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I can relate to thinking about it every day. Mine is still more ideation at this point. Haven't written any letters etc though I have thought about doing so and getting everything ready. And I am terrified of ending up in hospital. I have managed to avoid it thus far but from various people I...

Hmmm no offense but your partner sounds possibly a bit controlling. if you are giving him all this attention and he still complains you don't, something is off. Of course eh apologizes...that's how manipulative people work. They make you see the good and then when something negative comes up...

I have no idea. I experimented with this with a few people...tot he point where I convinced myself to ignore my gut and dismiss it all as faulty PTSD thinking...and then I got burnt. Majorly. So maybe taking baby steps is indeed the best way to go. I am nowhere near that though. Good luck.

Welcome to the forum.

I usually get 2-4 hours of very restless sleep. Sometimes I have a string of nights where I sleep even less than that (usually at least one with no sleep at all) and then I usually follow that with a night of 10+ hours...Sigh.

Hmm without knowing you and him, it's difficult to say. My instinct is to say run, this smells fishy. Having said that, your last sentence and the fact that you said you like covering conflict etc may have triggered something in him...maybe he was saying...you go to these dangerous places etc...

No offense but he sounds a little bit controlling...and you say things have moved really fast...Please be careful. As @shimmerz says, your emotions are your own and you shouldn't have to account for every single little thing to him, or to anyone. Good luck.

Welcome to the forum, Darkside.

Well, there are the triggering ones (fireworks, firecrackers, sonic booms...and anything that sounds like an air raid warning, emergency vehicle sirens etc)...But then any repetitive noise that last for any extended period (alarms or any kind etc)...If I am exposed to it eventually I start...

Guilty. And apparently this has been the case since I was a baby (I had climbed out of my crib and eventually fell asleep behind a curtain, on the floor - must have been looking at what little traffic there was at wee hours...parents freaked out in the morning because it took a long time to...

@gizmo, so sorry to hear about this. I will keep you in my thoughts. I don't have much to add to the already good advice above. Key things to keep warm/cool (with the warmer weather coming); food (non-perishables are good...like canned fruit etc.) and hygiene (WetOnes, hand sanitizers and yes...

I often feel this way. I survived. I didn't see/experience the worst of it, as other people have. I have no right to complain. I have no right to have these symptoms etc.

I honestly don't know anymore. Let's face it, psychology isn't exactly a science, in the sense other sciences are so to be honest, I'm not sure that talking it out here, with people who understand is not better. I guess talking to a pro has its benefits...but even so they're human beings too...

Yes...I tried extending an olive branch (wrote a letter explaining why I did what I did - I had asked for space during a fight where she falsely accused me of some very nasty stuff and wouldn't listen when I tried to explain. She kept messaging so I told her to stop harassing me and deleted her...

Hi. Just want to say, I know how frustrating it can be to deal with a narcissist, especially if it's someone you used to be close to. I've just recently had Round 2 with one and it is not pretty but this time, after a year of thinking about the previous fight and all the hurt etc, I realized...

Join the club.

Sorry you had to go through that. I have had this but on a much smaller scale...want to do something but discovering I've done it already and don't remember doing it...so mine might fall into the "normal things humans do" category...It's both pleasant and a little unsettling (as in, what else...

Also wanted to add...I guess on some level it makes sense if the therapist doesn't get it if you haven't been able to be vulnerable enough to even tell them what's going on (as was the case with me more often than I'd care to admit...) ...I don't know what the solution to this is unless you are...

I've done this too...and still do, often enough (though not in therapy anymore because well...I'm not in therapy these days :P )...The problem with that is that even some therapists don't recognize what you're doing and other people think you couldn't possibly be unwell because how could you...

@Justmehere...I hope you are managing to take care of yourself too through all this. :hug:

This is totally irrelevant but I love your avatar!

I haven't had time to go through all the posts yet but I wanted to say, this is something that probably happens to all of us at some point on the forum, as well as IRL...There are lots of people here - some sufferers, some supporters and others...Everyone is at a different place in terms of...

Ideation. That's when I've used them (only a few times and once was actually for advice for a friend who was suicidal and had attempted before)...I would never actually call one (we have some that do online chats)...I can't say it saved my life because had I absolutely decided on it, I...

No offense to soldiers/warriors/herpes but that'd be a huge turnoff for me...Just goes to show...different tastes and all that...

Hmm maybe allowing yourself to feel it is a good idea...and as you say crabby is a step up from depression and I guess the next step would be a bit less crabby and so on.