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Welcome to the forums Lacey, and thank you for sharing your experiences. I can relate to many after effects you've mentioned, and hope you find some relief on here knowing your among those who can relate!

I don't know if this factors in, but I use workouts to try and condition myself for feeling bad or suffering. For example I took the horse for a run today to a little community hall.... then I do wind sprints, whatever to make myself feel absolute painfully shit. Same with ice climbing...

I'd say I have a pretty similar cognitive sinkhole. Every day I have to out think the what's my purpose here monkey on my back. I can't equate directly to combat experiences, but coming from any job where the stakes are extremely high, I don't find anything I attempt now seems...

Fellow horse lovers are always welcome! I have reservations falling asleep....fear of dying during and never seeing my wife or dogs again. I'll get a clutching tightness, and flash of panic almost every night when I feel myself falling asleep. I used to love sleeping. Noise, white noise...

Hey Matt, also ex-military (90's) and police, will look up your book, welcome anyways!

Lol.....that's exactly most days for me. It leads to massive indecision sometimes, I can't even pick one thing to attempt I'm so flatlined. My diet is ultra simplistic.....just don't care to make anything.

I have dreamed about lost dogs same way....... patients make sense for a firemedic. Some homicide guys have the same. Nursing I've always pegged as a rough go with the amount of death you must process to simply function.

Welcome blurred - love the dog! Nothing boring in that post... pretty intense stuff. I'm glad you were able to get some distance from the bad, I did the same in a manner....and I think it gave me some mental safety, so heres hoping it continues to do the same for you.

Warm welcome shells, and thank you for sharing your experiences

Hey Katy, For what it's worth....and God knows 500 other people here could tell you the same, things can, and will likely improve....at least in some manner or aspect, the more effort you can muster to fight the bad stuff. I had times, not that long ago where I was convinced I'd never feel any...

Welcome and glad you're here Rey..I think joining up here is a great decision, so you hopefully won't feel as alone. Second to that, you should get some great advice/ideas for opportunities or ideas for interaction or resources on here. Regardless, I'm very sorry you're feeling that isolation...

Warm welcome, and greatly appreciate you sharing your experience. I think it's terrific you sought therapy/help you much deserve. I've also found emdr difficult - not my favorite trying to dig up occurrences my body worked years to bury, but it does get better!

I don't know laws there.... but you could try and grab a cop, via a friend or even popping by a station and laying it all out for them, then ask for their advice, you're not compelled at all that way and they may suggest what to note or record that would assist them, or the landlord later. If...

I hear you.... Sorry for the shit situation, but keep an open mind in the near future. I took up on a more rare trade that pays well, so I never have to get another email from a CEO, EVP, SOB, or any other 3 lettered tool, again. I was terrified....well still am, but I don't ever want to...

Welcome and thank you for sharing your story.

Warm welcome Crystal.. trauma aside- that is a difinitively, amazing life story... readers' digest version I realize. I can empathize with the toll exacted on your spirit/freedom? from the stress and damages, but it's great you're on here able to share and engage with others in similar boats.

Wow...good for you. I couldn't do that yet, but much respect and good luck your way. Hell if you have memory or concentration problems ( I do too) just pop off a joke about it at the beginning, then you don't have to sweat it as much

Warm welcome, and very glad you found support from where it really matters

Warmest welcome Sherry, and greatly appreciate your courage in sharing your story

Get the dog, and if the hubby complains, punt his butt outside.

I absolutely do- they my have kept me alive, considering certainly a notable component of my damage was due to loss of dogs. I have 4 dogs now, all help me immensley... 2 pygmy goats, 4 barn cats, 3 horses.... no make that 3 and a new beautiful buckskin quarterhorse colt my wife just bought me...

Hey man- sucks double you gotta suffer that away from home, sorry fot that. Ive been on meds/varied for 8 years now. I recently tried to wean off effexor, but I didn't respond so well- so to be honest, for some- medications may be needed. If you can deal without, that'd be great, but the...

Hey Tina... I also had the mis-belief that it was a combat only syndrome or ailment. When I realized all the major causes that exist from severe accidents/illness to severe domestic/childhood abuses, I was floored. So glad youre here- hope you find a lot of support and validation.

Not stupid at all, I undertsand. Hell I quit facebook because I couldn't relate to anyone there. Happy pictures of food, kids, and vacations. Here at least, I feel normal, and you never have to be afraid to say the extremes of what you feel....someone will get it. Really knowing, you're not...

That doesn't sound very minor at all. I can't even imagine how that effects you to be robbed of that, atop other issues. But it doesn't surprise me that people might dismiss you...sadly many people are emotionally obtuse, until they encounter emotional crisis anyways. I'm extremely glad you...