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Thanks. I feel all alone in this confusing world..

Yes, I have a therapist. 10 years and counting. I guess what I've dealing with is past trauma and triggers and my younger parts are terrified. My husband has no idea about my internal family and it's best for now. My younger parts are...experiencing everything...

Been there done that and guess where I landed? In the hospital. Twice. Overdosed, misdiagnosed and 0 recall what took place. This was before my DID dx. Some parts have no tolerance being around others and when their really angry, it's thoughts of death. Cutting, stabbing then...not towards...

That is- my husband. In the past, during some trying times, I wasn't able to work or function. Over time I got better but every so often I hear him say things like "get over myself", "my poop doesn't stink anymore than anyone else's", "don't be so sensitive", "get over myself", "suck it up"...

I know how you feel! My T used to tell my parts that it's not the time to visit and needed more of an invitation or to announce their presence. This happened for a few sessions but it left me so distraught afterwards and the parts all over the place. Recently though we had a conversation about...

The time spent in therapy has been challenging to say the least. Probably worse when my parts come out. But, the days after aren't so kind physically and mentally. It's especially hard on the younger ones because of the guilt and shame. They just need extra reassurance or to make sense of...

I can tell when the angry parts are around because I usually have a migraine or sciatica or rock hard muscles in my shoulders and the feeling of someone kicking the crap out of me. It sucks and is slowing my body down but increasing overall anxiety triggering everything...urgh

I think my T and I have discovered something relatively new. I and all my parts are triggered by so much by the slightest things such as words. My T use to react to the angry parts by setting rules etc. Result-they pushed back harder almost enjoying the game but the rest of us suffered greatly...

So, I have parts within and pretty much everyone has an opinion or thought to everything said to me. Problem is, when my T and I are talking- especially about stuff I find very hard to talk about, I go blank or I start talking nonsense and apologize. My T is nice and gets it but anyone else have...

Why live a life like mine? I hate myself and the parts. I don't know how to work, married with one kid, and work on buried trauma with my T? I've said rotten things around my child never at her, I loose control and my anxiety goes 0-10 in 1 second followed by rage and the impossible-being around...

Yup. More so the parts do and they tell me I'm worthless, why do I ever think anything will change since it never does, and the remainder that I'm alone in this and no one will ever truly understand. All the time every day...

Perhaps I'm the only one out there and I'm ok with it. Do other people have intense shame and guilt after dissociating in session? Embarrassed too? Those feelings trigger my younger parts leaving them confused sad and lonely. And not certain how to feel any differently. I can be mostly grounded...

I'm sitting in the waiting room and I've already "gone away". All it took walking through the doors was this high pitched ringing noise. It triggered the normal high pitched ringing when the dissociation starts....and we escalate from here and have a lot of anxiety because I have to control my...

It's10+ years and the angry ones still don't like her, argue, etc and although the parts get angry, they also are manipulating and enjoy the game. The parts journal their annoyance and can obsess over hatred. After they go away, the rest are left embarrassed and ashamed and hopeless.

Well said, thank you. She and I know their role and because of that, she doesn't take it personally. Thing is, these parts really haven't formally met her as I'm working on skills to be able to be present when I need to but it's taking a long time and its frustrating.

I have many different parts and a few aren't so nice either. They write things in the journal saying they don't like my T, call her names and write how much they dislike her. They have spoken with her briefly and thankfully they weren't cruel. Yesterday however, the parts not only wrote the...

I called and followed through and I'm clueless as to why. My dissociation is increasing, I can feel it especially after today. I met with a newish med provider although I was a past pati

Hi, well I have a lump and 2 cysts on my other breast. Its been over a week and I still need to call to schedule surgery, I'm worried.

I have been in two unfortunate car accidents, one involved striking a child and the other thought to be black ice causing loss of control and flipping it eventually landing on my roof. Both were deemed accidental, wrong place at the wrong time. Both had me out of work and only leaving the house...

I have a lot going on inside and out. I had my gallbladder removed in January due to stones, hot flashes etc. I recovered from that but still have hot flashes, swollen legs, pain in my lower right lung and...a lump in my breast. I'm not surprised though based on the relentless chronic traumatic...

Thank you, I appreciate it. I feel rotten inside and out. Take care

I can validate why I feel the way I do. It doesn't help though. Its as if it only pisses me off further. But I can't do this any longer. Each day the loneliness gets even loneliar, the voice gets more soft, the marks increase over the body and I know its the borderline within but I feel rejected...

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I like solidarity for now. So I can try and figure out myself what's going on and why. I'm very private when it comes to my counseling. My husband is not a believer that mental health even exists. Throw in everyone else I hear and it leaves me to believe the world is messed up

If they did, then why do I have to practically hunt people down for simple answers? I am aware of the burn out factor since way back when I nicely destroyed relationships. I was in the midst of a bad borderline lifestyle. This time, now with did etc I do the opposite, I don't want to involve...