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I think we find love more confusing experiencing it for the first time in later life and are more reliant/find it harder to let go for real of our first love as often that person can be the first true family and as such our only support network making us more vulnerable not just emotionally but...

I wish I could give you sound advice mate but in the UK so rules are probably all skewiff and tbh homelessness is sill effecting my day to day activities and decision making despite being no longer homeless ( although mahoosively in debt and at risk of eviction ). Although I have been homeless...

Form Little connections to the reality of the world outside your head. Doesn't have to be with other people if your not ready for that. Corny but follow your heart and gut when finding the right places to plant little roots in reality and you'll be surprised to find more and more seek you out...

Despite being more on top of my ptsd than ever recent illness has taken my bi back down to 15 (was unable to swallow for a few months). Money work family college business voluntary commitments living arrangements and relationship stressors are constantly high all at once right now so despite...

When I met my husband I was hell bent on a solo, what essentially boiled down to suicide mission to Ghana and for Dutch courage after having been the t total good girl misplaced with the special brew crew k heads and junkies for my adulthood in this country at least there was more intense shit...

Thankyou so much for the replies all you greats, I really wasn't expecting this much support, it is a completely new and overwhelming feeling, genuinely humbled, thankyou. Hubby's GP is a walk in not currently taking any permanent patients so they've already done all they can by doing the...

Ok so now my trachea is in the wrong place!!!!!! Tracheal deviation apparently. It's a secondary condition to mediastinal masses, esophageal cancers or respiratory trauma... Painful and scary but all they can do is investigate to pinpoint the exact primary cause as treating that should cause the...

Vaping is too harsh as my breathing is laboured at the mo. The green teas only provide me with mild cbd relief but I find it helps me lay of the addictive painkillers the doctors have prescribed. Haven't managed to eat a thing for weeks due to very restricted swallowing abilities but cooked...

Hi. I have used weed as a successful aid throughout the process of getting control of my p.t. s.d., however my physical health is now such that I am unable to inhale it nor will I be likely to again due to ongoing through and respiratory tract trauma. I stopped taking bongs about a month ago and...

Feeling more on top of things. Four of my lymph nodes have been too damaged to biopsy intrafusaly so the will investigate them extrafusaly after my operation next Wednesday. Still on the antibiotics but have weaned myself of the pain relief as they give you opiates and no way am I going down...

Yes. I am committed 100% to all the people in my life but I guess the dynamics were becoming very unhealthy. The commitments I have made I cherish and will forever uphold but this has given me the drive to steer them in a healthier direction and for once not back down. Very astute @shimmerz...

Amidst this physical fight for health the dynamics of pretty much every integral relationship in my life are changing or perhaps I'm just perceiving them more blatantly. Some changes are stratesphericaly epic like more frequent contact out and about with my son as opposed to at the respite...

Sorry been in intensive care withe septicaemia and bone infection from the old problematically healed skull fracture. Can't Properly test these neck lumps now till the inflammation has gone, van breath now after a course of Iv steroids, morphine and antibiotics which Im now to continue orally...

Thankyou for once in my life I will admit how much I need that. I will try to be there if you need too.

Relieved I went to hubby's walk in as doctor phoned, biopsy needed potentially throat cancer. I only just started to breath from the memories. I wanted to have time to spread a little light in the world, there's only dignity I r pride in me right now my hubby asked. asked where it's gone but...

Thankyou, sorry for my rant rampage, hubby's doctor is awesome, sorting all the tests and ops needed. Employing patience and trust any second now

28 at the end of March with over a decade sleeping out and two self delivered kids and never never have I wasted GP time. I have had my skull smashed In quite severely and infected abcesses where the bony processes have fused have become a serious issue but I missed a couple of minors ops last...

Yes and alway

This is for all the times I have pretended to be OK. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH X 956321489732054730000000.00000 That did not feel satisfying...

I ghost for months at a time but I don't take my body with me. I built spaceship that is parked in the groove between my scapulae, it has rami that emerge and articulates with my left transverse processes and anchors to my right hip bone when I'm in. Its been lit up and waiting for me the last...

I was diagnosed officially three years ago but they've cut the funding for most the local services. @DharmaGirl, do you mind if I ask you about how your nursing and ptsd effected one another as am in similar ish boat in the sense of having a vocation in health services and it frustrates the hell...

A year ago I would of found all that impossible but I'm there now and totally with you, all you have said is bang on but what I'm trying to focus on is setting up a mobile massage buisness specific and affordable to those with movement restrictive disabilities but the pertaining coursework...

Thankyou for taking time to reply, I don't have any app technology or software I'm well old fashioned like that and so out of wack with my generation. I think I'm getting a bit better because I'm not as numb on an hour by hour basis but right now that numbness is being replaced by a hell of a...

I used to cut to bleed the infection of them out of me. Now my heightened emotions are confusing and scary and I'm cutting when the energy has nowhere to go. I've lost control of my brain and am really struggling to focus on what I should be doing which makes me feel my life is pointless. I...

I want to give you amazing advice but I'm scared if I try it will be bad advice. There are so many people on this forum with wisdom pertaining to this sort of horrible behaviour though and I'm so sorry you were put through that. What he did was wrong because not being fully conscious is...