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Well, strangely I don't really binge when I feel suicidal or self cutting. I will deprive myself of food but not eat unhealthy. Before the trauma I would eat unhealthy or if I wasn't feeling food I would overeat on sugar. For some reason after the trauma I lost that temptation.
The whey...
I would join in but I eat healthy to begin with. Today was the first day that I had any time of sugar/dessert item in three months. It was a donut and it was good. I do not drink juice or soda. Only water and whey protein shakes. Eat mostly proteins with lots of veggies and fruits, and a small...
This is a good idea and I am going to try it out! I always carry a journal with my to write about my journals/thoughts. But I am going to get a separate one for the coping skills like you mentioned and have it with me.
I find since having PTSD that I don't care for food as much. Before PTSD I actually think I ate more for comfort or at least cared what I was eating. Now, I don't care and don't really even crave food that much, which bothers me because I wish I wasn't so numb.
I put sometimes. More often then not I don't and I don't eat for long period of times. But I will eat certain foods at times (not over eat them) because they provide comfort.
My T told has my that I have done that two times during the sessions and I don't remember it either. The first time I was gone for about 3 minutes and the second time closer to 5. I don't know if I felt safe but I was calm and relaxed though.
I do the same thing as everyone else does. Even my T stated how calm I present myself when inside I am really am not. Everything just goes numb and my brain doesn't function when we touch on sensitive topics. And a lot of times I won't even remember what we were talking about.
Yeah I try to kill myself in order to get a full nights sleep. I work 8 hours a day at Walmart. Come on work on the computer then exercise a lot as well. But most times it is still not enough. Have you tried a white noise machine? My T mentioned that to me last time and I haven't gotten one yet...
I have been doing it and scanning the environment like you for a long time that I didn't even pick up on it not being normal either. I scan all the time when I driving, when entering buildings, while at work, every where. I don't even notice it and I do know that my body puts out more energy...
Did a half hour of DVD workouts yesterday and now today I am going to push for an hour or at least a half hour because I might not have the time for the extra 30 minutes before work.
I put one one to three months because that was when I noticed the symotoms. My trauma lasted for a little over 6 years on an everyday basis. When I left the situation I got into therapy even before the symptoms started to really develop.
I need to get to a pool. I miss swimming. Since I have off today from work I am going to continue with the kettleball workout, which I love, and then workout on the stationary bike and watch the Biggest Loser that I taped last night. So, should be a good day!
I am in the same boat as you. I have been wanting to speak with my T for the last couple of sessions about this as well. During the next session I am planning on just making myself blurt it out because I don't think I am going to bring it up any other way.
I live near the Columbia, SC/Augusta,GA area and would love to find some friends in the area or even via internet-Preferable female because I do not feel comfortable around guys since my husband was the the abuser.
Yeah, that is what my T always says and he encourages me to make friends but the people I work with I find are immature and I really do not have too much in common with them to make a lasting friendship with. Let alone one that I can feel trusting enough to talk about my issues with. I don't...
I haven't told anyone yet. I don't think I could at this point it is way too distressing to even think about. I don't really even have any friends, other than people who I socialize with only at work, but we don't do anything outside of work. So, it is hard to open up with anyone about it.