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A lot of it involves getting out of my head, but that’s all I’ve ever done was be inside my head. I overanalyze, intellectualize, and overthink my way out of feeling things. Part of me wants to just talk, but my therapist feels like I think too much and that focusing too much on thoughts is...

That’s pretty much what happened to me when I was triggered to the point of retraumatization. Every time my mom was in the background with my dad on the phone, she would put in her two cents. That caused me to regress into a terrified little girl. I’ve had PTSD since I was 5. At the age of 28 I...

I would verbally place boundaries, but I’m also afraid of being gaslit and that if I fight back I’d be forced into silence.

The idea was to cut her off, but I realized that if I keep at it then I’d be shooting myself in the foot at this point in my life.

So I might have to get in touch with my grandmother after all because I have to play nice with my abusers. However, I don’t have any qualms about cutting some family members off in the future now that I’ve had a small taste of it.

I guess I must have a long way to go if I’m already struggling with this. I really want to go through EMDR to really get into some deep level healing.

Yeah I’ve only just started on DBT and had a handful of sessions with her. She’s an expert in treating trauma disorders. It’s just no wonder that I’m not ready for EMDR if I don’t have the right coping skills.

Therapist: *tells me to focus on mindfulness meditations and the 5-4-3-2-1 technique* Me: *tells her I struggle with internet addiction* Therapist: *suggests I only spend 30 minutes of my time using social media* Since I’ve gotten that down, I’ve experienced a lot of anxiety. Now I resort to...

I’m really sorry you dealt with that. That sounds tough.

What do you mean by imploded?

You literally compared me to your sister, insinuating that I would die alone like her. I’m not in the mood for these games right now.

You should also learn to assess people’s situations without projecting your own biases onto them.

I never said that I was going to cut everyone off. I only cut off my grandmother. Also, that is your sister’s experience. That doesn’t make it my experience. Thirdly, I don’t cut off people simply for being in contact with her.

Cutting off my grandma was the straw that broke the camel’s back. So no, I don’t think keeping in touch with disbelieving family members is an option unless, as f*cked up as it sounds, I have something to gain from the relationship.

My great aunt has been begging me to get back in touch with my grandmother, who has outright denied that I have any trauma. She even went as far to say that I went to residential treatment for what I think I have and not for what I actually have. She also told me that she didn’t believe me when...

I’ve been reading the book “Complex-PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving” by Pete Walker. One of the things that stood out to me was when it mentioned the struggle of perfectionism and the self-hatred that abides by it. All my life I’ve been too afraid of being imperfect or having flaws. I was...

Right now I’m working on DBT skills with my therapist, but other than that I don’t have any updates on my mental health.

How do you think I should go about doing that? Because I don’t know what else to do right now and I don’t think I’m going to be able to heal if I keep in touch with them, even if it’s at a minimum through LC.

That would make sense, but I never accused them of anything. I literally was just simply putting up boundaries with them and that that was their first line of defense. It was completely unwarranted. It was only after I started having flashbacks to the point of regression years later that I...

Well if they’re not guilty about not giving it to me, then why are they so defensive about it? It doesn’t make sense to hide something like this from your adult child and then act suspicious by accusing you have having false memories implanted in your head by a therapist when you’ve never...

That’s the thing though, this was before I was diagnosed with autism. Somatic therapy was given to me during those times, but I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 8 and then again at the age of 13. I think what bugs me is that people blame it on the autism for my stress, but I know plenty of...

They’ve abuse me in other ways, I just don’t know what transpired it all because I was too young to remember. Well as I’ve already said in my original post, I’ve had PTSD since I was 4. I was just too little I guess to retain specific memories. I did mention that I had flashbacks did I not...

There is no “common ground” in my family. My mother is a master manipulator who has made it her life goal to have me question my reality. Sorry, but why should I find common ground with someone who acts so suspicious and doesn’t care about my mental wellbeing? She’s more concerned with...

This isn’t something I’ve decided after a few bad spats with my family. I’ve been debating this for the past five years after I was accused of having false memories. I’m already Low-Contact and am starting to come to the conclusion that that is not enough.

I’ve come to this realization after being retraumatized a year and a half ago, and I’m starting to wonder if part of establishing safety and stability is to let my family go. Last year, when I was regressing, my dad called and my mom was in the background. It felt like she was trying to...