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I am not sure about this for anyone else, but being here is like being in my hospital room when I need to get up during the night and cry so people are around who understand. UP until right now, tonight, I have felt safe here. Among those who understand my feelings, and don't make fun of me and...

I know this is going to seem like a stupid question, but I really need to know the answer. I believe my definition is different than others. Also some things here might trigger. When some people read my history, even a small portion of it, they say stuff like "You are so strong." I don't...

My goodness. I am going to start a thread. The reason is to find out if anyone else here has the multiplicity problems I do. And if they do, how they cope with them. I suffer with Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) on top of PTSD. I have so many alternative personalities. They range in age...

I just wanted to say thank you for all you put up with from your person who has PTSD. On behalf of all those who can't say it, THANK YOU. You are appreciated, even though we can't always say that or show it. You may never know all the good you do in this world. But I for one think you need to...

I am so scared. My little and teens are trying to comfort me, but for now, I'm on the verge of tears. (how it began, page 13, item #311.) For those who know me, please come read that entry and give me any advice or information you might have. Thank you.

Did you ever notice that when we look back, we always think, IF I had only... If I hadn't... Today I've doing an IF thing, and I remember that a very wise man once told me, "Don't Look Back!" For a few years I was able to do that, and I was really happy. I was doing what I wanted to do and...

I know I'm usually a very upbeat person, but today I'm really down. I went from an all time high to a fast dip when I realized how much pain I'm still in and I have no pain meds to speak of. It's Sunday, so even if I could get my doc to write a scrip, my pharmacy is closed. Sigh. Anyway, my...

Not really sure how to word this so it doesn't upset anyone. But I'm sure a lot of us have this same issue. I'm looking for a way to ground that little one who lives inside when she flashes back to sexual trauma. Last month I was reading something, and my eyes began to move rapidly and the...

I'm wondering if others understand what I mean when I ask: Why are the body and the mind are two different ages most of the time? is this a PTSD dissociation thing, or just my own personal thing? For me, it happens for a few days after I get triggered. It's like, I know what I should be doing...

When your angry, what is a healthy way to vent? I need some new ways to do it. Any suggestions?

Just curious. I can only remember one meal inside as a wee child. How about you? safenow

It's been many years since I placed a rape baby up for adoption. I'm afraid if she ever found me she would want to know who her father is. I'm not sure how I would tell her, as I'm afraid she would be traumatized to learn it, and also I don't want to hurt her. I have very mixed feelings. You...

You don't need to put the name here. What I meant was: Who's behavior do you pattern love after? For me, it was the head mistress of HollyGrove Home for Children. Here was a little single lady who came to the US from Ireland to start her life. I'm not sure what she did, if anything, before she...

For me: television, black and white television without a bubble to see the green picture, a remote control on a cord in a large box, remote with no cord, color television you don't need a wand to tune in, electric typewriters, computers, individual computers, desk computers, laptop computers...

Do any of you notice that sometimes we can have a nightmare and then it turns into a flashback? For me, it depends upon rather I wake up to hear, see, or smell something that shouldn't be there. How about you? safenow

It's hard for me to talk about this, since it started when I was so young. But here goes. My father's friends would fondle me and have me lick them and touch them while they diddled with me. By the time I was 10 years old I had already been in several foster homes and hospitals while they...

Does anyone else have trouble with ages or holidays and things that involve TIME? If yes, how do you deal with it? safenow

The following flashback halting protocol can be taught. It is based on the principles of dual awareness, reconciling the experiencing self with the observing self. It usually will stop a traumatic flashback quite quickly. Fill in the blanks: Right now I am feeling _________________ (insert...

The 5-4-3-2-1 game is based on the senses. Use relaxation skills. ( aka = 5-4-3-2-1 game) Do use all your senses to ground you in the present. Thus, Visually, focus on the color of objects in your immediate environment (“it’s green,” “long and sharp” etc.) Keep your eyes open...