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    Sufferer Life Is A Struggle. Past Trauma And Present Day Pressures Feel Like A Huge Burden.

    Connecting with other often does and you are not pointless. Even your smallest gesture can make a world of difference in someone's life. All those good things ripple outwards to affect those around us. Whether you know it or not, just being here, in your life is making a positive difference in...
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    Anxious 'paranoia'

    Yes! I have to actually stop myself frequently from saying things. Something goes missing-someone moved it to piss me off or stole it and doesn't want to own up. Something broken? Someone else broke it and didn't tell me. People talking in the next room? totally talking about me behind my...
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    Sufferer Faulty Wiring

    No I get the disconnect. Therapists are still human, sometimes they too, fall subject to the "well why haven't you...." Have you tried replacing the sugar with something else? Something sweet, like a piece of fruit (grapes are good for this), or, if you're a procrastinator, procrastinate...
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    Dom Violence Blame Myself For Him Beating Me

    It's a good point. Is there anyone you would beat the hell out of? Why? Do they "deserve it" would they be "making you" do it?
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    Dom Violence Blame Myself For Him Beating Me

    My mother beat the hell out of me, and she made sure that any time I said I wanted to do something in particular with my life to tell me I wasn't good enough and would never make it. So I get the feeling. No, my father didn't get involved except once when both of them had been drinking and...
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    What Does Normal Look Like?

    I can tell you what a non intense relationship looks like. It looks like friendship and safety and teaming up against the world. The rest, I can't help with. Even though my marriage is doing well, we've had problems, and we've had a rollercoaster with my MIL's illness (cancer survivor with...
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    Dom Violence Blame Myself For Him Beating Me

    Because it was an abusive relationship and that's pretty textbook? Every abuser feels like they're responsible because that's what an abuser instills in their victim. You're not God, you don't *make* anyone do anything. You can agitate, but you can't actually make anyone do anything they don't...
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    Knowing The Moment You Became Hopeless From Abuse

    No, I was too young. I know it was around seven because that was when my sibling was taken away and my abuser blamed me for it, even though I was uncooperative with the social worker. Why I, as a younger child was left in an abusive home I'll never know. I do know that I was heartbroken when...
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    Still Small Flame In The Dark

    My husband nagged me. :P He knows how bad I can be about making appointments and putting off messages. He's been a godsend for me. <3
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    Can't Make Eye Contact

    I find it hard to maintain eye contact even though I'm one of the rare beasts who can do public speaking. Up on a podium, talking about war or cultures or religion? No problem. Talking about me and my past? Nope. I feel like if I don't make eye contact it buffers me from what I'm saying. If...
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    Research Exploring The Relationship Between Postnatal Depression, Childhood Trauma & Child Mental Health

    If the results or a synopsis are made available, could you please update us? I'm very interested to see what progress is made in this area.
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    Sufferer Hurting

    I too, was in an abusive romantic relationship-two of them actually. Both of them I thought that if I just worked hard enough it would get better. It didn't, and from what I hear, it still hasn't. One I left and the second exploded in my face. The explosion is the only thing good that really...
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    Losing Thingsall The Time

    hehe I had the string mitts too. You actually run them through the sleeves and across your back and down the other sleeve inside the jacket. I used to have to dive into our elementary school's lost and found box for my stuff because I lost so many things. It didn't help that the box was only...
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    Still Small Flame In The Dark

    I made two appointments today :)
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    What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

    up/down/energy/drained... But at a slower rate than before so that's good :)
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    Why am i mad

    Oh yes, certainly. If it's a same old broken record, there's a point where you have to say "look this is how you fix it, we both know it, so you need to decide if you're going to stay where you are or if you're going to do something about it." If it's just a person you try to help and they say...
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    Why am i mad

    It's likely a side effect of depression. Irritation is one of it's manifestations. I'd suggest talking to your GP or a therapist about how you're constantly mad at simple things. Yes, I know you don't like talking, but that's the solution-and like you said-you like things to get fixed when...
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    Feel Like Re Experiencing, Again...how Many Times Can This Possibly Happen In One Lifetime??

    I am so glad you're doing better and got some sleep. Lack of sleep makes everything worse. I'll be waiting to hear how things go for you :) Myself; I've got an appt with a psychiatrist because I've been rapid cycling through emotions (sometimes in an hour or so) but getting back on seroquel...
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    Having Trouble Writing Out Things

    :( I understand. I hate those days too. maybe we can start a "word gone-blargh!" support group :P
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    Sad Today

    Thanks, One Tough Cookie. I'm muddling myself along as I can, but it's nice to hear words of encouragement.
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    Feel Like Re Experiencing, Again...how Many Times Can This Possibly Happen In One Lifetime??

    I am so very happy it helped. <3 I've had my own spirals of pain and depression, though my flashbacks are more sensory-for some reason I have a near photographic sensory memory. I remember what it felt like rather than see it. I know I usually have to distract myself from it or it can get bad...
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    I'm living a nightmare. grandmother committed suicide.

    I think that getting yourself involved in something team based would be good, and exercise stimulates endorphins-feel good brain chemistry, so it would probably be a great idea. Almost all therapists and counselors agree going outside and getting fresh air helps. Mental efforts will get your...
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    Poll Are You More Angry At Your Perpetrating Parent Or Your Parent That Did Not Protect You?

    Hon, you're fab, and you know it. I'm glad I could help :)
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    Feel Like Re Experiencing, Again...how Many Times Can This Possibly Happen In One Lifetime??

    First things first. Stop and look around, really *look*. You're here, not there. You're safe now. Touch and feel what's around you, recognize that you're in *this* place not that one. You're in the here and now. Breathe. Now, find something very very sensory, maybe a hot bath with scented...
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    I'm living a nightmare. grandmother committed suicide.

    If you're already in, you may be able to see the counselor now, I know when I was in university I still saw the counselor I had there even during the summer months. It's worth checking into. Even if you can't get in, the office should have tons of material on places you can go for help, things...
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