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    Ask a foreigner

    The Queen's Christmas message to the Commonwealth always ended with a (frequently choral) arrangement of "God save the Queen" at the end, which was about 15 minutes after it started at 3pm. So it was after Christmas dinner and before the James Bond movie Never Say This One Wasn't On Last Year...
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    Insert Swearish Rant Here

    Fcuk the French Connection UK.
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    Poll When Did the Symptoms of PTSD First Appear, After the Initial Traumatic Event?

    37 years. My younger self was really, really good at setting up dissociative barriers to keep me from this. Unfortunately he was less good at setting up a big blinking neon signpost saying "don't try to revisit this section of your memory because here be dragons". Kicking myself because I...
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    How voluntary is your dissociation?

    Might I ask if you have any other somewhat off-piste bits of PTSD presentation? Mine are additionally: delayed expression measured in decades, hypervigilance in the "if it has two legs and can walk, it's a threat" range, having a particular common grounding technique described to me triggers an...
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    Other Being told have to be play nice and keep in touch with toxic family members is wearing me down

    I don't know much, but it does strike me that self-care includes identifying the people in your life who purposely do nothing other than stress you so that you can remove them and the toxicity they visit upon you. Self-care of course covers much more than that, and you'd need to actually take...
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    Last movie or tv series you watched?

    Currently in the middle of Season 3 of a rewatch right now.
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    How voluntary is your dissociation?

    I intended my question to be open-ended about the kind of dissociation, since a voluntary component to any kind of dissociation seems to not provide many relevant hits as far as google is concerned. "Dissociation" as a term feels wildly overloaded by covering an enormous breadth of different...
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    How voluntary is your dissociation?

    With that inquiry you made me go and have a good think about it. I'm afraid though that I don't have much that might be helpful to tell you. Derealization is in itself a minor trigger for me, so past a certain point it takes very little to start the ball rolling that winds up with an...
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    How voluntary is your dissociation?

    In describing some of my experiences to my T, they noted that it was "unusual" for dissociation to have a voluntary component. I can't do that from scratch, but if stress levels get close enough to involuntary dissociation then I find I can consciously choose to jump the rest of the way. "f*ck...
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    Sufferer Flash backs are my main issue

    Welcome, @applecandy, to one of those clubs nobody wants to be in. But we do have cookies.
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    I just applied for retirement - I’m freaking out

    Those of my friends and family who have adapted best to retirement seem to be those who knew what they wanted to do with their days, whether that be some large specific project or some class of smaller ones. Involving education of some kind (not necessarily formal) is a common plus.
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    Do I have to be angry?

    Looks like in the DSM-IV (1994) it included the criterion A2 requirement of "the person's response involved intense fear, helplessness, or horror" (and was listed under Anxiety Disorders) before the DSM-5 (2013) removed the A2 specific emotional response and shifted PTSD to Trauma- and...
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    Do I have to be angry?

    I remember being loss-of-my-cool angry exactly once in my life, when I was 8 or 9 in a situation in which in hindsight a modest request would have sufficed. Beyond that, I do get annoyed sometimes but I serve my revenge cold whenever I can serve it at all. Thinking about it, for me it's less...
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    When the post-trauma feels worse than the trauma did at the time?

    Mine is the former; at least I'm pretty sure it is because I currently depend really, really heavily on amnesia about the details and I'm very numbed up generally these days. But then again, my presentation of (DSM-5) PTSD is a bit weird. Trauma was definitely drawn out, for what it's worth...
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    Feeling confused about enjoying the EMDR, and being scared of myself right after the session

    I haven't done EMDR and no DID but my understanding (and so take it with a bag of salt) is that EMDR needs to be of a specifically tailored version when DID is involved.
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    Can’t Go Outside - Any sayings or thoughts that anyone repeats to themselves to feel less scared, or weak, and vulnerable?

    Might not quite apply to you, but I'm rather fond of nemo me impune lacessit. It's the motto of the House of Stuart and of Scotland, and roughly translates as "FAFO". You could try applying that to the universe of motor vehicles in your circumstance if you're ginning yourself up to take on a...
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    Is someone always driving when it's not you?

    Wow, yes, I really shouldn't post late at night in deeply metaphorical language. Van = brain, driving = exercising executive control over your body's actions, whole thing = depersonalization. Crowded head = some other part existing that I'm unaware of. Thank you @arfie. Not lost in thought...
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    Is someone always driving when it's not you?

    Just wondering because once in a while I've been completely in the back of the metaphorical van hiding under some blankets with no idea who's driving, just noting that driving is happening. Either my head is more crowded than I generally believe it to be, or philosophical zombies exist and I...
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    What’s your favorite?

    Dune. It's like the sci-fi elements were decided upon first, then the shape of its society was derived from those then distilled for thousands of years. Favourite accent? (Whether that means local intonations or diacritic I leave to the reader).
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    If you are male, would you react like this?

    Male here. You know him and I don't, so this is just spitballing, but does he by any chance have an avoidant attachment style? It's conceivable he's scared of accidentally triggering you during sex and is avoiding discussing that fear with you because doing so feels too vulnerable so he's...
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    How long does it take you to fall asleep?

    In the beforetimes? 5 minutes. In the post-PTSD onset times? Also 5 minutes, but for a different reason. I have a distinctly... unpleasant recurring intrusive thought, so I'm a teeny tiny bit afraid of giving my brain undistracted time and only go to bed when I'm utterly exhausted in order...
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    How does dissociation feel for you?

    Deepest I've been so far is sitting in the metaphorical back seat of my head, wondering why I could feel a pressure on the sole of my right foot. Then realizing it was because my body had been braking for a stop sign. Rather curious that it can do that all without me, but in any case I think...
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    Bringing up treatment

    If your "she's thinking I'm suicidal" alarm goes off, you could point out that wanting to begin treatment is not something that people already set on suicide generally do. Perhaps you could introduce the idea of therapy with a different, milder frame, e.g. wanting to work on your self-esteem or...
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    Trying to reckon with disability

    I have type 1 diabetes as well as the whole PTSD thing. I could also have phrased that as 'I am a type 1 diabetic', but having thought about it recently I decided to stop using the latter phrasing. Because I don't see it as something I am, it is not my identity or even a part of it, it's a...
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    Other Meaning of the word “trauma”

    I daresay it's just how language works. Specific terminology enters the mainstream and/or the stigma around a term abates, and so the general public start using it for themselves in a hyperbolic sense. The smooth is the ebbing of stigma; the rough is the appropriation and application of...
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