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    Just struggling right now

    You have the answer in your post - therapy. It sounds like you have forgiven and moved on, but letting go can take some work. And could be what's feeding the anxiety and low self-esteem. You are right, it cant' change the past, but it can change how you process the trauma and anxiety, help...
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    Frustrated With Therapy

    I am so sorry for the difficult time you've had with this. It sounds like you've answered your own concerns. Keep the trauma close until you feel safe and create some trust with the T. Then slowly release details as the comfort level increases. Sounds like a game plan. May I offer one...
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    Everything is a trigger

    Perhaps try some reverse psychology on yourself? Consider not trying so hard, letting the emotions come out on their own. Then perhaps it could help you be more relaxed and approachable by other people? Just a thought. Continued prayers for peace and strength.
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    Sufferer Ready to share, partner lost life due to overdose

    Welcome! So sorry for what you have been through, but glad you now have a support system as you learn to cope with the past trauma. The roller coaster hills and dips hopefully will become less drastic as you progress. The diary sounds like a great idea and could connect you to others who have...
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    Question: Things that trigger pain

    I get what you are saying. At least they are sometimes coming up. And it's not uncommon that it happens when thinking on other things. The brain feels safe and "allows" something to come out. And yes, the t-shirts are expensive. But not all therapists are alike. Prayers that you will find...
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    Everything is a trigger

    So sorry. I, too, have struggled with similar triggers. The good news is, you know your triggers. The next step is to work through them methodically, perhaps one at a time. For example, maybe set lights on a timer so you don't come home to a dark place. Next, maybe try to avoid tv shows...
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    Question: Things that trigger pain

    Yes, this is a "normal" reaction for trauma. People react differently to different aspects of trauma. There is almost a double whammy when the trauma is caused by someone you love and trusted. It can create a rift in the relationship that may be hard to bridge. If you are in treatment...
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    My friend in heaven

    So sorry for your loss. Sounds like you are still grieving and that's okay. It hasn't been that long, and honestly, it never goes completely away, we just have to move forward with their absence. It's not easy, but it can be done. Be more gently and loving to yourself as you work through...
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    One day at a time

    Don't let the world fool you, we all have our imperfections. Some just hide it better than others. We may not see it at work, but when some people get home, they may fall apart just as you describe for yourself. I believe there are things you do quite well at work and for yourself. I'm sorry...
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    I have some questions about emotions...

    You are most welcome!
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    Ashamed of Angry Texting

    Sounds like you are on the right track. Those emotional storms can be so hard sometimes. I'm glad you have worked through it. I hope the texting has/is subsiding. Keep on keeping on. You got this!
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    I have some questions about emotions...

    I had kind of a similar thing when my brother died. I didn't cry for several days, even made it through visitation and the funeral without tears. But as we left the cemetery I said we had to wait for my brother, and then the realization of the finality of his death brought the emotions. Try...
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    Ashamed of Angry Texting

    You may be panicking because of past hurts. It is hard to re-open our personal lives after trauma. Try to remember she is a fallible human, we all are. The reason she went over could have been a patient in crisis. It doesn't mean she doesn't care about you, just that perhaps she wasn't...
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    always hitting a wall

    Dissociating can feel scary, but it is the brain's way of protecting itself. There seems to be some repressed memories trying to break through, but the brain isn't sure it's quite ready to process them yet. It may help to journal what you can remember when it happens. If you are in therapy...
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    Sufferer Hi! - Diagnosed with PTSD, looking for place to talk without being judged

    Welcome! Glad you found us! It can be so helpful to know we are not alone with our diagnosis, struggle, etc. Lots of support available here.
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    Every semester I go back to school I snap

    So sorry you are struggling. It sounds like school starting is a serious trigger for you. It could be fresh in your mind as you are doing therapy, which is normal. We have to get the hurt out and work through it, process it for our minds to be able to move past it. Give yourself some time to...
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    Im not ok

    So sorry for the tough situation. I would hope you have discovered some good coping mechanisms with the former therapist that could help you through this time. Some ideas might be journaling to "talk" yourself through the memories. Deep breathing through the panic attacks - breathe in through...
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    Sufferer Childhood Abuse - New Memories Surface Every Few Years

    First, KUDOS for recognizing what is going on, and using your coping skills. Our brains are almost magical when it comes to trauma. They will get us through the moment, then when it feels like we can start healing, it releases some of those memories. Think of it like a spiraling funnel. When...
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    Still so broken

    So sorry you are hurting. First, YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS! Repeat it, often. You are alive and you have purpose in this world. Second, the birth control could definitely be adding to the emotions. Lastly, such trauma takes time to move past, it's ok for you to still feel the pain. If you're...
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    Triggered after many years of not having any triggers

    Does it happen to others? Is this normal? Absolutely! to both questions. Here's my story: I was robbed at gunpoint in 2006. It took about a month for the nightmares and flashbacks to stop, longer for me to stop looking over my shoulder all the time. Skip ahead to 2015. I park at work, hear...
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    How Do You Get Over the Self-Doubt?

    I'm glad you thought what I offered was helpful. Be patient with yourself as you work through things. Continued prayers!
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    Flashbacks are kicking the sh** out of me today.

    So sorry for the struggle. Deep breath. It's okay, it's not where your mind lives, it's only visiting. But it is also a clue that something needs to be processed. You are right about the mind, it protects us until it is safe. It's not out to get you, it's trying to sort out the traumatic...
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    How Do You Get Over the Self-Doubt?

    First, you are not responsible for relationship decisions made in your tweens and teens. You needed adults who would guide you through those difficult years, but it sounds like that didn't happen for you. Letting go of that guilt is perhaps something you can work on. Consider writing a letter...
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    Anxiety/Fear when thinking about work

    Sorry you are having a difficult time with this. Do you have some way to distract yourself to keep your thoughts on enjoying your days off? Some things that might help are listening to music, catching up on movies/tv shows, journaling your thoughts to help get them out of your head, walks...
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    What do you need when you pull away or are isolating?

    It might be best to continue giving him space. I get that it hurts and you want to help. It may be that he's not ready for a serious relationship, but doesn't know how to tell you. Sometimes people with PTSD are worn out just trying to make it through the day. You've apologized and let him...
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