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Sometimes, I think that the trauma has left too much of an impact that it can't be resolved. I, for example, saw the aftermath after my father had a massive heart attack. I know that he suffered immensely. And the awareness that the universe treated him as if his life and feelings were...

I think the consensus is that the brain is malfunctioning. Personally, it's hard to envision living a safe and happy life because once you've been in hell you can't forget it. I'm just surprised how weak the mind is. It should be able to handle many traumatic things especially since our species...

Definitely true, cdg. My subconscious mind is always wanting me to seek revenge on the people that treated me unfairly in the past. If I'm not doing it I am punished with depression, feelings of low self esteem, and anger. It is still hard to forgive them. I continually think my peers think I'm...

There are many times where I think that my mind is the actual enemy. It's not what I've been through, but the pettiness of how my mind works. No matter what I do, it always wants to hold on to the past. This has been the only time in my life when my mind can't move on. I've gone through plenty...

Six years have gone by and it's like it was just yesterday. I'm sick of this. I'm holding on because I'm scared of not being strong enough to move on. That's what it feels like. Trapped while life is moving forward.

Thanks for the responses. I believe that every person deserves to live a fruitful life. Haters only act a certain way because they want me to stoop to their level. I'm so close to feeling normal again, but I have been suffering from PTSD for six years. I don't know what life will be like if I...

I want to succeed in life but so many people want me to fail. People say not to let others get to you, but I don't know how this is possible. My life seems like it's a continuous battle against haters. One reason I developed PTSD was because of this. I always question what the point of being...

I post a lot regarding this issue, but it is something that is stopping me from moving forward with my life. My father passed away from a massive heart attack 10 years ago. He suffered horribly. I saw the aftermath. I don't know how to make peace with this. How can I have a positive outlook on...

Radise, I agree with what you said. When you say to give it time and not hold on to negative feelings, I have been doing this for six years. It just seems like I can't fit in with my home city. Sometimes, I think that I'm just too much for it and that is why I don't feel like I belong in the...

Good points. My way of living for the past couple years has been to give into my passions. By doing this, I would give into anger and it has hindered my ability to be social. It seems like I don't fit in the universe while other people do. I realized that their thought processes are different...

This is more of a philosophical question, but I notice something that has to be discussed. Six years ago, I had a breakdown. I couldn't handle the stress from my drug addict brother and the death of my father. I fought as hard as I could to not give up. However, my depression became so strong...

Therisa, I think you're right about forgiving him. The fact is that he smoked and ate unhealthy. I always wonder if he was aware of what he was doing to himself or that he thought he was invulnerable. It's an ironic tragedy that he passed when he was needed most. I think that is what has been...

It's been ten years since my father passed away. I thought that I would have made peace by now. However, it's not the fact that he passed that still troubles me. It's the way in which he did. Unfortunately, I saw him after the effects of a massive heart attack. That image never leaves my mind...

I think that since I've been rejected by so many people, I've lost trust in my own actions. Instead, I still have a painful imaginary connection with them because I think they might have better judgement than me. The fact is that they rejected me though, so it is a poisonous process.

Brat17, did you move out of the city where your siblings live? For six years, my brain has given me a nagging feeling that I need to get the hell out of my home city and move on to bigger and better things. This feeling also instills a sense that I'll never be able to succeed here because of the...

Thanks for the response. I, too, investigate what feelings I am feeling. You said that you are in the process of forgiving the man that treated you unfairly. For me, I had to forgive the abusive people for my own well being. Otherwise, I would have continued to hold onto hate. You're right that...

I know that therapy is effective in helping one let go of repressed feelings. Other than that, are there any other ways of doing this at home? I have delved into meditation and binaural beats. In the book "Forgiveness: How to Make Peace With Your Past and Move on With Your Life", the author...

Yes, I want a generally satisfying life. I agree with everything you said except that there is no cure for PTSD. I've studied the subject and have more of a post traumatic growth mindset. For me, I won't be able to have a fulfilling life until my PTSD is gone. If I look at a painting, I am not...

I am in a similar situation as you. My older brother was emotionally abusive and I haven't reestablished a relationship with him for six years. I occasionally see him in the city and he acts like everything is normal completely oblivious to how horrible of a person he was. I don't think I'll...

Yes, I've considered EMDR therapy. I don't see how it could make me immune to my abusers when I run into them. I've believed for six years, as well as my friends, that the only way they will respect me is if I physically hurt them. Some people just don't respect you and will hurt you without...

The only reason I'm reluctant on going back to therapy is because I haven't met anyone cured from PTSD. It always seems like I have to do "another thing" to get better. I'm starting to get more in tune with my feelings. I woke up crying last night. It actually felt cleansing. I don't know how...

I've gone to therapy for 12 weeks. I honestly don't see the point of "proving my abusers wrong". I just want to enjoy my life for me. My therapist told me that I needed a lot a therapy, so I stopped going. People want me to get better, but I'm at a point in my life where it doesn't seem to...

Albatross, I think the main thing I fear is failure. There is always a belief that I'll fail. So instead of fighting it, I just accepted it and moved on. With this internalized belief, I have gone through pain. The reason I'm beating myself up is because I don't want to fail. There's always a...

Abstract, I think you're right.

I know that there are good people. It's just hard living like society is good. I think all of you are good and I'm thankful for that.