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Hi all, So, I just took a online test and it says I suffer from "fear of disapproval," probably because I didn't recieve enough of it when I was a child, duh! Anyway, every time I get a good idea or I'm excited about something I've done, I want to hide it because others (mostly my extended...

Omgosh! This sounds really difficult and heart breaking. :( Honestly, I'm not sure how to advise you, other than trying to have him explain carefully his rules, in person, with you able to ask for clarification, and then decide if you can work with him and those rules. Maybe somebody else will...

It sure is a problem! :( My T reminded me that I need sensory input to calm my system down, so she has me doing butterfly taps while imaging compassion for myself, and I'm wearing a poofy sweater even though it's warm, ha! I have noticed that when I'm in this state, that's when it seems like...

Hi all, I've always had sensory issues, tags in clothes, extra make me crazy. Two days ago, long story, I was put in a cast on my right leg, and it is putting my anxiety, depression, and ptsd symptoms through the roof argh! I had to have a emergency meeting with my T because I was going down in...

That's interesting that you started this thread, I have always had a problem with those 3 words. When my kids were little I hated the show Barney because of the "I love you" song, because i felt that it was not real love. Once I tried saying it to my mom and she became hysterical and thought I...

:)) I just gotta print out your post!!! "and I still can't draw. But I really love collage. I also do mixed media and printmaking and I want to start doing some abstract art." :) I think these still count as "you're an artist!" ;) I've used many mediums for my art throughout my life, but I...

Oh my gosh Hashi, you not only made me laugh, but also gave me so much to think about! We're you always this wise?! Does your art always help/support your healing? Sometimes my art is very dark and it creeps people out :( ...not my T, she always seems to understand, even though she's says she...

Thank you both for your responses! Hashi I think it's all of those reasons :) but I also think I'm very frightened of what's behind the door, and sometimes frustrated that I don't know if it's real or not...I can see it. I can put things in it. I draw it without intending to (thats a little...

So here's a weird one :) I think most of my life I have had a dark door in my brain, when I close my eyes I can see it there (always in the same place on the right), it's where I put all the stuff I can't face or handle. I'm very afraid to open it and at other times I'm curious about what is in...

Oh, another thing my T had me do was write a letter to a (imaginary) friend that was feeling exactly like I am and had exactly the same things happen...I am soooo much nicer to a friend :) then I am to myself...warped, I know ha And if all else fails, watch mind-boggling amounts of movies I enjoy :)

Here's a thought, something I have done, I email my T saying I know she's not there, and then I tell all I need to. I also have written her a letter AND written myself a letter of what she would/might say...I actually reread that one now and then, it's just so kind :)

Wow! This is such a hard subject since many of us are so vulnerable...at least I know I am :) I have spent a lot of time thinking about and talking with my T about my dependency on her, but honestly, who else could I really talk to about these traumas? I think it's human nature to want to talk...

Thank you sooooo much for your responses! It helps me keep from freaking out because I'm just weird and "no one else has this problem!" thinking :( I do have a T and she has often suggested I talk to the med guy (the psychiatrist) and I have but he keeps thinking it's the ptsd and my HIGH...

So, this is really bugging me and I don't know if anyone can relate, but I seem to have symptoms of a bipolar issue (sort of) but the highs and lows come all in one day, just about giving me whiplash!!! I'm also likely ADHD but nobody seems to understand these highs and lows...including me :(...

Interestingly, I had a panic attack in church today in the narthex...people were having cake, service was over, there was a loud "BANG!" And I froze and stopped breathing, a friend near me immediately realized and started talking me down (one of my traumas was at church so some of the people...

Thank you for sharing, it's awful that you guys had to go through these things, but it does actually help me feel less freakish :( I know I have to let these people go who walked away, and it really hurts me especially when I gave so much support to them BUT that was my choice and I guess I need...

I'm feeling so down :( My T tells me that she doesn't think I should spend much time with my family because of lack of support and past abuse, but so many people who used to be my friends, just dropped away when all this crap hit the fan in my life. T says I'm super responsible and caring for...

Wow! I'm so glad you emailed your T :) even though it's hard, and no matter which way it goes in the end, it's good relationship practice ARGH there's so much risk in loving and depending on others :(

There's some great website tutorials for learning how to juggle...I practiced each day for 10-15 minutes and actually dropping the balls all the time always got me laughing :) When I email my T when I'm on the edge she reminds me of several skills always including juggling ha

Another thing, my T told me a long time ago that exercise is great but you need 10 minutes of calming focus for the mind...so, I do paint by numbers (I am an artist, but you just can't seem to think of anything else when you are saying in your head, #9, #9, etc painting the little spaces ha) AND...

Well, here's a weird one, but I started some seeds, and they're on my kitchen table, I know it's weird but I spend a lot of time looking at them, seeing if they've grown any, looking for new sprouts and/or leaves, and wondering if I've done it right :) it is indeed a simple pleasure but I also...

Totally makes sense to me :)

Boy, this sounds difficult :( sorry you have to go through this! What about emailing him with much of what you've expressed here? I find that sometimes I can email my thoughts, questions, feelings, and concerns better when I'm not in the room, you know? Also, I wonder if you were making...

I totally get that, when I first started I had never taken any kind of medication, and the whole process was rather overwhelming :( but I had to trust in my T to guide me. Since I have trust issues I still need to run by the T any time the med guy (psychiatrist) wants to change my medication...

Well, read through the other threads and see if there's anything you'd like to chime in on, and start from there :)