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The Queen's Christmas message to the Commonwealth always ended with a (frequently choral) arrangement of "God save the Queen" at the end, which was about 15 minutes after it started at 3pm. So it was after Christmas dinner and before the James Bond movie Never Say This One Wasn't On Last Year...
37 years.
My younger self was really, really good at setting up dissociative barriers to keep me from this. Unfortunately he was less good at setting up a big blinking neon signpost saying "don't try to revisit this section of your memory because here be dragons".
Kicking myself because I...
Might I ask if you have any other somewhat off-piste bits of PTSD presentation? Mine are additionally: delayed expression measured in decades, hypervigilance in the "if it has two legs and can walk, it's a threat" range, having a particular common grounding technique described to me triggers an...
I don't know much, but it does strike me that self-care includes identifying the people in your life who purposely do nothing other than stress you so that you can remove them and the toxicity they visit upon you.
Self-care of course covers much more than that, and you'd need to actually take...
I intended my question to be open-ended about the kind of dissociation, since a voluntary component to any kind of dissociation seems to not provide many relevant hits as far as google is concerned.
"Dissociation" as a term feels wildly overloaded by covering an enormous breadth of different...
With that inquiry you made me go and have a good think about it. I'm afraid though that I don't have much that might be helpful to tell you.
Derealization is in itself a minor trigger for me, so past a certain point it takes very little to start the ball rolling that winds up with an...
In describing some of my experiences to my T, they noted that it was "unusual" for dissociation to have a voluntary component.
I can't do that from scratch, but if stress levels get close enough to involuntary dissociation then I find I can consciously choose to jump the rest of the way. "f*ck...
Those of my friends and family who have adapted best to retirement seem to be those who knew what they wanted to do with their days, whether that be some large specific project or some class of smaller ones. Involving education of some kind (not necessarily formal) is a common plus.
Looks like in the DSM-IV (1994) it included the criterion A2 requirement of "the person's response involved intense fear, helplessness, or horror" (and was listed under Anxiety Disorders) before the DSM-5 (2013) removed the A2 specific emotional response and shifted PTSD to Trauma- and...
I remember being loss-of-my-cool angry exactly once in my life, when I was 8 or 9 in a situation in which in hindsight a modest request would have sufficed. Beyond that, I do get annoyed sometimes but I serve my revenge cold whenever I can serve it at all.
Thinking about it, for me it's less...
Mine is the former; at least I'm pretty sure it is because I currently depend really, really heavily on amnesia about the details and I'm very numbed up generally these days. But then again, my presentation of (DSM-5) PTSD is a bit weird.
Trauma was definitely drawn out, for what it's worth...
I haven't done EMDR and no DID but my understanding (and so take it with a bag of salt) is that EMDR needs to be of a specifically tailored version when DID is involved.
Might not quite apply to you, but I'm rather fond of nemo me impune lacessit.
It's the motto of the House of Stuart and of Scotland, and roughly translates as "FAFO". You could try applying that to the universe of motor vehicles in your circumstance if you're ginning yourself up to take on a...
Wow, yes, I really shouldn't post late at night in deeply metaphorical language.
Van = brain, driving = exercising executive control over your body's actions, whole thing = depersonalization. Crowded head = some other part existing that I'm unaware of.
Thank you @arfie.
Not lost in thought...
Just wondering because once in a while I've been completely in the back of the metaphorical van hiding under some blankets with no idea who's driving, just noting that driving is happening.
Either my head is more crowded than I generally believe it to be, or philosophical zombies exist and I...
Dune. It's like the sci-fi elements were decided upon first, then the shape of its society was derived from those then distilled for thousands of years.
Favourite accent? (Whether that means local intonations or diacritic I leave to the reader).
Male here. You know him and I don't, so this is just spitballing, but does he by any chance have an avoidant attachment style? It's conceivable he's scared of accidentally triggering you during sex and is avoiding discussing that fear with you because doing so feels too vulnerable so he's...
In the beforetimes? 5 minutes.
In the post-PTSD onset times? Also 5 minutes, but for a different reason. I have a distinctly... unpleasant recurring intrusive thought, so I'm a teeny tiny bit afraid of giving my brain undistracted time and only go to bed when I'm utterly exhausted in order...
Deepest I've been so far is sitting in the metaphorical back seat of my head, wondering why I could feel a pressure on the sole of my right foot. Then realizing it was because my body had been braking for a stop sign. Rather curious that it can do that all without me, but in any case I think...
If your "she's thinking I'm suicidal" alarm goes off, you could point out that wanting to begin treatment is not something that people already set on suicide generally do.
Perhaps you could introduce the idea of therapy with a different, milder frame, e.g. wanting to work on your self-esteem or...
I have type 1 diabetes as well as the whole PTSD thing. I could also have phrased that as 'I am a type 1 diabetic', but having thought about it recently I decided to stop using the latter phrasing. Because I don't see it as something I am, it is not my identity or even a part of it, it's a...
I daresay it's just how language works. Specific terminology enters the mainstream and/or the stigma around a term abates, and so the general public start using it for themselves in a hyperbolic sense.
The smooth is the ebbing of stigma; the rough is the appropriation and application of...