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It’s incredible the way the mind can cope when faced with dire situations!! To be able to create parts for just a specific smell, wow! For such specific, little things. It’s so sad that she endured such horrific abuse that she had a need to do that but how wonderfully smart of her brain to break...

We stopped the trauma work and started doing a lot of work on internal communication and building trust. Trust is key. Between ourselves and with our therapist. We’ve been focused on learning what each part needs for self care, what their triggers are, what each one needs to regulate, and lots...

Oh goodness, when we got a concussion we went into a spin. Alters were confused and switching all over the place. Our brain seemed to run really slow even though the switching was fast. It was a mess. It took 2 weeks before we started to get back to normal.

My therapist started doing things a good bit differently after she diagnosed me with DID. (She had been treating me for PTSD) And things got so much easier and better when she did.

It’s normal :) Some of my parts I know better than others. Some I know their names and some I don’t. Some I know their likes and dislikes and some are still a mystery. It’s a process. I have 19 parts that I know of right now. I know a lot about 8 of them and only a little about the others. A...

I almost always see something different any time I look into a mirror. It scares the mess out of me most of the time. Most of the time I see somebody completely different staring back at me. Sometimes I see large, green cat eyes. Sometimes, a dead, robotic looking, emotionless being. Sometimes...

That was a great analogy, Swift :) And yes, the media is stupid about DID. My therapist gave me some wonder books and solid information to read. It’s a difficult diagnosis but it’s not what most people think. I hope that you will achieve a deeper level of healing now with a correct diagnosis. ?

Thank you all for your responses. It’s comforting to read others’ experiences. Since posting this a couple months ago, my symptoms exploded and I finally stopped denying what was really going on. I was able to be up front and honest with myself and my therapist. I’ve since been diagnosed with...

I’ve had the room turn strange colors on a few different occasions but it was a long time ago. Recently, during therapy, I was staring down at my hands and they started turning crazy vivid colors. Yellow, pink, green and such. It was so weird. I felt extremely spacy and was having a hard time...

I mean, seriously, thank you! I’ve got so much clicking and making sense right now!

Wow, that makes so much sense! Thanks for replying!

Fortunately, my therapist is very patient, laid back and open minded. So, do you think that the freezing up is because a person needs to say something that they’re unable to say, thus making them stuck?

Does anybody else struggle with going catatonic in therapy? Or having different parts of your body freeze up and not be able to move them? If so, have you found anything to help get past it and gain back your control?

Could be DDNOS, DID, structural dissociation, CPTSD or anything like that. But just remember, the most important thing is to live your truth. As you live your truth, the specifics will continue to come out and you’ll be able to continue healing.

Dissociation is a beast like that. I’ve run away screaming from my husband, having no idea who he was for a bit. We’d be in bed just being sweet or maybe being intimate or maybe watching a movie or whatever. And suddenly, some way he moved or something random would change and I’d take off...

I have super curly, medium brown hair that reaches my elbows. I’ve had it in dreadlocks for many years and have a few that are dyed fun, bright colors. I also have some wraps and beads mixed in there.

Thank you all for your responses. :) Have you ever woken up with cuts and bruises that you can’t explain? Do you have different memories when a different part is front and center? Are you able to do things and then unable to do them other times? Like drawing or playing an instrument? Or being...

I was diagnosed with DDNOS (OSDD, whichever you want to call it) a few months back. I have an ‘awareness’ of different parts inside that heavily influence my thinking and my actions but I don’t switch between them. I feel really alone in all this. The things I’ve found to read are either geared...

EveHarrington, I have definitely experienced toxic shame. That’s why I clicked on this thread. To try and see if others might feel similar to me or if I’m just a freak of nature. My shame runs deep. When I learned what vulnerability was and I was able to open up a little to my therapist (which...

Suzetig, I did read where you said ‘garden variety’ and I agreed with you there. I wasn’t speaking about what you said as you weren’t hating on her. :) It was some of the other stuff that was said by others. A close friend of mine who has been struggling has made leaps and bounds by reading and...

This is kind of off to the side but I’m sad at all the Brene Brown hate. I know so many people that have been helped by her work. She isn’t necessarily speaking to highly traumatized people like most of us here. We may be able to benefit from her stuff when we’re much further along in the...

Wow, I could’ve written this myself. I’m so glad I found this forum. I don’t have any advice or anything. I just wanted to say thank you for writing this. I feel much less ‘crazy’. And the responses have given me things to try :)

I’ve struggled with similar problems for many, many years. I’m finally getting better. I didn’t feel like my body belonged to me and I didn’t care to take care of it either. I never felt hunger pains, I never felt thirsty, I would find bruises and cuts and not remember how I got them because...