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I had my follow up session with my therapist a few weeks ago. She thinks I've made good progress and don't give myself credit for the things I've achieved, but says from here on, if I'm happy to do so, I can "be my own therapist" and carry on my road to recovery without therapy. If I want to go...

I know that there's absolutely nothing that can be done in terms of an attacker getting on with their life most of the time. But what KILLS me is how many people see mine as a top citizen. I have told next to no one about what he did to me, only 2 friends, my therapist, my mental health nurse...

It's almost a year since my attacker stopped tourmenting me and although we live in the same town I've thankfully not seen him once, it's the one thing I've been dreading more than anything, mainly because I'm terrified he will see me and then decide he's not done with me. One of my coworkers...

F*ck. So I go through extremely annoying phases with my PTSD. I'll be consumed by it for weeks, seeing my attackers face all the time, anxiety through the roof, being unable to get the images of my attack from going over and over in my head. Then I'll have another few weeks where *poof* I...

Footnote : I don't like the idea of taking anything that's going to make me feel like I'm not totally in control of my body and mind, even when I go out with friends as soon as I feel tipsy I get very wary that I don't have full control and get uncomfortable. This is following an...

I've been heavily steered towards medication by my doctor for my PTSD but always refused, I feel like medication was for people who can't control their anxiety and even though it does get bad I wanted to be able to control it without drugs. I feel sh*t to say I think I'm gonna have to do it...

@Changeling i have seen some beautiful eye tattoo designs I think that's a wonderful idea. It's terrible that you can't look at yourself or touch your skin, I'm sure you will be able to one day. I know that it's a daily struggle and it's hard to get the courage you need to take a breath and do...

@Changeling 2.5 months? Wow! It's inspiring that you have the frame of mind of taking back control over this amount of time, really. It took me a long time to overcome the avoidance and focus on re-claiming and you should do whatever empowers you be it bracelets, decoration, whatever gives you...

So following my second assault almost a year ago, I am still utterly, consumingly haunted. An ongoing battle since it happened has been people grabbing my wrists. I know you're probably thinking "how often do people grab someone's wrists in day to day life" and I would've thought the same but...

Thank you for all the comments everyone, I feel very supported and more focused to keep going the way I am. My boyfriends initial shock seems to have died down and he's stopped trying to convince me to deal with things his way. I've told him if he has any questions he can ask them and he's...

*footnote* I don't want to take any action

My boyfriend knew I was assaulted, but I didn't tell him what exactly happened, I wrote a post a while ago about being unsure about telling him and decide not to. My T told me to write an account on what happened, so I did and ended up destroying it. The other day I was feeling very emotionally...

Let's start off by saying, I'm still struggling like mad, sometimes it still feels worse than ever. I see his face when I close my eyes, I shake in public, I feel close to tears all . the . time ! But... I'm mad, which is giving me this motivation. I'm mad at the guy that's destroyed me, how...

I had my 11th CBT session this morning, I have 1 left and I'm not sure I'm ready to deal with this on my own but I'm trying to be optimistic instead of "oh god what am I going to do" My Therapist said she's going to prepare me for relapses etc. Has anyone found anything helpful after therapy...

I didn't want to hear anything but I'm suprised that my rant is being quoted as martyrdom and being annoyed that I don't have attention when it's really very simple that what my colleague has brought up is something very close to home that is going to bring up a lot of things

I resent this comment, that was not my point at all and it sounds like a very insensitive thing to say. This is nothing to do with martyrdom or "look how strong I am for coming in to work, give me sympathy" this was me going over painful things I've had to battle through. And no I didn't just...

With the overdose I went into work the next day ( very unwell but it was onlye and one other in) after vomiting up the drugs, seeking medical help overnight and being looked after by a friend. I was scared to not go in because my manager had it in for me. And with slashing my wrist, again it...

Ofcourse I'm out of balance, aren't all sufferers? I'm aware that my reaction is blown up, everything is always worse than it really is to me and this definitely got me

First, take a breath. You do need a break and you need to be the first person to give yourself one. Your therapist has probably already suggested deep breathing and using mantras "it's ok, I'm not in any danger" Breathe in for 3, hold for 3, breathe out for 3. This is an ongoing battle and...

She doesn't suffer from PTSD, and my anger does not come from the fact she's getting attention and I'm not. As I said I have the biggest sympathy from people suffering from anxiety and will be the first one to give them advice and have offered to have a chat with her when she returns to work. I...

I have the biggest sympathy for anyone suffering with any mental illness but this girl at work has just enraged me. She is lazy, calls in sick, constantly swaps shifts so she can go out and get drunk and only gets off her phone to flirt with the boys who come in to workout. She's been getting...

Since my attacker stopped harassing me back in October/November time I haven't seen or heard a thing. I had to use some tactics to get him to leave me alone, he didn't just decide to give me peace which is probably the reason for the constant fear that he's going to come back for me. Anyway...

I did write down my account, she had me read it out in a session which was horrific. When it came to reading it over and over alone as she wanted me to do I completely broke down and destroyed it, scribbled it out, tore it into tiny pieces and flushed it down the toilet... After one read. I've...

ok so in therapy sessions we've established that disassociating myself from my feelings is a real problem with me. Its almost a survival instinct at this point, I don't let my feelings show to anyone else. When I'm alone they can cripple me but if I have work I'll have a little cry, clean up my...

My anxiety is terrible but I've been adamant to refuse medication, I hate the idea of shutting off my emotions, even the bad ones. It's a daily battle, however I have a very supportive boyfriend. I write my apple password in his phone and make sure he knows it's there incase I'm ever kidnapped...