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I've been with my EMDR therapist about 18 months now. We don't always do EMDR, sometimes we just do talk therapy, but lately have been doing EMDR as I seem to be tapping into or really connecting into some deep, rough emotions. I started telling my Tdoc about my 2 adult daughters Christmas Day...

I grew up in a horrible horrible home living in fear everyday my f might come home and beat the crap out of my mom or us kids, possibly even kill us. Witnessed constant beatings to my mom, once where he kicked her so hard when I was 13 he broke her ribs and I was left to care for her by myself...

I've been on 3mg Klonopin for years and desperately want to get off of this horrible drug. This past month I was taking 4mg and one day last week after a big argument with my 30yo daughter which triggered my PTSD I self-medicated by taking Klonopin all day. It was a one day thing and luckily I...

Last week my therapist suggested a family meeting after my daughter got mad at me and I got seriously triggered. My d is a nurse, 30, and tries to mother me. Her anger was over something stupid, but I reacted to it by spending the day self-medicating on Klonopin. The next day we talked, made...

I started EMDR in July and it was rough for the first few months. I usually dissociated and it took me days to recover. The last couple months we've been working on present things, like health problems, issues with my psychiatrist and last week we worked on my H getting frustrated with my...

I haven't posted since November 19th, which was a thread about how upset I was when my Pdoc yelled at me and called me an addict for taking sleeping pills. Pills that he prescribed. I ended up writing him a letter expressing how triggering his yelling at me had been. I told him it reminded me...

I saw my psych doc today and he actually yelled at me and calling me an addict. History: The last time I saw my psych doc was Oct 13th and he took me off Celexa cold turkey and lowered my Seroquel from 300 to 200mg. I ended going into withdrawal and spent 2 weeks feeling like hell. He called...

I’ve found and purchased some fantastic EMDR audios on ITunes by “Liborio Conti”. They’re called “EMDR Guided Meditation”, “EMDR, PTSD Trauma Restorative Relief”, and “EMDR Therapy Sessions”. I love this woman’s voice. I try and listen to them everyday. The album has probably about 10...

Had a really rough EMDR session this week. In preparing for my appt. I continued reading one of my EMDR books written by Francine Shapiro. I started a chapter called “Emotional Bonding” (bonding and attachment). It stated the following about why a child might feel unloved by their parents...

I've been on Celexa for maybe 10 years. I've been on a low dose for the last years (10mg). Met with my psychiatrist last week (5 days ago) and felt pretty good and optimistic. I take so many meds and am ready to get off of some. I take 300mg of Seroquel so we lowered that down to 200mg. I...

At the beginning of our therapy session yesterday we started talking about my cat's death, which led to the death of my other pets. I don't even remember what our Target was when we started doing the EMDR, but I know we had one. I have terrible remorse/guilt over the way I treated my cat. I...

This week (3 day ago) we didn't do EMDR during therapy. I read her what I posted here about how traumatic the EMDR sessions have been and how hard it's been to recover from them and we just talked. I've been trying to remember what we talked about, but for the life of me I can't remember. But...

My therapist wants me to stay on track with the target we're working on, which is a sexual abuse experience that happened in my 20's. We're trying to get to the root of it and I have had extreme flashbacks to when I was around 5 and being held down and raped by at least 3 boys. During our...

Saw my therapist last week and was finally able to discuss my meltdown from the previous week's session. I was feeling more stable after getting back on my Trileptal med I had forgotten to take the previous week. She described how she witnessed my rage meltdown consisting of ranting and raving...

I had an EMDR session yesterday like no other and would like to know if I should be worried. I've been dx: PTSD, Bipolar, ADHD, sleep disorder, OCPD and have had a really bad year of health problems. Broken tooth, torn retina, macular pucker in my left eye. A fall the end of April causing a...

I haven't posted here for a couple months and wanted to post under an EMDR thread, but guess I don't have privileges. I've been in traditional therapy for over 10 years. Tried EMDR with someone else about 4 years ago and found it terribly distracting to have her wave her finger in front of my...

I've been seeing my new EMDR trauma therapist every week since the end of April. She's gotten to know me in depth, but I've never been able to get in touch with my feelings. I never feel anything, can't remember the last time I cried. Today we talked about my feeling anxious about coming to...

This is kind of long - sorry. Back around the end of 2002 the psychiatrist (pdoc) I had been seeing for a couple years was also seeing my youngest teenage daughter. We were struggling to get my d help and she was in and out of the hospital for what they said was bipolar disorder and multiple...

I've been in therapy a really long time, but just started seeing a trauma specialist the end of April. Seeing her the 1st few times was extremely stressful. One time I came home and crawled into my chair all day and slept. I developed shin splints, but can't remember if I had them before or...

I'm 64 and been in traditional therapy for well over 10 years. While I found it to be helpful I felt like I was just going once a month to check in. I found a trauma therapist in April who does EMDR and have been seeing her every week for over 2 months now basically her getting to know me and...

I'm so glad to have found this forum as I need support to deal with my PTSD and the EMDR I’m starting to deal with it. I’m 64yo and live a quiet life in northern Illinois with my husband of 43 years. We’re both retired, but I keep myself busy quilting, photographing my 6 grandchildren...