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Yes, I totally can relate. I feel like whatever my trauma was, was happening all over again. I reacted and then couldn't stop doing what I was doing and it was like I was mute. As to the voice part, yes to that too. I hear a different voice than the voice that came out of the person who did...

Hey Shasta, I can totally relate. For me, it's the same thing. I feel like the moment is "spaced-out", less real and blurry, like I'm 'fading' away. This is commonly known as dissociation. Supposedly, I think it's the mind's way of rebooting because it's under a lot of stress. As for the...

Hey Riot, I'm sorry to hear that! It must have felt really bad and frustrating, I know the feeling. I'm not sure if you pissed your therapist off, as I don't really know what you guys talk about. But what I do know, in therapy, is that sometimes they try to aggravate us to see how we respond...

Marianne, welcome to the community! That's definitely stressful, isn't it? When something we dream about becomes reality. There is some subconscious reasoning behind why our dreams come true; sometimes our bodies know what is going to happen before our brain does. When you're a mother, you have...

I'm glad you slept well, that's always refreshing to hear. :) As usual, I personally fear sleeping and don't sleep well at all, plagued by nightmares or dreams that might as well turn into nightmares as they are intensnly emotional. I just took some Seroquel though... I'm dozing off so I hope...

I feel ashamed for admitting this or even having this as a problem. I'm in my 20s, but sometimes, I'm terrified of the dark. When I was a kid, my abuser would turn off the lights everywhere, then he'd walk in wearing a light-up Christmas tree hat and start licking me before he did anything...

Thanks for sharing and for this thread. I used to take Trazodone, so I can definitely relate there, regarding the terrible Insomnia and feeling the need to force myself to stay awake. (It reminds me a lot of the Elm Street movies where the teens would be pressured and had to force themselves to...

In my opinion, you should totally tell your T. about the dream. Your T is there for you and anything you have to say, regardless of what that thing is. I think you should just print this out and take it to your T. I find doing that the easiest, rather than verbally bringing it up. I had many...

As some of you know, my new T is fantastic and she's cheerful. One of the good things is that she has one of those personalities that you just can't be sad in front of. But I have an upcoming appointment in which I've wanted to tell her about some dissociative symptoms. I've been terrified and...

I can't explain how split I feel. I like my T so much, that even though it has only been my third session, it gives me a reason to keep going and smile, wanting to improve. But when I leave session, it's as if I slowly morph into another person. Here's what my dreams look like. Context: I was...

I see, thanks! I will bring it up with my T tomorrow and see what she says. I just fear that she's one of those T's who don't believe in DID and think it's playacting. I always get paranoid when I ask for mental health help.

Well, thanks. I hear that. But the ironic thing is, I wasn't yet diagnosed with it. Mostly because, well, I haven't even brought this up with my therapist. Does it sound like DID? And do you think it's something to tell my T?

I truly admire your concern. To be honest, I would say that I'm "never' safe with myself. Which is why the whole personality thing frightens me. If it keeps on happening, there's no real way of knowing who I am, if that makes sense. Not to others, of course. I'm a people person, even though I'm...

I'm at a breaking point. I can't take it anymore and I'm afraid I'm going insane (not really... but to the point of severe confusion and depression). I have EXTREME and SEVERE mood swings. I can't stress how severe they are. I can go from loving someone to hating them. I see the hate in my eyes...

First and foremost, thank you for sharing as much as you did. You have inspired me tonight and for that, I truly thank you. I do not believe that you are a useless old woman; and I don't even know you. I'm nowhere near 73 (I'm 21) but I can tell you that I can understand some of what you're...

I know I'm not the first one or the last one to say that I was sexually abused by a nurse at age seven. Alongside forcing me to say out loud, that I was awful, disgusting, not lovable and pathetic. It is deeply embedded in me as an adult. I went from being a tech-savvy entrepreneur and being a...

To answer the first bit, a lot of people who are emotionally abused are usually taught to minimize what had been done to them. "Oh, please. A few hurt words?! Some people are beaten!" Not exactly in those words, but a lot of people are de-humanized and embarrassed, because they don't feel as...

I see my therapist three times a week and my psych. bi-weekly. I do best with more sessions. In the past, I've seen them 5 times a week and in the very beginning, just once a week.

Although I'm responding much later, thanks for your reply. I'm not sure whether you know about this part of Xanax. They are both dosage-set for me, which means I take them on a schedule, not just "when needed." I noticed really, though, that as my symptoms of PTSD,depression and anxiety are...

First and foremost, your former employer sounds like a tool who doesn't care about the health of the people that help his business grow. "It is not allowed behavior." There is lots of stigma with PTSD and other forms of mental illness, so I'm sorry that you experienced this. I also can't blame...

I have posted this thread in the accurate category, I think -- I previously posted it in relationships and PTSD because it also fit that. I'm second-guessing myself now, but I'm not sure if what I just did will cause more harm in the near future or good. I have PTSD, Borderline symptoms which I...

I'm really sorry to hear that, I know what that's like. I wish I had some advice to give, myself, but I don't. What I did realize, though, was that whenever I wanted to eat, it wasn't because I was hungry. My mind was going through bad states of depression which comes tumbling in randomly --...

Borderline Personality Disorder. BPD can be confusing because it also stands for Bipolar so I use BoPD.

That was definitely an insightful read, thanks for sharing! What you wrote relates to me in many, many ways. Except for the part where you talked to your T. about it. I keep forgetting to talk to her about my memory loss/problems (the irony, right?). I can only give you my two cents and say that...

First off, welcome! :) I'd just like to mention that I've read through it all, so thanks for sharing! But I do have to say pleas excuse the lack of details in my answer, because I only like giving feedback on what I think I know and don't want to assume or give you advice or a response that is...