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@NoWhereKnowWhere ... It's why I put it up. It's become a basic plot point instead of a serious conversation. It seems to me, lately, like it's getting more and more common. I'm glad I'm not the only one bothered by it.

Note: I am a victim of sexual assault. So I find myself getting more and more frustrated lately. It seems like everywhere I turn, there's rape in the media. TV, movies, news. Part of me is happy for awareness in news outlets, but I don't think that's why they air it... Same as why drama...

Crazy week. I had a good therapy session... It was the first time I'd ever cried a ton with this therapist. After a big break-down last week, then finding my PTSD & changing the day I have my therapy so it's not such a stressful/ long day. But with a breakthrough week, it seems memories have...

I agree to some extent with @Solara. I had a tendency to begin and end relationships/boyfriends/etc quickly, but often I also realized I was leaving relationships that didn't fit or work. I don't regret getting out there and at least trying. But I realize now I could've perhaps been a bit more...

My flashbacks have taken various forms over the years, and now sometimes I seem to have panic attacks instead. Regardless of the official title, they're terrible. Hang in there. I'm glad you were able to reach out to someone, even via text, during the situation & keep a level of grounding/mental...

I worked in a preschool for a few years. Teachers have to keep up on annual training on abuse, how to handle difficult children, safety, positive & negative reinforcement, appropriate consequences, etc. I haven't seen the video, but have seen very violent children before. Sometimes, abuse can be...

Is there a way to introduce him? Just hope there's a way to make it work. For different/various reasons, I have a significant other who struggles with my friends, but I'd hate to have to choose. Also, glad/hope otherwise you're doing well. A support group of clean friends could be fantastic!

I wouldn't throw in the towel. The best thing is that you're being open about contacting people. But I've learned the hard way that some people who knew me then don't know me now, and often (for me at least) weren't the kind of support I really needed. Can I ask why it bothers your boyfriend...

Ha! Probably the best course of action.

I've never literally seen it in the mirror. I've had dreams of similar things, but mostly... It's what my emotional/internal self-image looks like, as though if I turned myself inside-out, everybody else could see what I feel. I'm not sure how I would handle physically seeing it, It must've...

I'm originally from a very cold, very snowy place. Sitting under a sun lamp (or like a lamp for growing plants) can help, but the best cure I found was to bundle up and get outside for a bit. Walk, snowshoe, ski. Saunas are great as well.

@Radise I did. I drew it last night trying to journal & feeling lost & lonely & frustrated... Which led to internet searches for a support group & MyPTSD. I'm so glad I found it.

The the last month or two, my boyfriend and I have been really re-focusing on health and fitness. Amid this, I am finally giving some love to my long neglected heavy bag. Amid my business, I forgot what a joy & release I find in Muay Thai. :-) post-workout glow.

You can do it! :-) admitting personal limitations is important for everyone, PTSD or not.

Some days I feel like I'm getting to know the disfigured creature in the mirror. I know I'm not the one who caused my experiences, but I know that they left me with so many scars that people don't see. But I see them.

Thank you. I'm trying to find the balance between my years of shoving feelings down to power through and allowing myself to have feelings, admit my weaknesses but not have them take over. It's a tightrope lately. 30 years! Congrats! That's reassuring. :-) my boss is a real piece of work with...

I don't anymore, but throughout my childhood, I pulled out eyelashes. In the middle of a stressful year in elementary, I had none left. I was scared into stopping, but still have days where I itch or tug at them and have to resist the urge to rip them out.

I just joined as well :-) Amen. And welcome.

So.... Thank you so much, franciemarnie and LilBit! I sort of just cried a whole bunch and felt the biggest sense of relief I can think of in a long while. Just being able to say (type) what's really going on and have people understand is an amazing feeling. I may actually be able to sleep now...

I don't necessarily have advice, but I've certainly had sessions where I just shut down. Hang in there.

It feels a bit strange to be writing here. I'm hoping maybe a community will help. I suppose, let's start with the positive: I started therapy in the last year and have made some great progress. I moved faaaaaaar away from where my traumas and... Abusers were, which helped. Starting a new life...