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I surprisingly got through the day with family with no triggers. Although there were annoying things, nothing got to the point of being overwhelming. I think my brain is finally learning that interacting with others isn’t always dangerous and that I’m not constantly in trouble without having...

Yea. Very true. I've been doing doing homework sheets from a book on dissociation. They have really helpful questions for diving into emotions and why they are there. I was doing some at the time. It helped a bit at the time but not completely.

Welp I completely forgot to use my coping mechanisms when I was really overwhelmed. I did try one technique but I completely forgot about the one that helps me most. On the bright side, I got the best sleep I’ve had in a while. I did have a dream but I barely remember it and it didn’t stick to...

This is so relatable. Before I could really afford anything, I would make a list of things I needed and try to find the cheap options. I would bookmark them and come back to it later when I could afford it or I would decide that I really didn’t need it. Maybe you can try that. Turn it into a...

I identified an emotion today. I always thought it was anger but turns out it was contempt towards myself. I would feel utterly worthless when someone got away with something that hurt me. I didn’t know it then but that’s what it was. I was able to tell myself that I’m not worthless and that I’m...

Maybe. My body could be so tense and mind so full of thoughts that I need to rest but it’s also a sign of dissociation for me. It will happen even when I get enough rest. So I try to do things to keep myself alert and journal. That seems to help for a bit. I think sleep was a big coping...

I have so many today. People over staying their welcome. People leaving skid marks on the toilet seat and not cleaning it up afterwards. People rearranging things that don’t belong to them. People taking things that don’t belong to them. Just the usual things when family comes over. 🫠

Odd. My alarm didn’t go off because I set it wrong. I had a weird dream that was an amalgamation of my traumas with a weird plot that was like some Korean drama. Just weird. I hate even thinking about my dreams at this point. I get stuck in them. Last night was no different. They follow me...

Well… At least now I know partially why I feel hopeless and helpless. I can’t change the past. I can’t go back and stop what happened. No amount of present day anger and distress will fix it. It just sucks. It feels shitty to have to accept it. It feels crappy to know the past has so many...

Thank you! I know I didn’t but it’s hard to reconcile not saying or doing anything in the moment when I think about it. I want to scream and yell and protect the old me so bad. I think it’s just distressing to know there’s nothing I can do now. It’s in the past. I’ve used that before but I’ve...

Welp, here goes nothing. I want to write a list of my traumas but I'm genuinely unsure at this point what is a trauma and what is just a trigger. I also don't want to write repeat incidents. I don't know maybe I'm not ready to dive into everything so maybe I'll start with my fears around that...

There are parts of us that are kind of stuck replaying the memories of the trauma. I think those parts would gravitate towards repeating those experiences since they are already stuck in a loop of repeating them. I think our conscious selves would want to avoid the experience because we know it...

I’ve had something similar happen. You might have been triggered by something that brought all this up. For me, before the pandemic I was just sitting at work and an image of my mom abusing my brother popped into my head. I was bombarded with all these emotions and voices of all the awful things...

You’re right. It’s just that the schedule is the only way I actually have time to do certain things for myself otherwise I forget. My trauma brain makes me crap at prioritizing in the moment so the schedule helps take that off my hands.

Yea. I only notice seem to notice it when it’s too long and I’m not sure how to interpret or handle it. If it’s a sign of becoming overwhelmed, that would make sense and I can pull away or take a break. Thank you for your response! It helps!

I’ve come to realize that my symptoms lessen around people that I feel safer around. They still flare up occasionally but are less intense. But now I’m so focused on interacting that I’m losing control of my schedule and other things I’m supposed to be doing. I’ve had this happen at work as...

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Yea. I have grounding techniques I’ve learned. My favorite is the Store. You envision a store that has everything you need in detail and you get the item that will help you feel safe and grounded. I feel better instantly when I do this I connect to a anime I watched as a kid, Xxxholic. I think...

I’ve been reading psych books to try to learn how to deal with my symptoms. It’s really helpful but whenever not avoiding feelings or relationships come up I feel anxious. The few books I’ve read so far all say that it helps to feel less afraid or ashamed of my feelings and to try to connect...

No, it’s not that. There’s a specific YouTube creator he likes and one comment section had people saying they felt seen by the video since they were victims of sexual assault. So he asked me if I related it to it and I said no, it weirds me out. Then he asked if I was a victim. I get why you...

If you have one or are interested in making an account, Pinterest is a great way to find recipes for food you find appealing. I’m on there practically everyday looking at things I like. Most of the time, the recipes are attached so you can quickly find something you like and make it if you...

Yea. Right after we went back to what we were watching. He’s definitely not thinking about it but I certainly am. Lol Thank you! He’s a funny and cute kid with his mischievous moments but I find it so adorable. I’m hoping we’ll still be close as he goes through the teenage years. You are...

Somehow saying I don’t want to talk about it feels wrong but that’s most likely from trauma. Nope. I’m not his parent but I spend the most time with him. I don’t even know what my mom would say about this. Even though she knows what happened, she never talks about it. My grandma has heard him...

I’m jealous. I’m not in a location where we ever see the borealis. It’s on my bucket list.

Yikes! Maybe looking for a therapist online would be better if the ones in your area are sketchy. I think a trauma informed therapist is a must now. After my own experience, I think only therapists trained to deal with trauma can really understand and provide the tools we need.