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I'd like to know how you delt with your very own Yeti's passing too, she's getting old and i can't wait to NOT go to the funeral. I am thinking of getting a copy of the death certificate, and framing it and hanging it somewhere I can worship it CONSTANTLY. Scott

I know everyone's different, but... I am about to start a new psych. (I moved) and I am interested what medications/combination helped you most and what did it help most with? I must admit Effexor is a pain in the arse, *MAJOR JUMPINESS AND INSOMNIA* and am back on Zoloft. Scott

For those of you who have PTSD as a result of your parents, would you let your parents see your children? (Assuming you have any) I might let Dud see mine, *supervised* but I'm not sure I would even enlighten Yeti that she was officially a FN old bag (an antigrandmother)... I've actually been...

I think apathy as a disorder might be more along the lines of Rudolf Höss which in his case would definitely be termed 'disordered'. Scott

Dud knew exactly what was going on. i stopped engaging in his denial years ago and now have jack shit to do with it. I last received a phone call 4 years ago. i think even he has the message. He thinks its natural everyone loves their parents. And every mother loves her kiddies (how much shit...

Dont know if it's more dissociative or anxiety. Certainly produces enough of both...

Anthony you are talking about neonatal and this thread is about preverbal. There's a lot of neuronal development that occurs in that time gap. And yes if abuse occurs preverbally its a safe bet it's doubly (triply?) re-enforced by a barrage of constant abuse. There's sometimes no single event...

I am crtain I have had some preverbal trauma. I can remember I was crying and Yeti trotted everyone into my room and told them to laugh at me. Her laughing at me crying was to be taken for granted. Scott

Exactly! Just who the hell was supposed to be the adult here? And it ain't helped by minimising, rationalising, excuses and other forms of denial. I WAS difficult. They were IMPOSSIBLE! And Yeti used to pride herself in having to care for such an impossible little shit, it made her look like she...

I always have trouble letting to enough to sleep. Yeti was always at her best when I had my defences down... Anyone else here have severe and chronic insomnia? I used to go 3 days without any sleep whatsoever. And that's before i "discovered" speed... Used to go 5 days at a time and actually...

(<- in case you have not realised) I have 1 rather spoiled Rhodesian Rideback. I've always loved dogs even though i feel guilty about putting them through hell sometimes. Scott

Would you sat that you are having "EMDR Trauma"? I have heard that it is one of the more common adverse events associated with it. I was going to start EMDR but a few things cropped up and I deided there was no way I could trust my therapist. Haven't been back. Scott

Umm just one more thing... I've been all those things except rich, and that was AFTER I had developed PTSD...

Forgot to add: *DO NOT WATCH* that video. Truly frightening, and that's just for the people who wont be triggered...

Not sure what kids are like but I have never been able to stop thinking about a certain video (belonged to a group and received a link) that was on the net a few years ago, some Russian neo-nazis took some immigrants for a lovely little picnic in the woods... I will never be the same again...

Everyone automatically thinks every mother loves their children. Either because (a) theirs actually did, or (b) they would have to admit to themselves that their mothers didn't love them either. Everything gets minimised or rationalised ("They are strict", "Very Devout", "Discipline" or other...

Reading the article, I was wondering if they had had my mother in a straight jacket for an hour or two. Lordy, no wonder I have PTSD... and I am *FURIOUS* that so many people knew exactly what was going on and did NOTHING WHATSOEVER to help. Rather triggered... Scott

Part of complex trauma involves having no viable escape. Being gay certainly does not automatically mean trauma (other than the socio-political environment it is immersed in). Maybe interpersonal exploitation, which is definitely prevalent in the "Gay Community" (<-- could you be more specific)...

It's occurred to be before that by refusing to even acknowledge any wrongdoing (much less feel guilt) they kind of make us feel it. They project it onto us. Guilt by proxy. Scott

I've been blamed for everything that happened to me to. And they aree STILL blaming ME for their entire personalities even though I haven't seen them for years... Never changes. I locked myself in a cupboard (to get away from them) because I'm the one with a screw loose. Maybe I have, but their...

Absolutely typiucal. You are sure your parents are not NPDs? BOTH of mine STILL say "You were always very difficult". I wonder why? Scott

Yeah I know it reminds me of a Marilyn Manson line: "I know that I could turn you on, I wish I could just turn you off." No I didn't kill him on the spot but I said I was leaving and "Next time you should just try and set the world back a trillion years". Scott

What cant you get out of your mind? I cant seem to get over one "therapist" saying all I did was bitch about my mother. Very next question was why i had a social phobia. I have visions of bludgeoning him to death... Scott

Hi terry, I gather you have the delusion that somehow (I am assuming) Asians have no delusions about what occurrs in families and have no delusions about what what it's like to be taken hostage by 'The Addams Family'. I think *you* should drop that delusion. Any "Spiritual" person, (I am...

I have been able to hold jobs, intermittently and always briefly. Longest was 12 months.