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Having CPTSD and trying to socialize is like trying to play chess with a cat.

Did you tell your girlfriend about your suicidal feelings? What you're going through would be stressful for anyone. My mother has a three year old dog that we've had for two years and I know that I would be positively devestated if anything happened to her. Any pain I would feel my mother would...

You expressed yourself like a true poet, articulating with painful clarity the deep and complex emotions that emerge when such a tragedy strikes our lives. No one can possibly imagine what it's like to lose a loved one in such a way unless they've actually experienced it themselves. You have my...

Actually I was not at all taken aback by the fact that he sent it in an email. I was to overcome with emotion over the fact that he even apologized at all. Why? She admitted she was wrong for not protecting me somehow or another, that's way more than many child abuse survivors could ever hope...

I personally don't see it as being the only one who can undo the trauma. I see it as I'm the only one who can make the choice to undo the trauma. I made the choice to walk into the Counseling Services of the Wellness Center at my university two and a half years ago, I was the only one who could...

My abusers have expressed guilt at times. The thing is I've learned "I'm sorry" and "I'll do better next time" are not necessarily the same thing. My stepfather would apologize for calling me the b word (months after he actually did it :rolleyes:) and then go right back to his verbal,emotional...

This one always cracks me up. ~ I went to see a psychologist once and I asked him "Are you a Freudian, or a behavioralist?" And he said, "A bit of both." I looked at him and said, "Oh, so you like sex with electric shocks."

If it were me, I would continue doing what you're doing and take steps to ensure this situation does not happen for you again. I can't imagine what else you could do other than be sure to read all the instructions and be attentive to every detail of your care plan. This wasn't a case of...

Allow me to paraphrase a passage from the New Testament that I think speaks well to this thread. Jesus and his disciples were walking together as they often did, and came to the city of Bethsaida. A man who had been blind since birth was brought to Jesus and they begged Him to heal him. Jesus...

You are welcome to use my information if you want. You don't have to give me anything in return for it. My trauma stems from.... 1. Physical, verbal, and emotional abuse from my older brother. 2. Physical, sexual, and verbal abuse from my stepfather. 3. Abandonment and emotional abuse from my...

Thank you ever so much for the support everyone. I was able to get myself calmed down last night. And when my mother came back I told her what happened and said I was too traumatized to collect eggs from the duck pen anymore. Much to my relief, she said she understood. I like that idea of...

I'm kind of freaking out. Call me a tree hugging hippie girl, but this sent me over the edge. My mother wanted me to go out and collect duck eggs from the pen. There were two in particular she wanted me to get because she was worried they were developing into duckings. In fact she knew they...

My father didn't even come to my 21st birthday party and I sure didn't try to hang myself because of it. There are a million and one reasons why someone may not send you birthday wishes, what evidence have you to support chosing the rather unlikely one that you "didn't deserve it?" Happy...

It's denial most likely. Also, there's something I learned in Anthropology class that I think is applicable to your situation. There's a commonly held belief that cultural differences are sources of conflict. However, most anthropologists teach that cultural differences get used to reinforce...

See, now this is why I make a point of not reading people's trauma diaries, there's a tendency for things like that to come out.

You're absolutely right. I guess in the moment not failing the class was what mattered to me most, even more than my integrity. I should've known I would get caught, but at the time I suppose the slim chance that I wouldn't and pass the class was what drove me. In hindsight I know I should've...

Figures this would happen during the summer when I'm not in therapy. Just my luck. It's excruciating to write this because of the shame I feel, but I feel like I need to get it out. So, as I mentioned in another thread, I recently got done with the Spring semester, and the end of the year was...

Sheesh, pulling out a cellphone in the middle of a session would have done it for me right then and there. Good for you for making yourself a priority. Who cares if it's expensive!?! Your happieness and well being are what matter more than anything. It's an investment. Think of it like spending...

There are many different ways to get it, so I think it would be a mistake to apply the label of "normal" to the sources of it. But really what it does come down to is believing, very acutely or more subconsciously, that our lives are in danger. I didn't know that kids who are bullied develop...

For me self care outside of the T office was just a continuation of the therapy sessions. It started out just as simple things you might not even think of as "self help." One thing that sticks out in my mind was an Easter my dad came to visit me at school. He said it "might be easier" for me to...

I can understand what you mean. Nobody wants a pity party. I do think it's important though to remember that typically sympathy is given out of a desire to be compassionate or kind. If nothing else it is generally socially accepted as the "right thing to do." It would be unfair in my opinion to...

Hm, interesting, kind of like second hand smoking in a way.

Kudos! ;)

Have you ever been waterboarded before?

That's a perfect plan, keep the "tools" out of reach. You can't overdose if you don't have anything to overdose on. It sounds to me like you've got a good idea of how to keep from doing that again. The first time I attempted suicide was actually a very similar scenario. I stopped taking my...