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Thank you all, I guess I feel twofold, better for not being alone but also sad that it’s such a universal thing. I do want to change it, at least to a point that I’m not immediately negative about all the things wrong. It’s exhausting to never see much positive but I don’t know how to turn off...

Does everyone feel a sense of pride in accomplishing anything? Because I don’t. I’ve started a new very, very physically demanding job and at the end of a particularly grueling day, everyone else was looking around like how cool is it that we did this? And I just don’t feel it. I feel...

7 if we are talking first remembered sexual encounter. 12 if we’re talking first non vaginal penetration (oral) willingly done. 14 if we are talking willing full vaginal penetration.

Exactly as the title says- I’ve been trying my hand at growing some food this year. Some of it has been a bust but some of it has exploded. I have so many cucumbers. So freaking many. I have no idea what to do with the easily 60 cucumbers I have (and still more on the vine that I haven’t picked...

Remainder of Mays’ Reading: Her Soul to Take by Harley Laroux Her Soul for Revenge by Harley Laroux Soul of a Witch by Harley Laroux I looooved this series. Harley Laroux is always an awesome author. If you’ve watched the show Lucifer, you have an idea of what these books are like. I want to...

But hey the spiders outside my house are cool

I’m so tired. Both physically and mentally. Physically because I have barely slept in days all because I have to take the car in to do the brakes and that has my anxiety soaring to its limit. Sure, I have some money but is it going to be enough? What if it’s not? What if there’s all these other...

If I fits, I sits.

*Not 100% sure that this was the right section. So I did a dumb and watched a video on one of the worst tornadoes this country has seen even though I live in tornado alley and this has been an increeeeeedibly active season. . . So probably going to have nightmares tonight. But it did make...

You know what’s stupid? I’ve spent actual energy being sad and mad over one persons opinion on a photo I made. What’s worse? This is also a person who has to be spoonfed what to think because they have no idea how to do it on their own. They constantly make contradictory support statements- one...

The most intense paranoia last night than I’ve had in a long while. And tonight is very, very intense SI. I don’t plan to act. But my god these past few weeks have been hard.

f*cking paranoia man

That’s awesome!

In that case, I’d leave it at the third chapter and absolutely take a page at the beginning of that chapter to act as a small barrier for anyone not ready and telling them to skip to chapter 4 (or wherever).

Before I vote, what percentage ish is the third chapter and are the first two chapters a heavy enough lead up? What I mean is, it would be jarring if the first couple of chapters are on much, much milder symptoms and then it suddenly jumps into the deep end. The reason I ask the percentage is if...

I am so grateful I was not born in high society 18/19th century Britain. Coming out season is the definition of hell.

Thank you!

Does anyone have experience with apple trees and knows why mine is thriving in the bottom half but the top half hasn’t had a single leaf? Please don’t mind the messy yard, I’m working on it.

You guys are completely right. I’m also calmer now, the SI was pretty temporary this time, and I think it was hormonal. Which is not great but hopefully I can prepare better next time. It’s also a deeper issue and I needed to remember that instead of focusing it in this one area. She’s making...

Thank you all for discussing this with me. I’m not as bothered now, partly due to you guys. But the discussion of free will vs determinism is incredibly interesting and I’ll be diving deeper into that and figuring out what I feel. I do agree that we all have choices and while we are predisposed...

Peach turnovers made from scratch by myself with peaches grown from a tree I grew myself. It’s small, it’s not a Doctorate or becoming the next Stephen King. But I did this. On my own. My ex husband tore down my confidence (not just him, I was already primed from family) bit by bit by bit...

Nothing heals the soul quite like back roads in sunny 85* weather, windows down, and a 60/70s playlist. ❤️ Especially after a day spent hiking, perfectly, contentedly, utterly drained. It’s a day for making some homemade lemonade.

This makes a lot of sense and does help me gauge much better.

Theirs? No I guess I have to admit I’m not. Yours? Yes. To be fair, I’m not sure I could actually manage to go through with it but the desire would absolutely be there. See, this is where I start to get screwed up. Because if we don’t choose to be how we are, don’t even those people deserve...

I have an eating disorder and it’s taken a lot to get to a place where my weight isn’t a huge mountain in my head anymore. To keep it that way, I need people around me to not talk about their weight, loss or gain. I need people around me to view and talk about food in a neutral way, nothing is...