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  1. Muttly

    Medical My uterus is finally gone, but it didn't feel like much of a choice.. Any CSA survivors with a full hysterectomy?

    Ok, sorry, hit the post button by mistake... That's pretty common around here. If the abuse happened when you were very young, were dissociated, under the influence of drugs/alcohol, etc you may not remember the abuse. For me, there are things I *know* happened and things I think happened...
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    Medical My uterus is finally gone, but it didn't feel like much of a choice.. Any CSA survivors with a full hysterectomy?

    In a group like this, with many people from all over the world, with different cultures and experiences it's usually best to ask questions of others instead of assume their intent. I'm not completely sure what you mean by "assumptive" but I read @Upside Down Eagle reply very differently...
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    Sufferer Good morning everyone. It's good to be here. I'm a suicide attempt survivor.

    This is not the appropriate place to vent your anger and opinions at American Veterans. If you haven't read the rules and FAQ, I suggest you do. If you really are here to get support for your PTSD, you will need to focus on your experiences and feelings and not attack an entire group of people...
  4. Muttly

    I was nasty today and I need help

    It's good you recognize there is a problem. I can understand how freaked out you are about what you did. I think the person on the crisis line gave you good advice. It sounds like you are emotionally very unregulated right now. Are you able to follow up on the crisis line person's advice?
  5. Muttly

    Is is possible that I have CPTSD?

    Let's suppose that you don't have PTSD. You are reacting as you are, for a reason. You are struggling and trying to get help. That gives it merit. Even if you are never diagnosed. To be absolutely clear, I'm not saying that. Most of us start this processes by wondering if we have PTSD (or some...
  6. Muttly

    Supporter My partner with C-PTSD thinks I'm abusive but I think it's a communication issue.

    That is a lot to deal with. You are allowed, and also need, to take care of yourself. Are you getting therapy? What supports do you have? You can be a supportive partner and do everything "right" but if the other person isn't in a place to receive or accept it, you can't fix them. It's a hard...
  7. Muttly

    Trying to get out of dissociation but always get sucked back in

    You've been given a lot of good advice. As a pro at dissociating (heh), I agree with what Sideways and Arfie sad. One of the things T had me do waas practice skills in places that were easy to management. So, for example when talking to a cashier, being fully present and grounded. Or when...
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    Sufferer New from the PacNW

    Welcome, sounds like you are in a tough situation. I hope you find this place forum. People give honest feedback here and the best tip I can give you is to take what helps you and let the rest slide. I'm originally from the PNW and miss it.
  9. Muttly

    How are you coping with Epstein news? (not a debate thread)

    My spouse (Tat), who will be start a doctorate program in technology this fall and currently works in a university that is currently working on AI issues, recently helped with a presentation of visual images. The question was, could you tell if they were real or AI. Some it was easy to tell, but...
  10. Muttly

    Childhood when did you start remembering?

    It sounds like you have a good understanding of what you need and many of the risk and benefits of the path you are taking. I am glad you have a supportive therapist and you are posting here. I hope this for you too
  11. Muttly

    Server Performance Tuning

    Thanks Anthony. I haven't had any issues today.
  12. Muttly

    Childhood when did you start remembering?

    As @Grasping Hope said there are layers and layers and then more layers of memory for me. This was my experience. It cost me a lot and I spent most of my time in the process being very self-destructive. It's very important, in my opinion, to have support while you work on remembering and...
  13. Muttly

    Server Performance Tuning

    Was curious if any work was being done currently. (I'm assuming you can use the time stamp to know when I'm referring to.). Server is the slowest it's been for me in a long time. Not complaining, just providing info in case its useful.
  14. Muttly

    Beyond Anxiety

    I don't like the AI responses much, but it brought a post up I hadn't seen. It's bee a few weeks, since you posted. Is this still going on? So, that sounds like helplessness? And I am going to challenge you a bit. It's *feeling* responsible for the animals you see. I don't have that...
  15. Muttly

    Childhood when did you start remembering?

    This is very relatable to me. For me, I was in my mid-thirties when I started to deal with it. I can't fully say I had no memory. I had some memories of being sexualized by my dad. I didn't understand how inappropriate some of his behaviors were, until I'd done work in therapy. And, for some...
  16. Muttly

    Does this sound like a psychiatrist who isn’t trauma-informed and is it reasonable to seek someone else?

    There's nothing wrong with seeking a second opinion. I'm curious if your psychiatrist is someone who is skilled in talk therapy. Depending on where you are, some psychiatrists are more skilled and focused on medical (primarily medications) management. Have you talked to him about the concerns...
  17. Muttly

    Political Venting

    I know this occurs on both sides, but I feel like stating they are brainwashed is a slippery slope. It allows you to dismiss all they say and do, without attempting to understand their motivations. As far as the protestors not being able to give a logical answer, I would challenge the accuracy...
  18. Muttly

    Medical Just diagnosed with lupus

    Sorry for the absence, a lot has happened. I guess I kind of shut down for a while. So, the doctor with the rheumatologist was awful. He came in and asked why we were meeting. I gave him a high level summary assuming this was just a question to get us started. Instead he stated he didn't think...
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    How are you coping with Epstein news? (not a debate thread)

    Hi all, health issues have been consuming my time, energy and ability to think so I have not kept up here. I got a ping though and skimmed some of the most recent posts. Just to clarify my perspective a bit. I welcome debate outside of this thread. I think blindly trusting media and what we...
  20. Muttly

    Medical Just diagnosed with lupus

    I'm so close to crying reading what you wrote @Freida And I know it makes sense but... the cost to stopping and "giving in" and resting and taking care of myself has always seemed so high. A thought that came up, is that it cost my mom her life and of course I can't really know that. In fact...
  21. Muttly

    Medical Just diagnosed with lupus

    So maybe 20 years ago, saw a rheumatologist for chronic pain type issues. I didn't get much out of that. I did get put on duloxetine and that helped with the pain to some degree. And things improved and I decided it had all been in my head. For a long, long time I've gotten sick more often than...
  22. Muttly

    just posting I guess

    That's what this place is for and so many of us have felt similar. I get the need to apologize. I have had that pattern of posting, then hating it for being dramatic and feeling the need to apologize. It's a hard place to be in, because nothing seems right to do.
  23. Muttly

    I miss…

    The Pacific Northwest And not being exhausted every day
  24. Muttly

    Childhood I was in love with my molester.

    I remember being in a similar stage of recovery as you. I remember hating myself for liking him. It took a lot of therapy and work and time but I have forgiven myself. Children need affection, attention and care. It is instinctual to attach themselves emotionally to those that have power over...
  25. Muttly

    Any suggestions regarding how to approach an issue with current therapist

    I also am not sure I fully underestand the situation. Was the response you were expecting from something in the session or from something else? Do you have another session scheduled? What is it you feel you need from her?
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