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  1. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    This really sucks. Now that I’m not under all of that pressure, I see all this crap. I also see that my sister is ignoring me. She doesn’t believe me. He lied about having a gun. The police didn’t believe me, the court didn’t care, my attorney didn’t, my sister didn’t...this is why people...
  2. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Yeah, that is always the hardest. I just can’t believe this all happened to me. It’s awful ?
  3. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    yes, I do try those things. I just feel like I am spinning my wheels. Looking at how my life went to crap so fast, and I can’t seem to catch up. It’s sooooooooooooo frustrating. Especially when you see everyone else’s lives moving forward.
  4. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is going to hell. I don’t know what the f*ck is going on with me, but I’m so sad. I had everything I ever wanted and now I have shit. Accepting defeat and lies and delusions sucks. Accepting the fact that your therapist says you won’t be the same sucks. Accepting the fact that you we’re...
  5. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My whole life has changed for the worse. I don’t have fun anymore, I am not in love with anyone, still freaking out and I suck as a person. I want so many things, but this is it??? This is all there is to life???? This is awful!!!!
  6. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Well, I can save, exercise and try to better myself at work. I try to date, but I can’t handle the pressure and weirdness of everything. I want to change my living situation as well. But, not sure if any of that will ever happen.
  7. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Exposing myself to other people outside of my friends and family has made me see how inadequate and stupid I really am. How insufficient my life has been. How I can’t do anything anymore except shop and smoke. How I wasn’t good enough and everyone hides everything. Now, I have to hide being...
  8. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    How is it possible to be surrounded by so many people that don’t care and suck? Nothing will ever be resolved because I didn’t see how crappy people can be until it was too late. And I can’t ever see the positive in things until it’s too late. Damn.
  9. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I am going to be stuck in therapy forever because my life fell apart. Everything I knew was a lie! And now, I’m screwed all because I do t want to be alone but will be! I’m scared to be alone! No one can tell me what’s going to happen and I hate it!!!!! I used to have everything and it was all a...
  10. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is going down the drain so fast and no one can help me. I pretend everything is ok, but it’s not. My family doesn’t care, my ex set me up, and this dating things sucks so bad. Everyone hates me because of what I did. I can’t escape it!!!! I go to therapy, date, go out with friends, but...
  11. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is going down the drain and no one can help me! I used to be this strong independent woman, and now I’m so broke. Everything I do is wrong. Nothing works out. And therapy just shows me how much it is my fault. Well, my life was going great until the trauma happened, but because there is...
  12. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is literally going down the drain! I can’t take the anxiety anymore! The pressure! Everything is just too much! The weirdness of tripping balls all the time! I hate it! I absolutely hate it! Nothing is happening the way I want it to! I hate my life!!!!! I hate it with a passion! I can’t...
  13. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    This is not a random thought- my life is literally going down the drain and no one can help me. My job is pointless and my relationships are awful. The good people run from me. I was set up and manipulated and now I can’t stop freaking out. It just won’t stop. I am so tired of freaking out. I...
  14. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Everyone attractive lies! I am an idiot! I am naieve which basically means I am stupid! And I am! I played I to everything my ex told me. He set me up and no one can help me!!!!!!!! I worked so hard for everything and now there are no opportunities at work, but because I have a record, I will...
  15. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I trust all the wrong people. My life is literally going down the drain! Literally!!!! I hate everything about my life! Dating sucks, but I don’t want to be alone! I am sleeping with a guy that is totally using me and I don’t even care! Do you know how bad it is to do the right thing when you...
  16. AnnieMae

    Stupidest.trigger. ever. / what is your weirdest trigger?

    Any personal Relationship with a man in general. ? Unfortunately, I’m seeing what the issue is, but it makes me so sad. And since my ex set me up, and admitted it after I went through court, I am freaking paranoid as all hell to get into another relationship, but I want one so bad.
  17. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    What do you do when someone completely sets you up so that you fail and it is permanently on your record? What happens when someone was so out to get you that they ruined your life and there is nothing you can do to fix it???? When no one believes you but a therapist? When no one cares? When you...
  18. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Every decision I have ever made regarding people has been bad. Awful. Horrid. Every single one of them.
  19. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My life is so messed up that I will never recover. I can’t fix my job, and I can’t find a new one that pays me as much or more. I have no people skills. I don’t trust myself because everything blew up in my face. I get more depressed every day and the only thing I can do is change my...
  20. AnnieMae

    Hypervigilance all the time

    Yes, I have. I still wake up in panic.
  21. AnnieMae

    Hypervigilance all the time

    Yeah, I’ve used those, but they don’t really help. I am in therapy now, and we use those things, but they don’t work very well. Especially at night when I wake up with nightmares.
  22. AnnieMae

    End of the day thoughts

    I feel the same way. I’m sorry you are struggling with this. I too wish I could respond normally to stressful situations.
  23. AnnieMae

    Hypervigilance all the time

    I will always have hypervigilance due to my circumstances. Nothing is getting better. I keep freaking out all the time. I can’t stop. I can’t believe all of this happened to me and my life is ruined. He told me not to eff with him. He stole my money and my life from me. Took it all away. Pulled...
  24. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    It’s too late to fix my life and the destruction of PTSD. I am so screwed. Therapy forever, bad relationships and being alone. Forever. I have no real friends. I can’t make relationships. Trust??? What is that??? Who can I trust...every therapist has a different opinion. I had such a good life...
  25. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I’m losing my family because of all this. No one gets it. The pain in my body sucks. Everything sucks.
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