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There have been times where it seems or feels like another uncontrollable part of me "takes over" and I'm along for the ride. Specifically when stressed or majorly triggered I can become irritable, angry and borderlining on cruel. The way I speak changes to include profanity.... not just in...

Have you figured this out yet? I experience the same thing and am starting to talk to my t doc about structural dissociation. There are other things going on as well that makes this concept seem right for me. I have used the thought stopping method for the self harm/ suicide type intrusive...

It sounds like you're doing really great with him. :) I'll have to look into those books. It's so hard because for us it really seems like a constant struggle. No respect, oppositional behavior repeatedly through the day (you say one thing he does the other, suggest a fun thing to do he says he...

How do you explain it to him? I've tried but I'm afraid he can't understand... he's so sensitive. I began explaining it to my daughter when she was about 8 or 9. She's a great girl, very understanding but also neurotypical so to speak.

I am going through the same thing right now. Me with childhood/ complex PTSD and my son (6 yr old) with ADHD hyperactive impulsive type and dysfunctional mood disorder which is like oppositional defiant disorder but is actually considered worse. :( He is medicated but only to a point that we...

I cycle.... emotionally. It's very hard for me to feel angry. Mostly sad and hurt. Every now and again the anger creeps in - I need to embrace it. Those that hurt me deserve my anger. At least for a while.

Feeling triggered (appropriate use of the term trigger) by my son right now. Rejection/ abandonment issues. The thing is... I know in my head that in part his behavior is relatively normal as well as age appropriate and I have done nothing wrong. That most likely he's not rejecting me, that I'm...

I'm currently feeling strong, motivated, confident, energetic, pretty and sociable. Is this the real me? It's a hypothetical question of course. Those of us who experienced developmental trauma will never know who "the real me" is for themselves. I'd like to think this would be her but I only...

I agree Derealization is a type of dissociation where basically things seem of feel unreal.

While not dx'd with DID, I (of course) have PTSD and do dissociate but with no memory lapses. There have certainly been times where it seems or feels like another uncontrollable part of me "takes over" and I'm along for the ride. This was much worse early on in my dx and unfortunately the worst...

I have "snap shot" memories too. Most of them are like that and very sporadic. HUGE memory gaps. I can't remember any childhood birthdays, only one Christmas, etc. The gaps unfortunately have continued into adulthood. :( Over the years I've been able to build a "trauma timeline" with approximate...

Yep... I've got them. I was physically abandoned as a child though so it makes sense. I can see how trauma in general, the idea that we are damaged, can cause abandonment issues. And being emotionally abandoned is also going to bring on those issues. My T doesn't know how I ended up in a long...

Another day at therapy, same topic, same response. It took a few minutes but I WAS able to ground myself! It was very difficult since I've never tried it with that particular form of dissociation. It always starts with the big (almost) uncontrollable)smile and giggling. Not that it happens...

Can we post links? I couldn't find anything saying not to... More on structual dissociation- http://www.onnovdhart.nl/articles/jts_complex_%20ptsd.pdf

1.What it’s like to live with the disorder? Do you feel that you are treated differently because of it? How so? I think it's lonely and sometimes frightening. Even though I'm married and have a family I find it hard to trust and connect with people. I feel very different from most people I...

Do you dissociate into a full blown memory flashback or is it like there is an unknown trigger and suddenly you're out of control like an emotional flashback? Before my dx I was mis dx'd with a mood disorder nos.... similar to rapid cycling bipolar. It was very scary and I hated (hate to this...

I was just reading some of The Haunted Self online last night. Excellent resource!

I'll be sure to bring it up next week but I'm worried about what she'll say.

I'm so sorry. I wish I could take away your pain.