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That is awesome! I am so glad that things are going so well for you. Congratulations!

Definitely illegal to be fired for having PTSD though it sounds like it's a good situation to get out of if you can find another job, which I know is not always easy. However, that did not seem like a healthy place to work.

That feeling of "having to be functional" for others is really hard especially when it's kids. And no place to take a break in is really hard. I always like people to come to my house (thankfully it's not usually overnight guests) because then I know there is some place to escape to when...

Yep, definitely. One of my problems is that life has too much uncertainty- too many unanswerable questions. So my therapist challenged me to journal about living a life worth living in a world of uncertainty. In other words what was my purpose for living and how can I handle not knowing (for...

Thanks everyone for the support and encouragement. I actually had the assignment of skipping groups (without totally disrupting treatment) when I was inpatient recently- so I could get practice with saying no and sitting with anxiety. It was a tiny bit easier since my therapist gave me...

I usually don't even think, I just do. If there's a family gathering, I just go to it. However, a year ago I realized that wasn't really in my best interest. When I was inpatient recently, I began to explore the idea that it's possible to say no. There's a family gathering coming up and I...

I think I am kind of using my therapist as that in some respects. She at least holds me accountable for eating and we go over what I have been doing. I have been making myself a schedule and including eating on it and then I put a star at the end and remind myself that it's okay if things get...

Hearing birds chirping, a cat purring, and kids laughing

Thanks, @pixel . It's good to be back.

Somewhat. I have several ideas on how to make a schedule that will work for me or a to-do list. I made a schedule for my first day. It is part of discharge planning, but I left pretty fast and didn't have too much time to do much more than that. Most of my days are unstructured so I find it...

I just got back on Thursday from a 5 week inpatient stay. It helped a lot. I was at a general hospital unit for 5 days before that. Now I am back at home and it's a little overwhelming. Mostly, I am worried that I won't keep up with the work I need to do with using skills and internal...

@eloc , I know you were replying to someone else's comment, but I was interested to hear you suggest being tested for adrenal insufficiency as that is something my previous doctor had talked to me about, but she left before we could do any testing and I don't think my new doctor takes me seriously.

I know I am replying to think really late, but I just got back from an inpatient stay to get help with my DID and this line jumped out at me. I remember how that felt in the beginning. It was really scary and I did not want it to be real. I still struggle with that, but inside understands a...

Thanks @scout86 and @pixel . And thanks for going through this thread with me and cheering me on. I will be back with new skills if all goes well!

My parts or a part of mine took over last Friday and landed us in the hospital. Got home today and then had to go see my evil med. manager. I was completely switching towards the end because she won't help me like I need her to and she just keeps belittling me and changing my words...

I highly recommend Sheppard-Pratt. I have been there and it has proved really helpful. Overall it is a great staff, everyone is on the same page. There are useful groups and time to work on goals that will help you stabilize and cope. There are a lot of people with dissociative disorders...

I love the weighted blanket because I control it. But there are tons of people out there that wouldn't be able to handle it. I didn't get mine at the maximum weight recommended because I figured 15 lbs on top of me would not feel good. I like mine just the way it is.

That's exactly what I wanted to say to her. I am going to contact my PCP and see if she will manage my meds until I can find someone better. I don't need extra anxiety and to feel worse about myself when I am seeking help. Still considering going back in-patient because things seem so out of...

All I got from my med. manager today was lectures on how my experience with people not understanding me is not right and how I had to make the decision to get better (like I haven't been working on that!) and that I have a wall up and expect people to make decisions for me. Well, that made me...

I had the same thought @Zoogal , that someone has probably been feeding this coyote because it seemed to be acting more like a pet dog than a coyote and once he realized you weren't his feeder, he left. That would have freaked me right out. I lived with woods around me and I was once scared...

@scout86 , I have heard that about naps. My problem is that I can't get out of a nap once I get into it. I can't stop at 20 minutes. First of all even napping it takes me 20 minutes at least to fall asleep and then if I do fall asleep nothing wakes me until I wake up 2-3 hours later. I...

It takes me a while to fall asleep (even with meds). I don't wake from as many nightmares as I used to (because of meds), but I cannot wake myself up in the morning. And when I have dreams, I often can't wake myself from them and I get terrified because I need to stop or attend to whatever is...

I feel like I am never going to wake up from feeling so tired. I have commitments and things to work on, but I am avoiding everything because I have no energy. Still feeling like I am in too much of a struggle to be able to help myself. When will this feeling end?

@BlackbirdSinging , wow, what powerfully descriptive words. You put a description with such detail that it makes it make sense. It's horrible that you feel this way. I get that way, too. I am amazed that you can still keep telling yourself that this will pass so kudos to you. And you're...

Thanks. I know things aren't great inside still, but the day went better than I thought it would.