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I was essentially abducted from my house by an ambulance crew ordered by my parents many years ago. The fact it happened in my house, and that I have never gotten away, means that nearly everything remotely connected to that event is a major trigger of flashbacks. I've been trying to manage...

I skipped a dose on my lamictal, the other day and this morning and that - combined with family dysfunction (my parents taking my phone first thing in the morning, leaving me high and dry and my dad in another pissed off mood) - led me to elbow a hole in a door in a burst of instanteous reaction...

This month is going to be hell. 1) It resembles the time of year my most horrific and recent trauma occurred: All of a sudden one night being told by my parents I had to go to the hospital, and within minutes having an ambulance crew come and after some time and freaking out, being tied to an...

I happened to come across Peter Levine's 'In an Unspoken Voice: How the Body Releases Trauma and Restores Goodness' at the library. I was briefly familiar with his work through youtube videos and the term Somatic Experiencing, but I didn't realize how literally physical it all is. He spends...

My mother neglected, harassed and generally made my life miserable during a period of time when I was experiencing extreme physical pain and stress and needed help from my parents with a lot of small things. It was a sustained passive aggressive set of behavior (in my view anyway) In addition...

I'll try to provide the briefest of bios I can. I came down with a serious illness in 2009, family ignored me the whole time. Because I have had autoimmune problems my whole life, it lead to serious pain which I was able to semi-keep under control until the biggest of onslaught of stress I...

Its the holiday season for me, which, when not in denial, means some of the emotion the two Decembers I spent in the states horrific involuntary mental health hospital in a row - 2010 and 2011, are part of the mix of my fear and outrage right now, but mainly its being around the parents that did...

I woke up this morning to the AZ republic headline "Botched" Execution: Prisoner takes Two Hours to die, and pretty much ever since then I have been on edge. I've been angry and anxious and just sick, and I just can't get shut of it. A little background: I was thrown into hospital ER's on...

My mom has been out of town for over a week helping my sister. It has been a god send really because I have so much hatred and rage that living around her i am always afraid of being triggered and losing control. So most of the time I feel the anger inside me, and when it really boils up I...

I have been suicidal for over a year. But every time I think about it, the verbal part of me almost automatically shuts up. I have spent far too much time in terrifying hospitals or 'mental health' hospitals, and have too much trauma of it for me to openly discuss what I'm thinking, because...

I don't know why I'm getting worse, but I definitely am. I live back with my parents, who were very involved with my trauma (terrifying forced hospitalizations, lengthy time in involuntary mental hospital etc.) It took almost a two year arc, for me to finally move back home. Before that I was...

I am looking to see a new . . . somebody. But right now my two options besides my current therapist are a guy with more professional experience doing EMDR and a couple of other neuropsychological techniques that I am not familiar with at all (ETT and LENS). I am hesitant to see this guy a...

In two successive Christmas seasons I was forcibly hospitalized by my parents which led to two stays in a bleak scary involuntary mental health 'hospital'. I have not really dealt with any of this trauma. Just being in my house, and it being this time of year makes me anxious. But today my...

I don't really know how to put it down in words. Living with my parents gives me a lot of emotional triggers, and then I am stuck thinking I will have to go back to the hospital where I have been traumatized so many times; it is essentially the reason I have PTSD - conflicts with my parents...

I guess this is the least of my worries right now, because I'm pretty much either on panic or have no energy to do anything, but what is disassociation. I'm familiar with flashbacks - and when I'm at home where my trauma occurred - I have flashbacks semi-regularly. But how is disassociation...

I don't even know if now is a good time to begin, but my brain feels like the Titanic going under. Just too much. Too much pain, too many reminders. A therapist said you can't regain feeling in something (like your hand) without it hurting a lot. Well the part that went numb, is finally...

I had what amounted to a complete mental blow out today. I guess the day didn't start too well since I was already worked up by a trigger in the house and most of my days are pretty stressful. I've been seeing this psychiatrist that my parents found who makes house visits - which helps because...

I was riding home from my uncles house because I had to hide out there since my parents didn't want me at home. It was a pretty nerve rattling day, with my dad telling me he's going to stop paying for me to be at a group home - a group home my parents purposely put me in - and telling me that I...

I'm going to keep this short as possible because I can't think very well now. I've had very traumatic experience at hospitals, half of which ended up with me going through the dungeons of Arizona's involuntary psych 'hospitals', under circumstances beyond my control - i.e. my parents forced me...

Can't really briefly break down the horrific last two and a half years of my life, but they've involved some violent confrontations and traumatic trips to hospital ER's. Five of them. yeah. It started back in October of 2010 where my parents basically ambushed me with the help of this...