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...is to be about... that's what worked for me. Oddly part of my story was that I had a recovery peer who was a victim of extreme Satanic Ritual Abuse... I consider it a blessing that the right people were in the right places at the right time to guide me and share with me and even help me to...

...I do not care. DID clinically though, because boy is it there. Thanks for your input I really value it <3. And if you would like to say more feel free, I'll probably explain the 2000-2002 ritual abuse and the all out mind screw of 2015. This again tangent but I really thank you for everything.

Soooo, anger is usually fear .. fear of loss of control or no control... I understand abuse, childhood, adult, ritual, domestic violence, and the PTSD diagnosis not because of my job, (only), but because I suffered through decades of it and as a result have DID. Just figured that out this year...

SIDENOTE: I suffer from depersonalization and derealization disorder which is also caused by childhood trauma... I have flashbacks of being fingered by an extended family member from when I was very young. I don’t know if this happened. I have no idea. I feel like my brain is playing tricks on...

That's a totally awesome reply in my opinion. I wish my dad could see things that way (just speaking of this comment). Yep, my dad. I BEGGED my dad at the age of 9 (when he was about to leave then changed his mind) and then again at the age of 12 (when he left) to not leave me with my mom...

Hello--i am new to this website. I also use a hammer to self harm. At first I thought it odd, but now it feels like a secret ritual --especially when I am angry about anything PTSD-related (sexual abuse flashbacks, my isolation). I'm trying ti make myself cry I think...i do relate and thank you...

...around me for appointments. So I'm on a Friday where he may only consult with his office staff as the appointment before me and then just do office work after me so that likelyhood of me running into people in waiting room is greatly reduced. I have complex ptsd did and am doing ritual abuse...

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I read this question and getting through a panic attack. I think it best I share something... 'Funny' thing is my abuser who I refer to as "Soul Sniper" is just that - a real life sniper. Lots of guns in the house. But now that I escaped, and live far away things become clear and memories...

Thank you Intrepid. I am not sure how to do any of this sometimes. Just when I think I have it beat, nope.. another round starts. I want to love me. I want to know what it's like to love myself. I never have. There were so many who made that impossible. Who told me that I was unloved and...

...though, I learned to accept more of my memories. It wasn't until 2010 that I 100% believed what happened to me because then memories of ritual abuse and murders surfaced. I developed a relationship with the therapist I saw the longest before I ever shared my memories with him. I was afraid...

MisterCatLady "you are normal and so one of us and I'm glad you are here"...bless you @MisterCatLady .That is a beautiful thing to say and it helps me feel less hopeless about the whole thing. I do actually have a diagnosis of OCD- both rituals and intrusive thoughts (pure o) and have battled...

It was in our house, just a different magazine name, same genre. However I was well used and abused and part of that was included in the ritual so it isn't something I take enjoyment out of, shame yes however for other reasons. Did it make me feel less perfect, possibly, it was a standard I...

...a sweater. I have a nicer sweater I wear for church sometimes. I don't feel comfortable in skirts or dresses (dresses were part of the ritual abuse that happened to me), and I don't feel comfortable in pants I can't easily kick with. Literal kicking, I mean. And of course when I'm at the...

Hi guys. I'm female & 46. I just thought i'd share my story as i didn't do it in the introductions. now i'm not sure where to put it. i welcome any feedback and particularly if anyone else has been abused by a significant other in their life, i would like to add, you are not alone, as you may...

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) DSM-5 Criteria - HealthyPlace There must be personailty shifts. The change from the 4th edition to 5th is now the person can report this rather then another person but there must be still a personailty shift and that doesn't happen. Also: None of that...

The cult I grew up in was made by my step dad. He had a bible typed up. All of it is typed here (please be aware of very graphic content): Link Removed But to give you the basic concept: Many horrid rituals "because god said to" and many punishments which was actual torture because god...

...and thighs! He used to make me get my penis out and tell me to jerk off in front of him, as I have committed sins of ownism! (religious ritual abuse) Problem there being I wasn't even old enough to get an erection, so he beat me even worse! I was made into a prefect and had 3 younger boys...

Nope, sure didn't. Didn't even bring a civial suit with my therapist's urging (or his want I guess) after the Statue of Limitations was up. So they lived until they died free of any wrong doing. As did the "family". Yep, very new and MUCH scarier then I'd imagine it would be. Something...

There's a scary thought eh? My therapist once said that trauma survivors always seem to keep old thoughts ("it's my fault" or "what they did wasn't so bad" as examples) in the back of their minds but that for the most part it is an area that is not touched. One of those back dusty shelves...

Do you refer to yourself as ritual abuse survivor or cult survivor? I'm from ra abuse, but haven't seen it talked about much here?

@Ronin Love your new avator by the way. This describes my abusive parents to a T and it caused some troubles in my marriage as well until we went to a very good marriage counselor that is. They always demanded information from us kids. Sometimes it involved a ritual beating of all four of us...

@Knak I have read a bit about MkUltra. The information on it has been declassified and the CIA openly admits to it. While I highly doubt that it applies to him, and I doubt he was exposed ritual sexual abuse, although he is finally starting to open up to me a bit more about what he did...

no, you're NOT alone with this. i'm another one, ritually abused too, sexually and pseudo-medically... yeah, i get the enactment. support and strength to you.

This is going to be difficult to write and quite graphic, please take care when reading... I was abused. A lot. I was abused by an organised group of people who used satanic rituals and severe violence. I was tortured repeatedly. I was cut, burned, beaten and just generally hurt. They used...