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Thanks. I know what you mean it's just hard. I feel contaminated enough and I don't want to contaminate my relationship. I think my therapist assumes I can't cope with any touch or sex but I do I just sort of shut it down. That's the bit I think is not normal.

I'm sorry I don't come here very much, I tend to drop in when I feel like I can. I have recently started emdr although all we are doing at the moment is the stabilisation bit, so building positive resources I think. But during the assessment we talked about intimacy - I am married - and touch...

Thank you so very much for saying that. I really appreciate it. I just didn't feel I could talk to anyone in my life about the thoughts I posted about being punished for talking or that maybe my mind is making it up (I have never had those thoughts before, I have memories as clear as any of my...

I hope it's ok to post this here. I am so so scared. I have only recently started to face (half talk about) childhood stuff (my mum's partner) and I have never doubted what happened I always knew I just could never and can't talk about it. I've done a stupid thing and looked for his foster...

She did acknowledge that there would be things I might not want to share at assessment and said that was ok. I physically can't talk about things sometimes. But yes maybe I did minimise but I am scared of being overdramatic which is why I struggle to say some things in case they sound more...

Thank you. That makes sense. I don't think I can tell her about the sex stuff but I will tell her about the other stuff. Thanks.

I relate to this a lot. This happens for me a lot both in therapy and at other times. It is often when I've been reminded of something from the past or had a memory that has intruded or when I get too close to subjects I can't cope with in therapy and get overwhelmed by complete shame. It is...

Hi, I am new(ish) here and I have only recently started to face/confront my past experiences. To be honest saying face it might be an exaggeration but I had an assessment for EMDR last week even though I don't think my experiences were bad enough for me to call it 'trauma'. I have been having...

Thank you all - this has really helped me. I didn't realise for years that this was dissociation but then it happened in T and she noticed and at that point I realised it is on the spectrum of dissociation, but it had been happening since I was a child without realising that this is what it is...

Because I can and then I feel like it must not be dissociation. But I also feel really cut off and numb and I can't really focus on what other people around me are saying. But I can move and leave the room even though this is happening. I am thinking of a specific trigger where I smell...

Is it possible to have flashbacks that only consist of hearing (not actually hearing out loud but hearing inside my mind) things and feeling the feelings you felt at the time of an event. Or are these just really strong memories? I am only wondering because I seem to have this experience quite...

Thank you. I appreciate the replies. I don't think I have any hidden trauma, I think I know what happened during my childhood and adolescence to make me have used dissociation as a way of coping. I think now it is maladaptive and it is getting in the way because I cut off when I start to feel...

Hello I am new here, and hope it is ok to just post a few questions as I feel quite confused at the moment. I have had experiences with mild dissociation (mainly cutting off, going blank/being unable to think, emotional numbing, feeling unreal) for many years since childhood. I did not realise...