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Thank you. I really appreciate your kind words. It's nice to meet you too :)

Almost couldn't even wash my ass in the shower today. Froze up. Had to talk myself down. I feel so pathetic.

So, if a guy doesn't really want me I can't get enough of him. But if a guy is polite, respectful, essentially what I am supposedly looking for... I realize I don't feel like I'm good enough for them. For example... I struggle with self care. Wednesday I showered and had a sleep study where...

Thank you guys for your words of encouragement. Can my hardwiring really be overwritten??? That made me cry. Daring to hope. Finished my final with 2 minutes to spare! I'm free!

I had plans to hang out with D****** and he flaked on me when it was the day to hang out. Big jerk face. I've been talking with a new guy. This is an old record on repeat. Always someone new, never the one. This guy is different. I always think that, hahahahahahahhahaha. But seriously, he is...

Just over 3 years ago I completely lost my sh*t and long story short wound up being forced to quit my job as a legal assistant. I was on disability for about a year and a half and then my psychiatrist said I was able to go back to work. No job. I looked and looked and looked for work. My...

I can't help but wonder what my life would be like if my stepdad and stepbrother never came into my life. If little V****** never was abused. Never violated. Never taught she wasn't worth sh*t. Never taught to ignore her feelings. Never taught her feelings were wrong. Never learned to not trust...

This weekend wasn't a total failure. I managed to reign in my crazy and NOT text K****. Yay me. I also only missed 0.667 of a point on my MTH111 exam. I wasn't so sucessful at studying for my chemistry exam tomorrow. I went through all the chapters, but i'm not very confident on the material. I...

Today was complete ass. So had an appointment with my advisor. Since I'm too broke to take A&P 231 and 232 this summer I won't have the series done by Winter term so I will be INELIGIBLE to apply for the 2017 nursing program. I'll have to wait a YEAR. I can't. I'm going to be 40. I have 3 years...

Good for you saving up money! It's hard to save for a lot of people because it's connected to self worth and planning for the future. I think it's great you are taking care of you. Don't feel bad you aren't helping anyone because you are... you're helping yourself.

Monday I missed school.That's 2 lectures, a prelab assignment, a quiz and a lab. I also have Exams in both classes this coming Monday. Ugh. I could NOT crawl out of bed. Well, I did finally get up, but I was reallllllly overdue for a shower so I couldn't have gone without one. So, I just went...

I'm so sorry you're reliving that terrible event. :( anniversary's are very hard.

I've really been struggling with this lately too. I have found meds haven't really helped me unfortunately. Only thing I can do is look for colors in the order of the rainbow. That and focus on just a few things. It's hard. I'm glad you posted this, I'm curious to see what tips others have.

I am so tired of being broken. The anti-fog stuff I got for my anxiety attack face/head sweating in chem lab etched droplet marks in my glasses. I had to buy new ones. Money I don't have, but I've been getting headaches everyday trying to see through my ruined glasses. I can't wait for them to...

I have a lot of friends on fb etc that would miss me if I died... But don't seem to miss me now. I have literally not one friend I can talk to about things. My "best" friend since 4th grade who is like my sister hasn't texted me back in months. I'm not in anyone's main circle. I'm an outlier...

I can't tell if I'm slipping down the slope or floating away off of it. My weekend has been... not good. Was told by the guy I've been talking to K***** that he was out of town all weekend at a family funeral and he'd talk to me when he got home Sunday. Sucks, but ok. Saturday I had to drive...

I struggle with this. I'm cold and distant to most people, but when I find someone I think is safe I am a stage 4 cling-on. It's terrible. I literally have to set myself up time limits to wait before contacting him. interacting on a normal level is exhausting. Good luck, you're going to be ok...

I have another thread on the supporter forum. But, as I'm no longer in a supporter role, it's just me, figured I belong here now. I'm starting to think that I just can't date. There is something in me that is broken. I don't understand the games and "the chase" and all that bullshit. If I like...

Thank you guys for your replies. I'll definitely try the bun! I AM on Wellbutrin. Hmm. I may do some googling.

When I get anxious, which is pretty much anytime I get ready to leave the house I sweat profusely from my head. My hair gets wet and if I don't wipe my face I'll have trickles of sweat roll down it. I HATE it. I've given up on even trying to do my hair and makeup as I look like a drowned rat...

Actually it's been 3 weeks since I've heard from him.

I feel dissapointed. Is that a feeling? How about, unsure? Huh, I guess I'm not very good at identifying how I'm feeling. sad, despondent, confused, tiny bit of hopeful that I wish would go away. dissappointed.

My Marine (never mine, but what I call him) just texted me. I haven't heard from him in 2 weeks. I caught feelings and he didn't want me like that. Well, he just texted me that he had a dream about me. He was having a party and went into the garage (there is pool tables etc out there) and I...

It is scary when the only way out seems to be leaving the earth. I try to remember to tell myself that things are temporary. Suicide is permanent. Don't solve a temporary problem with something permanent. It's hard. Good luck on the job. Hugs to you if it's ok.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I wish I knew what to say to help.