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@scout86 yes she’s aware of how aversive the hospital is to me. It is a last resort. I also know I need to work on my own black and white thinking especially when I’m upset. I know a slew of coping skills but if I get so upset they all just disappear from my head which isn’t helpful. I know I...

@DogLover33 see my T allows gifts which are made or of minimal value, it’s odd. @EveHarrington i believe we have one, but probably wouldn’t hurt to revisit it. I just got an email from her saying “it seems that we touched upon some important but painful themes in our session, hopefully we can...

They’re not helpful for me. I’m terrified of the hospital actually even though I went last year bc I finally went over the edge. When I was younger my parents used to threaten to lock me away and then I did a partial program at 19 and once it came to family session and the therapist suggested my...

@scout86 yeah, told to call hotlines, go to the hospital etc.

Unilateral in both ways I guess. Over the span of our relationship she’s changed her availability and I’ve had to learn to adapt. I have been respectful of her boundaries lately, honestly. I can see why she would need them bc of burnout and what not. I also have a fear of being too overwhelming...

I guess an example of boundaries w my T would be that she is unavailable for emergencies and outside of session. It is something I have struggled w but have gotten better. I think boundaries have been blurred between us a few times such as she used to take phone calls from me in emergencies or...

Yeah it really sucks. :(

Yeah they do. My therapist tried saying it’s not the same as rejection?

I haven’t posted in awhile, I’ve been isolating bc I’m super overwhelmed w all this medical stuff and the possibility of more surgery. Anyways, I had a therapy session tonight and it was weird. We got in this weird argument/deadlock about boundaries. I hate talking about boundaries bc it’s...

I’m not really sure where else to post this so I apologize if it’s in the wrong spot. About 6 months ago I had a disc replaced in my cervical spine bc of the attack I sustained at work from one of the people I worked w. I was in PT for over 3 months and was improving and now all of a sudden...

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I go twice a week when possible, on rare occasions 3 times. It helps me to go twice a week bc of trust issues and I have issues w abandonment and stuff. The only cons for me I would say are sometimes the travel bc I have to drive an hour one way for the appointments sometimes. I think if I only...

Sometimes I don’t know. Right now I’m waiting for my court cases to move forward and to get settlements from them from my attack/injury and I tell myself after that I can go bc I can pay my family back. Other days it’s my dogs and that’s about it. My brain has its days where it really shouts...

i have switched meds for depression, started seeing a new psychiatrist who swears they can help. *cracks knuckles* okay lady bring it. She’s nice, she switched my meds, this will be try number 20 something of med combos. I was on Cymbalta for awhile for anxiety, depression and pain and while I...

My therapist has so many sweaters it is kinda amazing. She also will talk to me about random things and handles my weird really well. I wish she was a hugger but she’s not. We have been together 5 years and for real is probably my longest and most stable relationship. She swears, she gets super...

@Felmer fear is a powerful adversary. I had my first intense flashback a few months ago, didn’t know what was going on and stumbled across this site. I feel like two different people: calm me and then illogical, fearful me. I struggle still at times but I think I’m getting better at grounding...

Grounding exercises are something that help bring you back to the present moment. Some of the other posters here recommended to me something strong that activates the 5 senses such as say a peppermint candy/oil/spray, something tactile you carry with you that you can feel when you start to feel...

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Hey there, I’m sorry you’re going through this, it sounds really difficult. I think most of us on here have experienced what you feel (overwhelming fear) to a degree, so know you’re not alone and it’s normal. It’s good you’re going to start therapy with someone that specializes in PTSD. From my...

@TexCat i agree w the feelings of safety most of the time. Sometimes I have to pretend my therapist is there w me or giving me a hug bc I have no one else for comfort.

“Maybe you should check in with your therapist sooner rather than later”

Sleep, a hug and a way to rip out these irrational feelings of abandonment

This actually happened Saturday after therapy, I got in a very minor fender bender, I was waiting in a parking aisle to turn into a spot and someone decided to gun it pulling out of a spot without looking behind them nailing my car. No damage. But I got way more angry than I ever openly do, I...

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