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I was heavily physically bullied for a pretty prolonged period, so it is more likely that I'm remembering that. It's my Mom who was abused, which I think makes it harder for me, as she died. Having discussed this with my Dad, he's actually relieved he has the full story. I'm going to talk to...

I got diagnosed with PTSD late last year & at the time I was so confused I didn't really get why. I ran away from my T for 6 months, but since June I've really been trying hard to understand my issues & sort them out. The more I do this, the further I seem to be away from my family. Basically...

I've just watched atypical on Netflix & absolutely loved it!

@grit I've brought it up, but my T seems reluctant to discuss it. I'm looking on other sites & there are plenty of other people going through the same as what me & you have. This is my number one coping mechanism & has been for as long as I can remember. It's not good. It wasted my school...

I need to get this off my chest. I've daydreaming for as long as I can remember. I remember being in my football kit running up & down the drive for hours in various fantasy lands. I daydream for hours EVERY, SINGLE, DAY. The exception is a roughly 60 day period when I come here. I think...

Thankyou @Freida actually made me well up that! I'm going to explore this in T tomorrow. I think there is something there with other family members also. Its really tough to deal with. I feel as though moving on removes my memory of my Mom. I know that isn't true, but I think it's because I...

@scout86 @ladee thankyou for both your responses, I’ve took a lot out of them both! You are both right. I should honour my Moms memory & she wouldn’t want me to feel like this. I was wanted & loved by my parents. The aftermath of my Moms death was chaotic. It caused me & my Dad to be...

Good morning, afternoon or night, wherever you are! My Mom died when I was 11, as a byproduct of severe Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA). Her Arthritis got a lot worse during pregnancy with me. In my lifetime she had at least 9 major operations. I think I feel a lot of guilt for causing her pain...

Good to see you here ? I haven't tried Keysi yet. I do like the principles that it's based around & it is something I intend to do. I love martial arts & I love training. I think the key thing to do is to find something that strikes a chord with you. It doesn't have to be something main stream...

After that part coming through, I've tried to force other parts through & I'm thinking it just doesn't work like that. I've got to trust the process my T is taking me through.

Thankyou @grit that was very enlightening. I took a lot from you saying to be kind with your different parts, are there any specific techniques that help you do that? I feel angry at the part that’s been driving for the past 8 years & I don’t think that’s good! It really was a bizarre...

After being quite terrified last night, I feel better today. I get it @Swift its new to me that I have parts, but I can see why I do. I'm going to use Harry Potter world as a metaphor to describe mine, Harry Potter is a safe place that also reminds me of my Mom,!

@Skywatcher I can completely relate to that, I feel exactly the same, I guess it was just talking therapy that brought it on. I still feel as though part of me is locked away in a vault, I'm going to name that part Gringotts.

I'm Marvel, 26, PTSD from multiple traumas, mainly my Moms death, witnessing an abusive relationship over 5 years as a child & bullying when I was 6. The past 24 hours have been bizarre to me. I feel like a part of me has woken up. I've maladaptive daydreamed for a long time, but have managed...

Today I have gained a healthy perspective of my family & truly feel reborn. 14 years of dysfunction & I’ve finally done it! I’ve also been passed off for a social media diploma I’ve been doing for the past year! Happy days!

@somerandomguy the 12-24 month plan is to move to the US, which I think will be great for me. I could move within my area, I certainly think it's something to look at. I think proximity is an issue because we live really close, but generally only see each other when we are obligated to. I do...

This is tough for me to write. My Mom died 14 years ago & she was severely disabled. She required a lot of support from family & I am eternally grateful for the support we had while she was alive. After my Mom died, everything fell apart. We went from being a family who saw a lot of each...

Thankyou @cactus_jack it means a lot! I've had a lifetime of the stiff upper British lip. Men in my area are meant to be 'real men' who don't get upset & Finally getting stuff out there is a huge step.

Ok, I find this tough, but I think it's important to talk about this as a man. I'm 26, from the UK & my trauma is witnessing my Moms death & subsequently witnessing a domestically abusive relationship for the 5 years after. As a men I felt like I had to be brave & couldn't show my feelings. To...

I use this name because it is different to anything I use elsewhere & I love Marvel films. RDJ is someone who I look up to in particular!

Hopeful, legitimately, for probably the first time in 14 years.

I love this idea. I'm setting my fear of commitment, my maladaptive daydreaming, my self-doubt, disbelief around mental health, emotional flashbacks, feelings of worthlessness & ignorance of the truth are being set ablaze!

It does help massively. I bought Pete Walkers book on cPTSD & so much of it resonated with me. I think I went through a lot & I'm seeing how my family act. I'm beginning to think there are things in my childhood I don't know. I don't remember a lot of my childhood. I probably have like 5...

I'll definitely put that one on the list of ones to read @Swift, is it Calming the fear driven brain? I'm coming to the conclusion that my life from 0-16 was a bit of a sh*t show of trauma pretty constantly on some level. I think I've let the big T trauma overshadow all the little-t trauma...

Sorry to hear you went through that! I think the same, probably not where PTSD comes from, but it is an unresolved issue.