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I went running outside and throwing rocks into a huge pile of leaves with my therapist today.. it was rather different, but good! We had another EMDR session and it was VERY difficult. I was caught up in physical flashbacks or the rape, so we decided to go outside at the end of an almost 2 hour...

Have you talked with your therapist about this? This is alarming to me. Only one time have I dissociated so badly when leaving, but I ended up unable to leave her office and after her next client (last of the day) she came out and got me.. ended up being admitted into psych unit for a week to...

I agree with the others. Also, personally for me- I would not want someone picking out a dog that is not just going to be a pet, but my partner to do life with. Picking out a service dog prospect is WAYYYYY more challenging that picking out an emotional support dog. This dog has to have the...

@WillyKat yeah I think that happened yesterday. Normally even if I do cry in therapy it's just a few tears but yesterday I actually sobbed. I still fought it because I could feel the wails behind it but my mind refused to let those come out. But at the end I think it was a little more clear to...

Thank you everyone... It's like I can tell myself that logically or I would a friend, but I can't believe it emotionally.. I did see my therapist today and we started EMDR. I wrote down the dream for her to read since I knew I wouldn't be able to say it. She said sounded like a fear dream due to...

Ok so last week me and my therapist were talking about the rape and about how I have opened up and told a few people. The common thing I am asked and then told is "Why didn't I report it?" and then "You know he is probably doing this to other young women." We start EMDR tomorrow on the rape for...

I've gotten huge on collaging in my art journal. It's really helping me express my feelings which has been impossible before.

*gentle hugs* I am sorry you're in pain.. Our bodies react to the PTSD so much Mine is my back... I tense so much at night that I get muscle spasms, Hope you feel better soon!

*hugs* I am proud of you! I get that, I'm only a month out from my past cutting. Just take it slow. I'm not a great drawer myself, but the collage doesn't take skill. I honestly try to keep my "mind" out of it if that makes sense. One that I did ended up saying "Don't Judge My Journey." I...

Inner Child work can be very overwhelming but VERY rewarding. My T has done it a very little. Also I think a way of tapping into my inner child has been through art journaling. I cannot write out my feelings at all, not in a journalistic way. I get frustrated and give up. But I have picked up...

*Gentle hugs of support* I am glad you are doing acts of self care (yoga, watching TV, naps). I know our brains try to say it's being lazy, etc but it isn't. I am proud of you for not self harming. I agree with what has been said. Your therapist seems to understand where you are at and trying to...

Thank you for the advice @joeylittle We had our first lecture today basically covering syllabus and such. He thankfully kept the same textbook which is great because I like this text and am familiar with it. I have to make an appointment with him about my disability anyways, so I will talk to...

Thank ya'll for the encouragement! I am a bit calmer today. I think I can do better than I did before, BUT I have to do more than that... I desperately need an A in the class to bring my GPA back up to passing. It needs to be at a 2.0 and its a 1.88 right now. So I need an A to bring it up.

Thank you @Solara I am, but my accommodations aren't really helpful for online classes. The only benefit really is double time on exams and quizzes. I was SO looking forward to the class with my initial Professor! I LOVED her style last year when I started in her class and I had an A in the...

Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! It has been a year since I have been in school, honestly 2 years before I've had the mindset for school. Due to health and PTSD my grades were ruined. My goal was to retake one of my courses with a professor I liked to make an A in the course online. I started taking her...

Im Sorry, I know that is hard. Flashbacks suck! For me, my T says "It's ok, I am here with you. You are safe, with me in my office. I'm here." by constantly reinforcing that she is there, it really helps me to know I am safe and that I'm not back in that bedroom.. If its a really bad one she...

@HollyBeans27 Thank you. I am....okay? Better than I was. I did end up getting admitted and stayed for a week, but on a different unit thankfully. They put me on some meds to help. They have helped bring it down out of crisis mode. I see my psychiatrist on Friday, I will be asking for something...

I'm at the hospital. She couldn't get me in where she tried because they were full. So we are in the ER. It's a 6 hour wait and I've been here and hour and a half.

Thank y'all... It does look like I will be admitted today. Another night of no sleep, I feel like I am staying on the verge of a panic attack, my chest is tight. My body is beyond exhausted but wired at the same time. I am literally counting the minutes until I see my therapist at 3... 227...

I am not in a good place right now. I have gone 3 solid days with not only no sleep but in full panic/crisis mode. The flashbacks came back full force around the one year anniversary in November. I had dissociated a lot of the rape until then. Therapist has been trying to help with coping skills...

Thank you so much @HollyBeans27, I just got home from therapy. My T was very proud of how I handled everything overall, especially my mom. She said I had every right to be mad, but I handled my mom very well. She actually did this small little happy dance in her seat lol..only my T! But I...

Well class went good, or better than last week anyways. My trainer did have to tell me to breathe at one point so I got on the ground and loved on Bristol, it helped me and her. Then I got home and all hell breaks loose! First off one of our hamsters died :(. We think it broke its back. Then...

I got to talk to Mama G and that helped. We mostly just caught up since we haven't seen each other in months. I took Bristol for a 1.5 mile walk. I have decided to go to Bristol's training class. It will give me something else to focus on hopefully. Plus I got good news today. The place where...

@desiderata310 I'm not, I am just taking the max does of my meds to make me sleep. @joeylittle I can't really call because my dad is home today but I can chat with them if needed, thanks for the idea. I finally reached out and texted one of the two people (they're a couple) who know about...

Yeah, that's the way my mom is. I am honestly thankful she is working tomorrow so I won't have to deal with her. Nope, I have nothing. It's a non profit. She has told me before to contact crisis line, but I just get frustrated with those. They always say the same thing of what normally calms...