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They aren't normal people. Sheez! Well....before we start giving our rapist a compassionate hug in an inane effort for change. How about lets give the Alex Balwin's of the world a whirl first.
What was it he said again. He unremarkably told Dylan it was a private matter and hushed her back to...
Scout86 you're already at the top of evolution.
How many years did it take for humans to learn to use a simple fork? How sad is that? ~Sigh~ Such a slow process.. Maybe someday child abusers will be evolved enough to stop acting like animals.
The way I see it is the epitome of dysfunction is indeed cultish. That's how they function. Ranging anywhere from religion to the family units who play protect the family pedophile. And A to Z and everything in between. Anyone who speaks up or against oppression is met with violence. Look at the...
@Junebug. Everything you want is on the other side of fear. I was going to be abused either way. I chose to defy them. Eventually it wears you down and I didn't care what they did to me. Was I brave? Who's really to say. All I know is/was I didn't want to do a damn thing they wanted me to do. I...
I totally understand what you're saying...there is no "before trauma" to go back to. Just as happy childhoods shape the child so do abusive childhoods. Despite trauma you are still you. Examine your heart. That's who you are. :)
You're correct. There is no erasing it. There is however a very real opportunity to see things for what they are. Very healing. A greater understanding of humanity. It's about accepting the horror we were forced to endure. There's always a silver lining. It's been roughly a year since my new...
I'm always high energy,at times I've noticed my legs don't want to keep up with me. Highly annoying. I walk differently than I normally do..stiff. SoNotMe! I can generally tell what kind of day to be prepared for by how I walking to my car.
~The stairs seem to be the trigger.
I was bleeding dazed and confused as he pulled me out of the bathtub. My heart was pounding I felt like it was going to explode out of my chest. He shoved me towards my step dad. I end up in the basement with my friend. She was severely injured. We put dirt in her wounds to help stop the...
My sister slit one of my wrists and my grandfather the other. There are no words to express how I feel about mommy dearest comment "she did it for you." Before she did it she asked my grandpa if she would still get new dresses.
I can relate to much of what you said. "Safe" still being problematic. My voice will undoubtly anger my family..I'm exposing their guilt. Crazy is crazy. They tried to kill me once what would stop them from trying again? On the other hand...that's precisely why I'm alive today.
At this point...
It's a beautiful snowy day. :) I went to the bookstore yesterday to pick up the book "The body remembers" Had to order it. Boo! LOL They didn't have "Walking the tiger either. Great. Now what? I was overwhelmed @ all the choices so I ended up walking out with a book called "F**K it therapy" LOL...
I agree. Your inner child holds your innermost feelings. Even if you couldn't express them at the time. Frozen fear. It's totally worth exploring. For me it unlocks everything. E.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. Instead of crying during flashbacks I'm now visualizing my adult self rescuing me from the...
I had a good session with my T. I'm committed to working through therapy again. It would be an insult to my 8 yr old self if I chose not to. She endured a lot. I'm trying to determine where she lost her memory and find "little Lisa's" voice. Hopefully I can match her bravery. Yes I'm aware we...
Amen.
Yes,I believe it's innate. It's a very good thing the human soul/spirit is designed to thrive. Once you get past the horror of what happened to you,you can't help but want to understand what happened to your abusers. What caused them to fail and go against life itself? Perhaps,its a...
@Mercy. Pinecones: Mother nature is beautiful. It thinks of everything. Always prepared for the worst. Humans are the same. There are certain pine cones that will burst and release their seeds only when they are exposed to extreme heat. In the middle of a raging forest fire..(death destruction...
My male sibling carries on the insane family tradition. He was AFRAID I was recovering my memories. He gang tortured/raped me to the extent I repressed the memories apparently while they were happening. Recently they came back..FULL FORCE. My entire childhood clicked. At this point I can't put...
But we can always be thankful we defied the abuse and survived. I'm not ready to mothball my 8 yr old voice. My grandpa may be dead. What rings in my head the most is his laughter and "There's nothing you can do." And nobody listens to a child." My insane cult family protected and helped him...
Thank you!
Positivity combined with a healthy dose of indifference is extremely important too. It paces you. My indifference to the abuse I was forced to endure as a child saved me then and it will save me now. Defiance is the most appropriate response to absurdity. <------I just explained...