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Yes. It’s the good days. I thought it was weird when it happened to me too. To be feeling so badly and then in the midst be like you’re old self. I know people say ptsd is incurable BUT it is possible to string good days together. When I was getting the good days I polled around to see if others...

I hope you get as much out of this site as I did. It saved my life pretty much and helped me understand the shape of everything much better.

My boundaries weren’t respected. My mental health was disregarded. So though I handled those two years it’s still stuff that was beyond what was acceptable. I’m still angry and I need a therapist to unpack this with. But being spun out like in symptom land was bad. You’re right I fell asleep at...

Thank you for your help. You were very helpful. Thank you. I’ve thought about this a lot. And you’re right everyone is an individual.

Thank you so much for everything

Sorry I drafted this the other day and didn’t mean to post it now. I really did wish I could be clearer. For example I kept meaning to say I am experiencing a compulsion to confront that is coming from a ptsd place. And that this compulsion is different from how I’ve been able to handle this...

Thank you for this. It was a struggle for dominance. I feel like that’s accurate. And it’s true you can’t win when it comes to arguements. The dirty tricks and also the willingness to say anything. It’s absolutely true. I know this is just a thread and a forum but thank you so much for...

But who am I worrying about? Am I trying to win? I really don’t know that I am. It’s more like a compulsion that I don’t understand. But it’s also the ptsd symptom because I went through this only happened three weeks ago and this went on two years. So it’s a ptsd response at this point.

I need to move fo

Appreciate the good more than you hate the bad. Stupid head remember this. I lost sight.

the only way you can give yourself hindsight is to move fo

I feel fuzzy from having to smoke pot at 2 am to deal with symptoms. I feel mildly depressed. But in a calm tired way that’s preferable to trauma. I feel afraid to move. Afraid stimulating and alertifying myself will bring back trauma. I feel weary. I feel tired. I feel like the sun reflected...

I am grateful for everything good. Oh my god holy shit I am. This just made me more grateful.

I had a “good day” yesterday. First day in 12 days where I wasn’t in and out of feeling symptomatic. It felt really good. I can’t believe I’m back here after three years of doing well and now dealing with trauma symptoms. It’s surreal to me. I feel so scared because last time I wasn’t doing well...

Okay. Sorry, I used to be a member here years ago and I got excited when I saw your name. I can’t remember specifics just that I had a good opinion of you. So I guess no UU church. Well if you’re going to be a good human being anywhere you can do that is going to help the thing you’re associated...

The more I think about it the more I think Unitarian Universalists would be agood match. Also the poster is obviously a really cool person. Poster you should be in a community that doesn’t just have you but appreciates you. Please check out one of their events. I feel like it might be a good...

I 100% agree with that. That’s what I’ve been coming to as well.

The further you get away from dysfunctional people the better you can validate your own self. The more hindsight you have the more you can see.

The only thing connecting me to this person right now is anger. And without that I would be free. And the him being cool phase has evaporated and he said he no longer cares about my well being and had actually threatened to eviscerate me. That shifted fast huh? He is not a narcissist I don’t...

I think maybe i mean acknowledgement. Sor Thank you. That’s nice. It’s okay though. Being a bad writer is one thing but I find that my writing actually leaves people confused. Sigh. Thank you though. Thank you. So nice. I was sitting with ptsd symptoms yesterday. Questioning what is this...

I like Buddhist thought. I find people in those groups often seem to batting many of the same things I battle. Like anger or frustrations. I feel like it's the best context in which to view ptsd because ptsd is such an organic illness and I just feel like all the elements that go into trauma are...

Hard won. That’s exactly the phrase. I guess what makes me worried is that in the past my individual ptsd symptoms contained a strong desire to get validation. I would almost say this was a predominant fixture of my ptsd. I wanted validation. I wanted it now. I wanted it at three in the...

Thank you. It does help. It at once depresses and inspires me. Depresses me because in order to learn these new coping skills I'm going to go down this path I didn't choose. But inspires me because I guess if I come out of it I'll have stronger tools. I wonder though. I feel like he himself...

It’s interesting. He was being cool in dealing with this and I have no idea why. Maybe he cares somewhat? Or maybe there is something in it for him? I don’t know. Though the interacting helped at times it also led to escalation at the same time. And this is the worst I’ve been. So I guess the...

I’ve actually said this feels like online troll interacting in real world. Thank you for the dbt suggestion. Thats a really good reminder of what I have to do. I feel like I’ve given him so much leverage this past two weeks. Acting a fool like this. I’ve just totally spun out and often keep...