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@Friday This made me laugh. I do that all the time.
@trying2movefwd be easy on yourself. I know it's hard, but you are doing the right thing in getting an assessment right now.
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Wow - I am so, so sorry. That sounds incredibly difficult and I understand why you are so upset, I would be as well. It sounds like she really led you on - and that is deeply unfair to you and your emotions.
What I would do is go to your session tomorrow and come prepared with what you would...
I have a lot of faith in EMDR, but it has been VERY slow moving for me. I am not sure if you have read the book The Body Keeps the Score - if you have not, I would recommend - but in it, they discuss how EMDR is/can be effective for long-term trauma, but it is not as quick as single-event trauma...
I am so sorry. Owning up to self-harm is so hard, especially when you know that you are upsetting other people. It's also so hard because you are hurting so much.
I have had to make it very clear to my husband that guilt does nothing, it only makes it worse. I have already cut - it's done -...
What I thought of what I read this was because you are in a state of hyper-arousal, your senses are probably also keyed up to an extent that others are not - hearing someone approaching you, feeling the vibration of the ground beneath you - things that would be undetected to an average person...
I'm sorry that you are finding if difficult to get your needs met right now. I can understand how the baptism stuff would be really frustrating with wanting to do something, but then feeling like you are not ready or can't do what they are asking of you. I can also understand the push-pull...
Oh man, I'm right there with you.
I work full time. I have two girls, 6 and 2. And do at least 3 hours of intense therapy every week. It is exhausting.
I have found what can be helpful at times is to just slow down on life. Don't over commit. Get more than enough sleep. Lean on people where...
Thanks @MyDogsLoveMe and @heyheyhey i really appreciate your encouragement. I know I need to be easy on myself, and you are right, it has been years and years of conditioning, it's going to take time.
I know I also really struggle with wanting to make him happy, afraid that if I mess...
I love my T. He's amazing, good at what he does, and we work so well together. I feel safe and I trust him, which is huge.
We have had a number of intense and amazing conversations about how I'm good enough, there is nothing wrong with me, and what happened to me was not my fault.
He holds...
It will absolutely help.
I had a very similar conversation with my T recently - about how scared I am that he will take away hugs. He assured me that will not happen (unless of course there is a boundary issue) and that he sees it as incredibly beneficial to our work together and my healing...
T and I had a good session yesterday - he tried something new and wanted to talk to "Megan's Shame" - so we did that, and I let the shame part of me talk for a bit. It was interesting, I felt like it was a useful exercise.
However, not too long after I left my session, I feel like I am...
I was reading an article from The Mighty - and it was a personal piece about PTSD and she talking about dissociation. She talked about it like emotionally checking out.
I get like that. I have a lot of thoughts, a lot of things that should be making me upset, but I just turn inward. I don't...
I'm sorry that things seem so hard right now.
I would like to encourage you, however, to remember to not make any big decisions under duress. Take some time to think about what you really need and want. And talk about it with your T, if you feel safe with them and they are a trusted person in...
I totally hear you. 100%. I feel that way most of the time, that I can't be okay. I am forever damaged and we all just need to get over it, cause I have come to terms with that reality. I don't have a "me" before trauma. This is just how I exist.
I will say, that over the last (almost) 2 years...
I believe mandated reporting is only for situations in which the abuse is currently happening, as therapists are mandated reporters as well. You can always go in and ask about confidentiality.
Can you go to your school counselor for help? Maybe they can find a way to get you help that doesn't involve you getting your parents involved at all. I'm sorry that this is happening to you.
T and I hug at the end of every session, and oftentimes more than that. Touch is big for me too - because it helps me feel safe and I open up more and helps me to let go to emotion and actually cry. T and I have talked about it several times - in terms of both being on the absolute same page...