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Yup...particularly bad in social situations. The leg thing is real bad. Very fidgety and agitated, scanning the room. It's like an anxious energy, but very exhausting. It's part of the reason that I smoke way too many cigarettes. Angry, unfocused, tired..like the life has just been sucked right...

I too have very similar experiences with this. I struggle with chronic pain, internal pain, autoimmune arthritis..and all of my doctors are convinced that it is a result of my trauma. My PTSD and my physical issues developed almost at the same time and it took me a years to wrap my head around...

You are definitely not alone on this..I get extremely uncomfortable when men stare at me. Before my meds, I went into panic mode and even now, it's something I struggle with. I went to a gas station one time and the male cashier told me that he thought I was a very beautiful woman. I never went...

My anger can get extremely bad as well and it has definitely caused problems for me..isolating and taking some time to collect myself is key when it gets real bad. Exercising also helps me tremendously. If I get angry, I just run..or do push ups until I stop wanting to punch something..

Dogs are just wonderful! Humans could really stand to learn a thing or two them. They're so loyal and love unconditionally. Truly amazing creatures!

I love this thread! I could probably dedicate an entire website to all of the bad things I've done..and I'm still fairly young. I'll start by saying that I am soooooo lucky to be alive right now. Like so lucky it's ridiculous! I've done so much stupid shit and put myself in so much danger! My...

Excellent thread! I realize that I'm afraid to be happy..

I have the same issues and it is much more than procrastination...like a mental paralysis of sorts. I think it's a product of severe depression.

DEFINITELY relate to the adrenaline rushes! Meds have helped control that but it was ridiculous for quite some time.. @Chava ...slowing down is the hardest part..I had to recently take a step back and clear my plate myself after my symptoms started getting severe and PTSD was taking me to a...

I don't think it's backwards at all..I just think it's your way of trying to cope and procecss what you went through. A lot of people say.."if this ever happened to me..I'd do this, this and this," but in reality, nobody really knows how they would respond in the wake of any traumatic event...

Absolutely wonderful! I too struggled with issues of self harm for many years and understand just how difficult it is to quit..a constant struggle. Stay strong and never give up..you can do it!

I'm very happy for you as well...not many of my sexual encounters have been overly significant or meaningful, but I can honestly say that my first sexual experience following my last rape was probably the most beautiful moment of my entire life. It was sweet, intimate, and loving. Everything I...

Thanks for the responses! It's definitely been a long road for me..I'm finally starting to get back into my hobbies again and learning to channel my energy into more positive outlets. Therapy has been helping me tremendously and I feel like I'm on the right track for, like, the first time...

This is an excellent question... No...no I don't recognize myself. When I look in the mirror..i see someone who is very tired..my eyes used to be so full of life..now..there's nothing there. My face is just a shell of who I used to be..

Absolutely! When I was a little girl, I had a german shepherd that my grandfather saved after it had almost been beaten to death by her owner. She was 17 when she died and for her entire life she was also highly triggered, flinched at sudden movements and always startled easily. It makes me sad...

I can certainly relate! I've always been a tad submissive in general, but even more so after my sexual assaults. I can also relate to the "sluttiness" as well. I became very promiscuous after my last sexual assault. Almost as if I was trying to regain control of my sexuality in some way. I felt...

Several years ago I was in a relationship with a man that had Combat PTSD and his behaviors were very similar to what you are describing. Very "come here, go away." He fluctuated between very loving and affectionate to very cold and distant, and was prone to periods of isolation. You need to...

Hello all! So I'm still very early on into my treatment but I've spent a lot of time over the past few weeks reflecting on my life with PTSD and how its changed me as a person. They say that people with PTSD can get addicted to the adrenaline rush they experience with their traumas..and looking...

@md20 Omy gosh! I am so sorry to hear about what you've gone through. I couldn't imagine that kind of betrayal..my heart breaks for you! I am not a doctor by any means, but I am a long time sufferer and here is my take. I think what you have gone through is absolutely horrible and I couldn't...

"When your dreams become reality, and reality becomes a dream." I read this somewhere not too long ago and it really it home for me.. I have many more words to describe living with PTSD but if I had to chose a single phrase, this one really hits the nail on the head for me.

@Chava I prefer the lower frequences, especially delta waves. Particularly so in the evening times. Alpha waves, however, always suited me well for day time mediations..helping increase energy, improving mood and focus. Definitely recommend sticking with theta and delta waves if your overly...

My experience with denial is very similar. I have struggled immensely with the idea of my PTSD diagnosis and have often minimized and detached myself emotionally from my traumatic experiences in an attempt to avoid their exsistence. I've always found it very odd..My traumas are more like a real...

I've used binaural beats several times in my meditations and have had wonderful results. I've used them to help with bouts of anxiety and to induce sleep. Still a very new, yet fascinating, concept.

I cry, whimper, and twitch..although, I never yell. My dreams are usually centered around my traumas and the majority of my traumas embodied being silent. Sometimes I'll have random nightmares that are seemingly unrelated..at least on a conscious level. PTSD nightmares feel ridiculously real...

You're story touched my heart as well. Therapy and education are key. You can learn to control, manage and better understand your feelings through treatment and start on the road to recovery. It is also vital that your husband become educated as well and be completely on board with supporting...