact that they aren't Mothers or have families of their own? Do you always have to do something just for your Mom though you are a grown up woman who wants afamily of your own? I always thought I would eventually have a family but I am so...

Ok Survivor2thrivor (I don't know how to copy your name on here)...I still don't understand this. This is a legitimate question and not trying to make some point or laugh at anything or whatever. Please explain to me if you believe that people are allowed to experience anger in any way, or is...

I have no idea about all the night and day crap. All I know is my therapists tell me I need to take stuff. I am well educated, but I have been thru it too much to look anymore in this category. I have to trust they will do something right. They tell me to continue therapy and I do it now. They...

I didn't want to hijack your thread. I appreciate you asking. My therapist knows its been an ongoing battle. I don't really know how to fix it. Thanks for asking. I hope you continue to find a way out.