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My son and I went back to the police station yesterday. It was much better. The watch commander actually did what was supposed to be done. A crime report had been taken after all. And now, they took another one and the DA (district attorney) will be getting involved in the violation of the TRO...

Yes, I do that too! I feel lucky when I don't remember my nightmares. But I often wake knowing I had one and having that feeling, but not remembering it.

I'm so glad you are going to your son's for Thanksgiving. It's hard to face the fear of losing someone we love, especially over a misunderstanding. I hope that you can one day talk it through with your son and mend your relationship for good. I wish you a good and happy day tomorrow.

Thanks Jaret. I don't know if he wants something from me. I do know he wants to hurt me/kill me. If I go away, then he sees all of his problems going away. He thinks I took his son from him. He can't see that he ever did anything wrong and he can't understand that my son and I were miserable...

My son and I stood our ground and they took it to the watch commander. They still refuse to file on my ex. It sucks, but right now there's nothing else I can do. One good thing is that my ex knows I won't ever back down again. Every time he's done something I've gone after him and responded...

Hi Mrs Martinez! I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. I'm afraid to go to sleep a lot too. I had just posted about it last night. I have nightmares and I hate it. Sleep is such a hard thing for a lot of people here. I haven't found any real answers on how to combat nightmares yet...

I can relate to what you said and how you said it. I feel for you too. Life is so messed up and I often feel that this cannot possibly be my life. As Momfotwo said, you are not alone. Hang in there!! :hug:

I spent all day today (7 hours) at police stations, courthouses, and the sheriffs department trying to get someone to enforce the TRO I have on my ex! The system sucks. After finally getting a copy of the proof of service, I sat for over 3 hours at the local PD waiting for an officer so I...

No, he just treated me like I was worthless. So I felt worthless and I finally realized that I'm not. I'm worth more than the way he treated me and the things he did to me.

I know how you feel. I haven't told anyone about my PTSD. I'm scared and embarrassed and worried about how they'll react or treat me. I actually don't think it matters to me much. It's something that I have to do on my own for myself. At least for right now. I don't feel like I can include...

Welcome Fary. I'm glad you're here and finding support. I know how you feel too when you think there's something wrong with you. I'm still figuring out how to cope with it all and I've found a lot of support here and some great info.

Thank you Gizmo. I think it's just going to take some time. I'm just starting out here and this is all new to me. Luckily I'm not frustrated and trying to rush anything along. I'm almost dreading when it'll all hit me, and hoping it doesn't hit me all at once. :unsure:

I'm actually starting on my "trauma diary". I'm not ready to post it yet. But I'm working on it. I write a lot anyway. It's been a way to vent. But I haven't been organized about it like the trauma diary section talks about. I'm finding it hard tonight to do it that way too. I guess it's...

Thanks Gizmo and Maddog! Nothing to do about it, just hanging in there and hoping for the best. I'm not too worried about him coming by here. He doesn't know where we live. I'm just over loaded mentally. So I know it's not going to be a good night for sleep. again.

I am worth way more than how you treat me

I'm afraid to go to sleep tonight. There's so many bad things running around in my head. They're all fighting to take over and leaving me a complete mess. I hate being scared. I hate that he made me feel this way. I hate that he has that much power over me still. I stay up until I'm exhausted...

I haven't experienced this, but I wanted to say hi and that I'm sorry for the hard time you are going through. (((hugs)))

Welcome Caladhiel, glad you're here! I'm sorry for all that you've been through, but as you've probably already seen, this is a very supportive place and although I don't have any experience with CBT, I'm sure there are many here who can help you.

Welcome Forestfox! I'm glad you're here. Those feelings you are having are normal. I feel them all the time. This forum is a great place and very supportive. There's an area on therapy as well. You might want to go there and take a look or post questions.

Gizmo is right, you nailed it Kyle. The holidays are hard for me because my situation escalated at this time of the year. There's a thread about anniversaries. Well I have one on a holiday. Ugh. I'm lucky that I don't have to be around my ex. So I don't have the added pressure of going...

I use FB, but I don't expect much out of it. I think if you use that attitude, then you won't be let down as much. You'd be surprised at how many people surf pages without commenting or responding. For example, looking at this forum, you can see posts that have been read many times over, but...

Yes! I see that when I have to deal with the police. Their attitude changes when they realize who I am and that my ex is retired police. That is so wrong, but it's the way it is. I kept at it, and eventually I found an officer who actually cared. He was visibly upset that so much had happened to...

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I know it's hard. I had a period of time when I was like that too. It really sucks and I don't know how I got better, but I know that it does get better.

I have that same feeling Marine/w/PTSD. I feel like there's way too much underneath me that I can't see or escape from.

Thanks Gizmo. Yes, I'm very tired. It's been a long rough week. I haven't slept much. :(