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Hi. I too been going through another round of depression . When I am in bed till like 11 am, that usually indicates that I need to cancel most of my weekly plans. All I can say is that it will pass .

Hi again . So my girlfriend and I met with my Christian counsellor . We talked about the trigger and me wanting to go to wild water kingdom. I told him that I was extremely angry at Lillian because it was like my inner child was being robbed of something I needed. Two things my counsellor...

Thanks for the replies . My girlfriend and I totally agree that I need to be able to love myself , I believe that by letting her love herself first , she is teaching me how to love myself as well . We both want to love and support each other ; we totally strive to do that, but we need be able...

So this morning I had a conversation with my Girlfriend regarding my inner child , and how my inner child has been screaming to be let out now for a very long time and to be loved and nourished. I realized that I needed to start listening to my inner child and find ways to nourish him and...

Before I was even diagnosed with C-PTSD, I had a few life ambitions. One was to become a professional basketball player, but I had major confidence and low self esteem issues so that never worked out. I also wanted to go to college and become a master culinary chef, but I never did get the...

Indeed Gizmo learning to love ourselves is so important to ourselves because we need to and i find that very crucial as part of our healing and recoveryI too have great difficulty on getting knowledge from my head to my heart . When it happens though , it does absolute wonders . How I too have...

I can relate to what your problem In setting boundaries. Just over a year ago , before I severed ties with my dysfunctional family ; save my sister ( we don't talk about the family because we don't want conflict) I was so scared of conflict and I let my family walk all over me and felt...

Today I started reading a devotional book that is centered on Jesus and PTSD suffers . I want to be careful in wording this but, I found a beautiful relationship with Jesus that has had a very healing and positive , life giving transformation that has been on going these last 5 years . I also...

I mainly listen to classical music. Since I started playing classical guitar , my appreciation has increased over the last few years. My girlfriend also recently bought opera collection that I think will also be great to hear . I also listen to soaking music because it is also one of my...

Thanks to everyone for their replies . I do believe my future will get better. I have actually experienced a little relief today. Grieving through 30 years of personal loss would not be easy , but totally necessary and a big part of my healing . I believe that eventually I will finish this...

So over this weekend , I have been feeling a lot of pain sadness over a lot of my sibling broken relationships. My counsellor has stressed the importance of feeling sad and that it is a very important part of the grieving process . I honestly do wish that my family would really acknowledge...

Thank you so much Britt. I decided to put on hold my music album. I know deep down , that I am not ready to start composing my stuff full time. I believe the most I can manage right now is to just continue my conservatory studies , and just be patient . As for the laptop I decided to not take...

Ayesha . I remember a year ago . I too felt like the world crashed on me. It was a very difficult year. Depressed , stayed in bed 12 hours a day. Many suicidal thoughts. Thankfully though with a good support network and an amazing , loving, supporting girlfriend , I made through what seemed...

Unfortunately the files might have been corrupted. So it may very well be lost. Instead what I will do is upload one of my compositions for guitar in the nearer future. Don't worry Kwan, I full intend to share my music compositions here , because its part of a redemptive plan and is a part of...

So just now I discovered something that could be a common pattern of behaviour with certain siblings . I discovered that because I was raised in a very unloving, chaotic , abusive , neglectful home, I often only had two choices to make . I could either live in fear of submission of I could...

Hi again. Here I was so happy to de cluttering myself from the past, when all of the sudden giving away my laptop was perhaps not a good idea because turns out I still need it and here's why . My guitar teacher and I are starting my first album of healing and meditation I using classical...

Unfortunately . I don't think their will be. The piece was supposed to be only for this showcase because it was connected to what I learned from my audio production class . In September when course start again. I will probably pick two different courses.

Thanks for all the replies since I posted this yesterday. I do have an update regarding the showcase. I got to the event fine, unfortunately my garage band composition could not be played, due to some technical details. I received this news, about 15 minutes before the showcase would start...

So today is my multi disciplinary arts organization showcase . In my audio production class over the last 3 months , I learned how to put together a composition using software instruments. I invited my closest friends to attend. My best friend told me he can come but won't be able to stay...

So since giving away my laptop, desktop, and video fans console , I knew that I would have a lot of spare time in my hands. So I went out for of the day. When I got home I relaxed for awhile. I also managed to play guitar and practice my pieces and scales and arpeggios . I have to admit , I...

Thanks again for the feedback everyone ; I do appreciate all of it. I was just thinking that perhaps one of the reasons my anxiety is related to going out of my comfort zone is related to childhood probably . There were quite a few times when I decided to run away from home . To be honest...

@Kas_Can_Fly Well I can't be certain as to why my anxiety just started. I do know that it started out of the blue . I can say that when I do something's that take me beyond my comfort zone , I usually get anxiety and those types of thoughts that I mentioned earlier in the post. I would...

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Hi. So today I was waiting for the subway train , when all of a sudden, I started to feel my anxiety twirl inside. I then got these bad thoughts and a voice saying that it was a mistake to get rid of the laptop , desktop and game console yesterday, and that I should take it all back because I...

I guess you could say I have always been artistic. I used to draw pictures as a child. I loved singing ; still do to this day. Infact about 2 years ago I wanted to become a professional musician. Been playing guitar for 4 years ; 2 on classical guitar. I am taking private lesson and going...