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I've been working on building intimacy with my partner, who I cannot have penetrative sex with due to re-experiencing my trauma, getting flashbacks, panicking or shutting down. It's been really challenging, and I'm losing interest in intimacy altogether, possibly because it's consistently...

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AGAIN - SEASON 4 SPOILERS BELOW! I don't know if it's weird to use TV shows as a way to understand PTSD therapy. But I watched Stranger Things season 4 recently, and felt strangely comforted by how much PTSD representation (and acceptance of PTSD) they have on the show. And to me it seemed...

Can anyone speak to their experiences doing both EMDR and Rescriptiong (or switching from one to the other)? I have been doing EMDR for the last few months with little progress. In fact, I've been doing a lot worse. After checking with his team, my therapist proposed we transition from EMDR to...

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Thanks ladee. I'm curious to know: Have you ever had experiences where the self-soothing starts off harmless but becomes somewhat harmful over time? For example, playing TV in the background helps me, and I thought I could replace the picking with this. But now I'm getting addicted to tv. I...

My CBT therapist (who I meet with to cope with the experiences after EMDR) talks to me about my avoidance as if it's just a matter of willpower: "Just try to be in the present moment"; "Just be more mindful"; "Don't do that - that's just another avoidance activity" I don't think she...

I'm embarrassed to admit this, but I've begun skin picking since starting EMDR a few months ago (for childhood abuse). I used to pick at my nails since I was very young (before the abuse), and could never fully stop doing this. It's an OCD or stress reaction thing I'm sure. But the skin picking...

I'm not sure if this question goes here, or if I'm making any sense - but does anyone else struggle with repeatedly doing the same "avoidance" activity over and over again in order to have a non-stop soothing feeling? I have a tendency to watch the same "feel good" movie or even listen to the...

Thanks for pointing this out @joeylittle ! I'm glad you did. I'm only a few weeks into this community and am still learning how to work through my own PTSD while also trying to support others on the forum. I read the post you shared with me and understand your point. I really didn't mean to say...

Good for you, I hope therapy goes well. And I think it's normal to secretly want her to change her mind; you care about her deeply and want to be with her. And sure, only time will tell. But going over what happened in your head too much and/or waiting for her to change her mind won't help you...

Just want to say by the way - it's only been a few weeks but I'm grateful to myPTSD.com already. People here really do seem to "get it". I know it must be no surprise for the regulars here, but I was originally so unsure about participating in an online forum. It means a lot that so many people...

I'm sorry that this happened, but it sounds like she's made her decision on what feels okay to her and what doesn't, and has communicated that to you in clear terms. As painful and sad as it feels, the only thing to do is to honor her request. I agree with @Teasel - it might help to get some...

Thanks for sharing this - I read it over a few times and I'm also really liking the list of red flags. I wish I had the mental capacity these days to respond more comprehensively, but I don't (emdr is kicking my butt!) Hopefully I'll revisit this message again and I can share a proper...

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In all fairness, I seriously did consider going into law. But the fact is, the more I put myself in situations where I can fuss over a contract or documents, the worse I get. It's probably why I get super avoidant about doing admin/administrative tasks. (I know how draining it gets because I...

I just had my first EMDR session - it ended 10 minutes ago. It seems like from this thread that for many, a lot comes to the surface right away. But for me, it was a confusing and overwhelming experience. I think I'm too in my head, and struggled to answer the questions the EMDR therapist asked...

I know logically people aren't out to "get me," but I seem to get very triggered when it comes to things like employment/rental contracts and verbal or written agreements... somehow I feel like people are trying to take advantage of me. I get very focused on reading the fine print and contesting...

Thanks! I just read about the Stress Cup and it makes a lot of sense. I'm liking the Articles section :) Thanks, Charlottemx - and I'm very sorry to hear you're going through this too. It'll be a long and difficult process, but I'm optimistic that we'll get to the other side of this, look back...

Hi - thanks for the welcome, the advice and the book suggestions. I know what you mean. I spent about 8 months resisting the idea that my physical issues could be linked to my childhood trauma, and kept my psychologist separate to my gp as well. I was worried that they'd treat it like a mental...

Hi @Cherie137 - I just joined today, and was looking through other similar introductions when I saw your post. I can relate to a lot of what you're experiencing (especially gaps in memory and thoughts of "who knows if it was really that bad"). You're not alone. Also - I'm still trying to...

Hi everyone, I'm new here, and am diagnosed with PTSD due to childhood sexual abuse. I'm starting EDMR treatment now, and my therapist says it'll be a really tough period, with lots of re-triggered memories etc. He advised me to find a community or online forum as a sort of additional...